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i love yoshi ^-^

i love yoshi ^-^

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i want this death to be sudden. i don't want anyone expecting it, simply because i dont want to annouce that im going to ctb, stresss everyone out, and then stress them out for the rest of their life because they would feel like they could prevent it...

for this reason i'm afraid to buy something like nembutal or SN without a reason, i still live with my ex together, she will notice it.

so i'm considering just getting a rope somewhere, finding a good tree where no one will see me, and catching the bus ^.^

i'll write notes to people that i care about, what other ways can i minimize the negative impact?
 
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-Tandem-

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that's pretty much my plan. Head out to the edge of the city on a neglected road
 
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that's pretty much my plan. Head out to the edge of the city on a neglected road
same here... it'll have to be a long walk till i find a place where no one can see me.

i'm going to research the area and pick a spot beforehand, if i do it i do it for reals i dont want to lie to anyone about it just bc i didnt find a place, it'll only make everything worse.
 
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Finding a way to have people remember you for all the good qualities you bring.
truth be told... i am ok with my life had not everything been dwindling. if i keep going i have to constantly ask help from people, it stresses the hell out of me and i can never give back or actually do something on my own. i feel guilty and dirty. and that's why i consider going out as the best solution, not in spite of them but as a favor. i don't want to continue to worry and bother people, i know there's some people that care about me, i don't want to keep hurting them.

taking my life might sound like a selfish decision, and in the short term, it is, but in the long term, it benefits everyone v_v
 
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TheHolySword

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Nov 22, 2024
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Everyone wants to minimize the impact but it's much for you to understand and accept that you are going to hurt people. You are going to leave them scarred. It's a sad truth but you should not be trying for this impossible goal. This is something that no one who loves you will ever heal from. It may seem harsh to say but anyone who is going to CTB and worries about the aftermath needs to hear it. And if you want to delude yourself into thinking otherwise to make it easier that's your choice, but don't try to or think you can minimize an impact that will hurt more than anything else in this world.
 
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FuneralCry

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I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.
 
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Worndown

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It is fairly easy to find a good rope. Find your location first do you know how long it needs to be.
 
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It is fairly easy to find a good rope. Find your location first do you know how long it needs to be.
good idea.. i plan to buy it somewhere on the way, although it's better to be prepared, maybe day in advance.
 
Worndown

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Find what you need first.
Next, find where to get it.
Figure out what knots are needed and how to tie them.
When needed, you have your plan.
 
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Find what you need first.
Next, find where to get it.
Figure out what knots are needed and how to tie them.
When needed, you have your plan.
yeh. i already know how to tie it and what kinda rope i need, just need a place to buy it.
 
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death_bed221

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Sep 23, 2024
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I would use hanging but I seem to fuck up everything I do, and I don't want to live with a permeant circle over my neck . But if u are sure u can do it, i guess its better than sn
 
Worndown

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You really should do a little planning before attempting any method. Make sure you understand how it works and how failures can happen.
 
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i want this death to be sudden. i don't want anyone expecting it, simply because i dont want to annouce that im going to ctb, stresss everyone out, and then stress them out for the rest of their life because they would feel like they could prevent it...

for this reason i'm afraid to buy something like nembutal or SN without a reason, i still live with my ex together, she will notice it.

so i'm considering just getting a rope somewhere, finding a good tree where no one will see me, and catching the bus ^.^

i'll write notes to people that i care about, what other ways can i minimize the negative impact?
I've thought a lot about hanging to CTB. It's ideal for me, my go to would be fentanyl though.
 
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i want this death to be sudden. i don't want anyone expecting it, simply because i dont want to annouce that im going to ctb, stresss everyone out, and then stress them out for the rest of their life because they would feel like they could prevent it...

for this reason i'm afraid to buy something like nembutal or SN without a reason, i still live with my ex together, she will notice it.

so i'm considering just getting a rope somewhere, finding a good tree where no one will see me, and catching the bus ^.^

i'll write notes to people that i care about, what other ways can i minimize the negative impact?
You have chosen and that takes courage.

It takes fear and cowardice to continue living for the fear of the unknown what lies ahead beyond the pines of this miserable wretched excuse we call life.

I commend you for the bravery and fortitude, but I'm afraid the battle is just begging my friend.

Question is what will you do after? Join the DeiCidal and TheoPhagal Clan

Turn away from the white tunnel of light. and Join us we are amassing an Army of the Dead(Alive) and the Undead ( Dying)

To Kill GOD( Group of Devils) who re the misery makers in the hell-forsaken sorry excuse for a prison planet.

TheoPhage is your password. I sent you. You are forever saved.
 

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