hurts2b
Wasting my time
- Jun 11, 2026
- 135
After a miserable half-year of being unemployed, I have a job now.
It's a weird feeling, and it does lessen the suicidal desire some. This isn't a "goodbye I'm recovering" post. Not at all. I suspect I'll always be some level of suicidal. And self destructive. I'm not interested in fighting those urges. They're parts of me.
Still, this (alongside a close friendship I've made on this site) has been a nice reminder that there can (in fact) be good things in the world and in my life.
Plenty of shit in the world to die over. But. Right now things feel alright. Right now I don't need to die so much.
It's a weird feeling, and it does lessen the suicidal desire some. This isn't a "goodbye I'm recovering" post. Not at all. I suspect I'll always be some level of suicidal. And self destructive. I'm not interested in fighting those urges. They're parts of me.
Still, this (alongside a close friendship I've made on this site) has been a nice reminder that there can (in fact) be good things in the world and in my life.
Plenty of shit in the world to die over. But. Right now things feel alright. Right now I don't need to die so much.