hello everyone, since i'm going to die in a few hours anyways, i wanted to tell you how i ended up wanting to die again.
my name is karl, i'm nineteen and i grew up with a loving family who supports me during my lowest and my highest. they gave me medications, therapy sessions with doctors and a support system. my friends are so dear to me, they are the reason why i look towards the end of each day.
last year, i had decided to jump off of a footbridge and sustained minor injuries. but before that, my then girlfriend begged me not to go back to the footbrige and cried for hours until she finally convinced me to seek help. we were together for six months, and the whole time i was with her, i felt like i was safe, loved and appreciated. she urged me to try new hobbies such as crocheting, learning new instruments and coding. she made me a better person.
we broke up officially on November 6th due to my rapidly declining mental health. she told me that she wasn't the girlfriend i needed and broke it off, she accused me of cheating, and my mental health never recovered after the breakup.
i overdosed that night on pills, and was rushed to the ER. while i was in the psych ward, she found another girl. while i was stabbed with injections all day, she was celebrating her new girl's birthday. i never recovered.
so here i am now, alone with my thoughts and my feelings. i will cbt using partial hanging in a few hours, feel free to ask me anything.
goodbye, i hope this time for real ss. you guys made me feel like i wasn't truly alone battling depression. i love you guys, see you on the other side in a few hours.
my name is karl, i'm nineteen and i grew up with a loving family who supports me during my lowest and my highest. they gave me medications, therapy sessions with doctors and a support system. my friends are so dear to me, they are the reason why i look towards the end of each day.
last year, i had decided to jump off of a footbridge and sustained minor injuries. but before that, my then girlfriend begged me not to go back to the footbrige and cried for hours until she finally convinced me to seek help. we were together for six months, and the whole time i was with her, i felt like i was safe, loved and appreciated. she urged me to try new hobbies such as crocheting, learning new instruments and coding. she made me a better person.
we broke up officially on November 6th due to my rapidly declining mental health. she told me that she wasn't the girlfriend i needed and broke it off, she accused me of cheating, and my mental health never recovered after the breakup.
i overdosed that night on pills, and was rushed to the ER. while i was in the psych ward, she found another girl. while i was stabbed with injections all day, she was celebrating her new girl's birthday. i never recovered.
so here i am now, alone with my thoughts and my feelings. i will cbt using partial hanging in a few hours, feel free to ask me anything.
goodbye, i hope this time for real ss. you guys made me feel like i wasn't truly alone battling depression. i love you guys, see you on the other side in a few hours.
and wish you the best of luck! 
