Venting Growing up and not wanting to participate in society

[manta]

Hey everyone I'm back.

Honestly I've been trying my best since I was hospitalized back in August. But this entire time I've just been thinking about how pointless everything is.

Does anyone else just feel kinda disinterested in participating in society? Like, I'm expected to be a functioning adult now by working a job, going to school, paying bills etc…

But the more I do this, the more resent I feel towards the fact that I don't really have a choice in anything at all. I wasn't asked to be brought into this world and now all these things are expected of me as I grow up into an adult. Anyone think it's kinda fucked up? I try to convey this to my friends and they don't understand. I simply don't want to exist in this world. It feels like everyone is trying to convince me to continue being a cog in a machine.

Idk. Hopefully someone can empathize with me on this

 

[Darkover]

why am I responsible for anything if I didn't choose to exist in the first place,
to suffer and be cursed into an existence we never wanted.
we never were given a choice. We were FORCED into this wretched excuse called "Life"

 

[davidtorez]

why am I responsible for anything if I didn't choose to exist in the first place,
to suffer and be cursed into an existence we never wanted.
we never were given a choice. We were FORCED into this wretched excuse called "Life"

My thoughts exactly

 

[lovedread]

Hey everyone I'm back.

Honestly I've been trying my best since I was hospitalized back in August. But this entire time I've just been thinking about how pointless everything is.

Does anyone else just feel kinda disinterested in participating in society? Like, I'm expected to be a functioning adult now by working a job, going to school, paying bills etc…

But the more I do this, the more resent I feel towards the fact that I don't really have a choice in anything at all. I wasn't asked to be brought into this world and now all these things are expected of me as I grow up into an adult. Anyone think it's kinda fucked up? I try to convey this to my friends and they don't understand. I simply don't want to exist in this world. It feels like everyone is trying to convince me to continue being a cog in a machine.

Idk. Hopefully someone can empathize with me on this

youre very right!! I super relate to this and plenty of other people do too, under capitalism we are literally forced to earn our right to survive and have basic needs met, even though we have more than enough resources to not force ppl into doing that;

 

[sserafim]

I've never wanted to grow up or participate in society. I was forced to grow up and become an adult against my will. I'm a NEET right now but my mom wants me to start working and I hate this expectation. I didn't choose to be born. I was brought into existence without my consent, so why do I owe society and the world something? I don't owe anyone anything. I hate how there's this expectation and obligation that we must contribute. I don't want to become a slave to the system. It's not my responsibility and I don't owe the system a single thing

youre very right!! I super relate to this and plenty of other people do too, under capitalism we are literally forced to earn our right to survive and have basic needs met, even though we have more than enough resources to not force ppl into doing that;

Mood. Work is modern day slavery. We're all slaves to the system. It's honestly absurd that we have to work to survive and pay to exist on this planet

 

[Red Moon]

Well I just don't fit into society and I don't think I'm able to work. I also just don't want to participate and feel like society hated me.

 

[crystal_meth97]

I can relate so much! I feel exactly the same. There's nothing that can change the way I view society and nothing can make me want to become a person who contributes to this fucked up world. I was thinking the same on psych meds, I'm thinking the same now, when I've been off for a while. It's just how I see it. I was brought here without my consent and people expect me to do things, to contribute, as if I had a choice. I sometimes resent my parents, as well as these expectations, and I feel like the only way I could be free is suicide. Right now, I work as little as possible so that it looks as if I'm not completely wasting my life or doing nothing. I need money anyway, even though I still live with my parents. It is fucked up and I don't even bother discussing my opinions and world view with other people, as only a few understand and relate and those are not people I know IRL. What I do is try to find loopholes so that I can live as comfortably as possible until I decide to CTB. I try to live a simple life, reduce my suffering, and don't get involved in unnecessary things with other people.

 

[grungy自殺]

The things that i hate about this is how well informed you always have to be in order to be participant in the realm of society, and that those are living under rock because of certain circumstances (like isolation for reasons like depression and anxiety) are chastised, ridiculed and stigmatized by those that are been indoctrinated by the shitty code of life. And the constant treatment to be reminded harshly "that that's how life is" by the "members of society" and they have the privilege to gatekeep the disadvangated.

Such cretin bastards ...

 

[Cress]

Hey everyone I'm back.

Honestly I've been trying my best since I was hospitalized back in August. But this entire time I've just been thinking about how pointless everything is.

Does anyone else just feel kinda disinterested in participating in society? Like, I'm expected to be a functioning adult now by working a job, going to school, paying bills etc…

But the more I do this, the more resent I feel towards the fact that I don't really have a choice in anything at all. I wasn't asked to be brought into this world and now all these things are expected of me as I grow up into an adult. Anyone think it's kinda fucked up? I try to convey this to my friends and they don't understand. I simply don't want to exist in this world. It feels like everyone is trying to convince me to continue being a cog in a machine.

Idk. Hopefully someone can empathize with me on this

Yeah I think a lot of people start to lose interest as they get older myself included. When you're younger Your brain is like a sponge absorbing everything and accepting everything unconditionally. Everything just seems more interesting and it's intrinsically tied to how your brain is wired at the time. As we get older Our brains become more solidified and The list of things we enjoy becomes less and less.

Everything seemed possible when you're younger and now nothing seems possible or worth it. Some of this can be Attributed to neurological changes in the brain However I think it's a mistake to not attribute at least some of this to society and the way that it's set up. It's not set up in a way where everyone can succeed and realize what they want out of life. I think more and more people come to this realization when they get older although maybe they don't consciously make the connection As to why they're unhappy.

It's an interesting philosophical conundrum That you have to bring someone's life into existence before you can ask consent to have it created. It's an interesting problem but I think the only way out of it is to have some sort of robust system in place for allowing people to exit. Obviously society as a whole is repulsed by the idea and can't imagine Why life in all cases Isn't always good or desired.

Of course a lot of people have thought about The expectations of bringing people into existence and having expectations of them without them ever having agreed to anything However Those people and us are overall in the minority. I know I'm being nihilistic but I think people like this who will always be shunned and considered maladaptive by the Host Society.

If you wanna read more about the subject and hear what people are saying the common catch term on Google is referred to as "Right to die". You just have to scroll past the random suicide help stuff that Google generates at the top....