Goodbye thread

[miserableforever]

This has come sooner than I wanted. I had travelled down to my destination today to stay in a hotel for five days to relax by myself however my plans been kinda suspected/uncovered and people are asking where I am and it's only a matter of time before the police are called so I am going to have to rush it for tonight. I will literally begin walking to the spot the moment I post this so I unfortunately won't be replying or getting in touch with any of you. I am so grateful for all of you and wish you all the best for the future whatever it has in store for you. Peace x

I'm grateful for your posts. You are a very special person.

 

[forgotten15]

I wish you peace and freedom from all this lifes' pain.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I hope you found the peace you were searching for. Hopefully your love poem reached your ex and she at least felt something from it. I'm glad you had some form of happiness.

 

[cambrai33]

I see you logged in mate, I hope things are ok for you

 

[Insomniac]

are you okay @dumbbrain ?

 

[Kobusu]

Could be LE, no?

 

[cambrai33]

Could be LE, no?

Yes could be most definitely but worth reaching out anyway

 

[blueclover_.]

Safe travels. I hope you find peace.

 

[erdbeeren]

I hope you have the peace you've longed for.

 

[Laowaiboss]

Best of wishes to you, death is only the beginning of the journey.

 

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have been trying to resist posting on here because i know the police have been monitoring my phone activity and aware of my presence here. it would be probably best if i didnt but i am desperate to talk to you guys. i tried creating different accounts but they were rejected.

on monday when i went to my ctb spot i was met by police who were anticipating me. they most likely got tipped off by a lurker on this site. im now in a psychiatric ward. technically i am here "voluntarily" but it was that or being sectioned. likewise in the uk i have the "right" to discharge myself as an informal patient but they will usually just section you if they don't think you should leave. took me about 24 hours to go from custody to the ward and now been here since tuesday night.

it's living hell. after spending a lot of time speaking with people on here who are intelligent when it comes to these things, its really demotivating having to now speak to these fucking idiots.

im also in a really rough part of town so most of the other inpatients arent suicidal per se but are long-termers who have been shoved in here because they aren't all there and they can't survive outside without help. it means there's not really anyone in a similar situation as to me.

this also hasnt prompted a reaction from anyone other than the parents which makes me feel very fucking valued...

tldr: not dead, in a psych ward, feel worse, fucked off at everyone.
also, thank you for all the kind words <3 the support makes the lack of the same thing from people irl slightly less painful

 

[Kobusu]

have been trying to resist posting on here because i know the police have been monitoring my phone activity and aware of my presence here. it would be probably best if i didnt but i am desperate to talk to you guys. i tried creating different accounts but they were rejected.

on monday when i went to my ctb spot i was met by police who were anticipating me. they most likely got tipped off by a lurker on this site. im now in a psychiatric ward. technically i am here "voluntarily" but it was that or being sectioned. likewise in the uk i have the "right" to discharge myself as an informal patient but they will usually just section you if they don't think you should leave. took me about 24 hours to go from custody to the ward and now been here since tuesday night.

it's living hell. after spending a lot of time speaking with people on here who are intelligent when it comes to these things, its really demotivating having to now speak to these fucking idiots.

im also in a really rough part of town so most of the other inpatients arent suicidal per se but are long-termers who have been shoved in here because they aren't all there and they can't survive outside without help. it means there's not really anyone in a similar situation as to me.

this also hasnt prompted a reaction from anyone other than the parents which makes me feel very fucking valued...

tldr: not dead, in a psych ward, feel worse, fucked off at everyone.

Oh fuck they threw you in a Ward. I wish you luck, at least over there you guys get your phones! I'm disheartened that you got thrown into such a shit place, I know how hard it is. I'm sorry you weren't able to find your peace.

 

[Insomniac]

they most likely got tipped off by a lurker on this site.

but how? did you mention your suicide location in one of your posts?

this also hasnt prompted a reaction from anyone other than the parents which makes me feel very fucking valued...

... really sorry.

 

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but how? did you mention your suicide location in one of your posts

ye. beachy head

 

[VoidDesirer22]

ye. beachy head

I hope you recover from this incident. I am very confused why you mentioned the location, but we live and we learn.

Take care.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I'm so sorry to hear that you've ended up being locked up, instead of being at peace. Try to let this one go. For now. You're only gonna stress yourself out more. You're goal is to get out of that place and in order to do that you need to try to get yourself together, calm yourself down and play along. Be smart about it, please.
And I'm sorry things didn't work out with your love…..