hanged myself and then was rushed to the ER

[ihatecorpo]

hello there, I posted about doing partial suspension hanging yesterday

I lost consciousness and it was very peaceful, however I hanged myself in front of a view that was so amazing (mountains and sunset) that I felt very underwhelmed and even scared of the permanent darkness that I was seeing while suspended. I shouldn't have done it with closed eyes.

I was rushed to the ER and I was paralyzed for a bit. I still can't move my neck. They gave me sedatives that has made me feel numb and sleepy until now

I'm thankful for the experience, even if it failed I realized that I want to ctb in a way that doesnt leave me alone with the darkness. I want to hear and see beautiful things while fading away

 

[Karera]

That sunset, those mountains, they beckon to be seen of their inherent beauty, followed by a violent eruption as the rocks crumble down--as so does everything.

 

[ihatecorpo]

That sunset, those mountains, they beckon to be seen of their inherent beauty, followed by a violent eruption as the rocks crumble down--as so does everything.

Yes they are temporal sadly

 

[Big_Ocelot]

I'm glad you got something out of the experience, but you don't have to worry though there is no such thing as a permanent darkness once you get out of the body (which in a way is a prison for your conciousness) you can have access and see things that are much more beautiful and intese than scenes from everyday reality.

hello there, I posted about doing partial suspension hanging yesterday

I lost consciousness and it was very peaceful, however I hanged myself in front of a view that was so amazing (mountains and sunset) that I felt very underwhelmed and even scared of the permanent darkness that I was seeing while suspended. I shouldn't have done it with closed eyes.

I was rushed to the ER and I was paralyzed for a bit. I still can't move my neck. They gave me sedatives that has made me feel numb and sleepy until now

I'm thankful for the experience, even if it failed I realized that I want to ctb in a way that doesnt leave me alone with the darkness. I want to hear and see beautiful things while fading away

 

[Griever]