Story Got exited, im so stupid

[PinkyStat]

Earlier today I was chatting with a friend that i met this year, it was going okay and I was real having fun (i did not have fun in a very long time xd), everything was going okay but then it got deeper and deeper until she said ''can i vent a little bit with you?'' And i said ''sure, i am all ears'' and I really thought that what she said was very relatable and it reminded me of SS a lot too, I said that know how it is to feel like that, shared some thoughts, but then she started saying about how life isnt worth it and stuff like that, I thought ''wow this REALLY sounds like SS''.
I really regret that, but i started saying my thoughts, that i have lost completely my hope in humanity, that everything that we do is just to forget that we want to kill ourselves and that non-existence is the best possible scenario, since we dont have the boredom of being neutral or sadness, after i said that she was typing but didn't send nothing and blocked me.
I think she was expecting for me to say ''noo dont ctb life is good'' or some bs like that, i will never agree with a depressed person that isnt in SS anymore.

 

[Forever Sleep]

This is so sad. I'm sorry. I think I do know that feeling- when you feel like you've clicked with someone and you think you can tell them anything and you realise- too late that you can't. That's pretty bad to have just blocked you though. She could have just said that it was becoming a bit too heavy for her.

I think some people fear suicidal people! I guess maybe they fear going there themselves and maybe they feel like they'll be tempted to if they hang out with other people who have ideation. Not saying you would convince them of course but it legitimizes it I suppose and if someone wants to fight those thoughts, I guess they need to block them out.

I'm sorry though. That kind of thing can make you feel all sorts- shame, guilt, embarassment, loneliness. Still- you didn't do anything wrong. You opened up because it sounded like she felt the same and she couldn't handle it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just don't believe that after all other people can be relied on, I personally don't see it as being for the best opening up about wanting to die in the first place, I'm not surprised that person acted in such a way, it's sad how people cannot open up about their perfectly valid feelings.

 

[アホペンギン]

Yeah, most depressed people who aren't in SS still have hope, so its understandable why she reacted that way. I'm sorry this happened to you. It probably would've happened to me, after being in SS for so long im used to agreeing with someone when they talk about death.

 

[Misfit72]

I don't feel able to risk doing that with anyone, the most I say is that I'm feeling low or drained. I had one organisation call the police on me and they broke into my flat, and I don't want to risk doing that with anyone again.

 

[jessisme]

She clearly wanted reassurance or uplift from you and when you didn't give her exactly what she was looking for she blocked you. Very selfish move on her part. It means that you were having a one way conversation where she decided that your role was to listen and support but that you weren't allowed to express your feelings too and she certainly wasn't interested in offering support to you in return. That is unfair to you and also unhealthy. It's best she is not around if she is going to be that way. No one needs to be the one way dumping ground for another person. Good relationships are about give and take. xo, j