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rachybee

Student
Dec 8, 2024
187
Shit!! So I went on O my gp app as I've had a phone call today and I can't remember it. This happens with me.

Anyway.

I went on there and in BIG BOLD letters was


If suspected sodium nitrite ingestion - urgent transfer to hospital for antidote

What the actual fk??! I know the police did welfare checks x2 because of me purchasing from the wrong place - but I didn't think it would go on my notes etc.

I just pray I can hang or not speak to anyone re SN.

Cos they're ready.
I have a ctb plan and date. No one will be concerned re me as no one comes to my home. Ever. Unless it's police etc.

I've decided I will do it on a Tuesday. I will have had my telephone call with my cpn and I won't be meant to see her Thursday.

So I should be dead by then. Hoping! The rope i got feels like it could be it. It's thick but not too thick. I'm using the videos I've seen as reference. And when I'm found. Dead.
 
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Loaf of bread

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Mar 22, 2022
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Wow, having that message on gp app must have been a surprise!! How did you get 2 welfare checks?
 
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rachybee

Student
Dec 8, 2024
187
Wow, having that message on gp app must have been a surprise!! How did you get 2 welfare checks?
Because my ordering flagged for some reason. And also I had to see my gp as I have bad acid etc but he went all mental health related (I spent 50 mins I my appointment which for a gp is mental). He was concerned so sent them then.

But yes having it written down - slightly worried. But no one comes to see me so by the time anyone realises / it will be too late anyway. Cos SN is like 100%
 
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JustHere1

In a way, in a shape, in a form.
Dec 21, 2024
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If you're worried I would actually suggest ramping up your schedule - if you've written it down and planned it, and they're suspect of it somehow, how do they know? If you're more comfortable waiting until your planned date, go for it, but I would be very anxious knowing there could be interference when I'm set on what I want to do. Best of luck.
 
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rachybee

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Dec 8, 2024
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If you're worried I would actually suggest ramping up your schedule - if you've written it down and planned it, and they're suspect of it somehow, how do they know? If you're more comfortable waiting until your planned date, go for it, but I would be very anxious knowing there could be interference when I'm set on what I want to do. Best of luck.
I think I might try partial suspension today. I was going to wait for my SN but I feel I could go today
 
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JustHere1

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Dec 21, 2024
148
I wish you the best of luck.
 
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ignorableaurochs

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Dec 27, 2024
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Shit, this is scary - I did not realise this could happen when ordering SN.
 
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