Goodbye

[Unrecognizable7]

I am sitting in a field nit even dark yet i was in such a rush fron the anxiety.

I took painkiklers and some zopicline, ill drink the Sn in idj when tbh
Whyb3 drinj again

 

[Anonymousa]

Whatever you choose or happens, I hope you can escape your pain, one way or another.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

we're here with you. wish you peace no matter the outcome.

 

[bambibambam]

are you okay? i hope you went into this with a clear mind. it seems like you were trying to type out something and it got all jumbled, if you're able to please update

 

[bankai]

Bro...We'll be with you for what it's worth. But don't do anything you aren't ready for,I'm sorry

I wish you peace regardless of what you choose.

 

[Unrecognizable7]

Frnak ehaz thougjt i was 25mg in 50m ewchx itd thwz enoigh
Wqsbt horriblebpqibfu.

 

[openBottomJeans]

Until we meet again. Goodluck, friend

 

[wham311]

I'm with you friend. I love you. I'm right there.

 

[darksouls]

godspeed

 

[Mary Janex]

I feel so bad that I didn't see your post ealier. Thank you for being such a good friend to me. If you are already gone, I really hope your journey was peaceful and painless. I will miss you and our conversations so incredibly. I hope we will see each other on the other side. Farewell, my friend

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.

 

[Catch-22]

Wishing you a peaceful journey.

 

[thaelyana]

Frnak ehaz thougjt i was 25mg in 50m ewchx itd thwz enoigh
Wqsbt horriblebpqibfu.

Frank thought it was 25 mg in 50 ml, so he thought that was enough. It wasn't terrible, but it wasn't amazing either ?

good travel

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Wishing only peace to you.

 

[spero_meliora]

I hope your journey was peaceful.

 

[AuraByte]

Whatever the outcome, I wish you peace, friend.

 

[wham311]

Checking in buddy

 

[Alexandra_]

I hope you are not suffering now

 

[merciful]

i hope wherever you are now is peaceful.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

i hope you've found your peace. if you are still here and want to update, please update. coming back is not a shame

 

[knivesandcuddles]

dang, i'm sorry i already missed your thread... thank you for chatting with me in private conversation. i hope you've found some peace.

 

[The Morningstar]

I am sorry that I couldn't help you, friend. I hope that you are resting peacefully.

We initially bonded over an entry you made in the Creative Writing Megathread:

Stabbed

Sitting on a bench outside, maybe the world is beautiful I am thinking. "What about the time your mother collapsed on the floor and said she never wanted children, she did that often?" I get stabbed but I fix my posture. Doesn't define me. "Okay but remember when you got assaulted by another kid when you were 5 and you had horrible nightmares". Nah, let's not worry. "12 years of therapy bro, you still feel the same." Pfft, it will get better, I think, starting to feel some scratches. "What about your weird jaw then". It's not weird I think. "yea it is or you wouldn't have been treated like that!". There is surgery shut up, I think. "Oh you can not afford that and then what about the other stuff you hate about your body?" Surgery? I ask with low confidence as I feel it cutting me. "Remember when you were desperately hopeless, you went to get drunk with someone, disappeared for the night, they called the police and your best friend said you just wanted attention?" He didn't know better I think as I get stabbed. "when your first girlfriend told you she was raped, remember that?" Stabbed. "Let's say you suffer for a couple more years and you make it through and you get surgeries, you'll be old, having missed out on everything, just a hole in your heart." I get stabbed. "your foster mother dying remember?" I get stabbed. "Your dad is terribly depressed yep." Stabbed. "lowkey are you sure you didn't get abused more, think about that!" Stabbed. I push the feeling down. "4 months of psych ward, didn't help at all!" Stabbed. "Someone in there was mean to you, you know why don't you?". Stabbed. Look at you. Look at you. "You have no right to even feel sorry like that, no one gives a fuck, so many people died before you you are not special." Stabbed. SHUT UP! I think. "Look at you, they will feel so sad when you are gone. Probably kill themselves. Look at you!" I go to the mirror to make sure it's not as bad.

And get stabbed again.

We later bonded further over how the inspiration for Vertigo and DC's Lucifer came from David Bowie's likeness.

You proved to me that people with NPD can be just as caring and worthy of love as anyone else.

You helped me kick my Afrin addiction.

You helped me make new friends.

I cannot say where anyone goes when they die, but I know where they stay: In my heart, and on my mind.

Finally, I'd like to share with everyone a piece of music you shared with me. It was beautiful. I hope you knew that.

View attachment Unrecognizable7_Sally Can Wait_Oasis Cover.mp3

RIP U7

 

[Alexandra_]

I know you won't read this. You've been gone for a long time. Sometimes I think of you. I'm just so sorry things turned out this way. Rest in peace

 

[Bimbosqualo]

Wishing you a peaceful journey

 

[widows]

I am sitting in a field nit even dark yet i was in such a rush fron the anxiety.

I took painkiklers and some zopicline, ill drink the Sn in idj when tbh
Whyb3 drinj again

i was his girlfriend at the time
i didnt know what this site was
he hid this from me and told me he never wanted me to find this place and by chance i did
he lied to me about what he had planned to do
i loved you so much im so sorry i couldn't save you
you were an angel and
i can only hope you weren't hurting more in your final moments
ich liebe dich

 

[SASU-KE]

i was his girlfriend at the time
i didnt know what this site was
he hid this from me and told me he never wanted me to find this place and by chance i did
he lied to me about what he had planned to do
i loved you so much im so sorry i couldn't save you
you were an angel and
i can only hope you weren't hurting more in your final moments
ich liebe dich

The grief must be overwhelming.I'm so sorry my friend.

 

[widows]

The grief must be overwhelming.I'm so sorry my friend.

it is, there's really no better way to say it.
reading through his posts i feel a deep sadness, i just feel very useless and wishing i could've done more

i have mixed feelings about the people who have given him advice on going through with suicide. i'm angry of course and aggrieved, and a little spooked by this site coming across it now but im much more upset at the people in his personal life who have failed him, and made him feel this way in the first place.

at first i was angry at people encouraging my boyfriend to commit suicide and people even insinuating that i would simply "understand" and let him go. well, the second part is pretty awful to hear for me still, but it's taken me a full year to accept that he was always planning on doing this and he's gone through so much and has had so many heavy and terrifying demons haunting him for all his life. me and his brother are both aware that he knows that we would never simply tell him "alright, you can end your life now, we understand your pain" but we do know yes he was suffering and that he has ultimately made his decision for himself and he is at peace.

i do not condone encouraging people to commit suicide nor providing steps to do so, and i still have a lot of complicated feelings. i did just stumble across this site 2 hours ago at 2am and am feeling very shocked and a little sick. but i wanted to thank you guys for your kind words to him especially regarding his music. he's always loved to perform for others and been the most talented soul i know.

he told me that he wanted to be known by his music, and know that he died leaving an positive impact on people. i dont want to dive too deep into this site and also im aware im yapping a ton in a reply directed to a single person who im not even sure talked to him all that much (my apologies im new to this) but i might post more covers and songs he sang, when im emotionally ready. i hope you guys can love and appreciate him as much as i had the lucky chance to in this lifetime

 

[SASU-KE]

it is, there's really no better way to say it.
reading through his posts i feel a deep sadness, i just feel very useless and wishing i could've done more

i have mixed feelings about the people who have given him advice on going through with suicide. i'm angry of course and aggrieved, and a little spooked by this site coming across it now but im much more upset at the people in his personal life who have failed him, and made him feel this way in the first place.

at first i was angry at people encouraging my boyfriend to commit suicide and people even insinuating that i would simply "understand" and let him go. well, the second part is pretty awful to hear for me still, but it's taken me a full year to accept that he was always planning on doing this and he's gone through so much and has had so many heavy and terrifying demons haunting him for all his life. me and his brother are both aware that he knows that we would never simply tell him "alright, you can end your life now, we understand your pain" but we do know yes he was suffering and that he has ultimately made his decision for himself and he is at peace.

i do not condone encouraging people to commit suicide nor providing steps to do so, and i still have a lot of complicated feelings. i did just stumble across this site 2 hours ago at 2am and am feeling very shocked and a little sick. but i wanted to thank you guys for your kind words to him especially regarding his music. he's always loved to perform for others and been the most talented soul i know.

he told me that he wanted to be known by his music, and know that he died leaving an positive impact on people. i dont want to dive too deep into this site and also im aware im yapping a ton in a reply directed to a single person who im not even sure talked to him all that much (my apologies im new to this) but i might post more covers and songs he sang, when im emotionally ready. i hope you guys can love and appreciate him as much as i had the lucky chance to in this lifetime

I know you miss him and this is really difficult. But this is something he chose for himself.People here are pro-choice, not pro suicide. All people really did was just respect his wishes.

I'm sure people would like to listen to his songs. Once you recover and feel better, please post them if you could.