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Macc Lad

Macc Lad

Specialist
Jan 22, 2019
300
I had an amazing day today but I still feel the invasive dred of depression. I'm going try partial tonight. If that doesn't work I'll try full suspension. I'll keep updated. I'll post more as the night goes on

"So no more tears
You're a big boy now
We'll have a few more beers
We'll sort it out somehow"
 
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creationisdeath

Specialist
Oct 20, 2018
359
are you one of those people that slows down to look at a car crash ??
It makes sense to ask if you also want to die. Almost everything online is so blurry it really doesn't give much of an indication of how it will be. We're just dreaming.
 
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NoChoice

NoChoice

Fallen Zen Master
Jan 28, 2019
207
Can't help but feel bad for the youngsters... I'm not here to try and talk people out of decisions they've already made but I know so many people who were an inch away from ctb in highschool that are now the happiest people I know, myself included before the incident that ruined my life.
 
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Wolfjob_dayjob

Wolfjob_dayjob

Student
Oct 19, 2018
190
Hope you get back from the hospital okay.
 
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Memento Mori

Memento Mori

shambling garbage
Jan 24, 2019
573
Can't help but feel bad for the youngsters... I'm not here to try and talk people out of decisions they've already made but I know so many people who were an inch away from ctb in highschool that are now the happiest people I know, myself included before the incident that ruined my life.

Here are a lot of ppl who struggle and might be happy about staying too, some day.


@Mynameisnotimportant u ok?
 
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Mynameisnotimportant

Mynameisnotimportant

4 years recovered. SS Vetran
Aug 21, 2018
112
update: my depression is basically cured thanks to cymbalta
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
@Mynameisnotimportant
This is really good news :-) I like to read things like this. I'm so pleased this is working for you and wish you all the best. Now you can get to work in those things you wanted to do!
 
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Roberto

Wizard
Jan 19, 2019
684
I had an amazing day today but I still feel the invasive dred of depression. I'm going try partial tonight. If that doesn't work I'll try full suspension. I'll keep updated. I'll post more as the night goes on
Why don't you express more, what you feel, and happens to you? Have you ever talked to a therapist?
 
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Made4TV

Made4TV

A hopeless hope junkie
Sep 17, 2018
574
Why don't you express more, what you feel, and happens to you? Have you ever talked to a therapist?
OP posted an update, doing better on anti-depressants.
 
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color_me_gone

Sun is rising
Dec 27, 2018
970
Can't help but feel bad for the youngsters... I'm not here to try and talk people out of decisions they've already made but I know so many people who were an inch away from ctb in highschool that are now the happiest people I know, myself included before the incident that ruined my life.
That is so true.
Adolescence is such a difficult time to go through, the ctb numbers are very high for that period of life.
But, generally speaking, it does get better, and everybody is glad they didn't, myself included.
update: my depression is basically cured thanks to cymbalta
That is absolutely great news @Mynameisnotimportant ,
We are always happy if a person can find a way around their pain without having to ctb.
You are young. I sincerely hope all your dreams come true!
 
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throwaway_2620

Specialist
Nov 1, 2018
370
update: my depression is basically cured thanks to cymbalta
That's very good to hear, I'm happy you found a solution without having to ctb. I wish you all the best in life and a bright future ahead.
 
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Meretlein

Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
That's very good to hear, I'm happy you found a solution without having to ctb. I wish you all the best in life and a bright future ahead.
I don't want to sound bitter but these are the people who then advocate for traumatizing people with involuntary commitment just because voluntary treatment worked for them.
 
Meretlein

Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
I'm glad you are doing better. Goodluck with whatever you decide to do with your future. <3
 
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throwaway_2620

Specialist
Nov 1, 2018
370
I don't want to sound bitter but these are the people who then advocate for traumatizing people with involuntary commitment just because voluntary treatment worked for them.
Not necessarily! If I change my mind and choose not to ctb, I certainly wouldn't advocate for traumatizing people with involuntary commitment because I'm a pro-choicer who genuinely believes people have the right to die on their own terms. Anyway, I'm glad she found a solution to her problem.
 
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Mynameisnotimportant

Mynameisnotimportant

4 years recovered. SS Vetran
Aug 21, 2018
112
Am confused - when did you start Cymbalta ? Hope all goes the way you want it to ~!
i started it in the psych ward after this attempt
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
@Mynameisnotimportant
I am so glad that you've found something to help - I think depression *can* be relieved by increasing serotonin or dopamine in the brain for some people and to have given you a second chance at life is fabulous :-)

Make sure you look after yourself, too, though and keep up with little things you enjoy and keep a close eye on your mood, if you find yourself getting even a little bit down again make sure you get your medication adjusted. So pleased for you xx
 
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Vaughn

Vaughn

Experienced
Feb 21, 2019
227
I am glad, that within a few hours of your plan departure - you found Cymbalta and like magic it worked right away - good luck ;)
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
I am glad, that within a few hours of your plan departure - you found Cymbalta and like magic it worked right away - good luck ;)

@Vaughn now your post sounded like you're being a bit snakey? Are you being a bit snakey? If so, why? Don't be snakey it doesn't suit you
 
Vaughn

Vaughn

Experienced
Feb 21, 2019
227
i started it in the psych ward after this attempt
I am glad you are feeling much better - but Cymbalta takes a few weeks to kick in ... they must have given you some short term sedative for you to "feel" so much better - ... Again, don't feel discourage if it takes longer to fully kick in, just keep communicating with those that are helping you there. Wishing you the very best -glad you found the solution that worked for you . (hugs)
 

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