Hey everyone. Thank you for the kind regards. I'm back from the bus stop. The bus had no room for me on it today. Never even loaded my gun. While I wish the reason was because I want to continue with life. Sadly, it's not. I'm back because I can't do that to my mom. My friends too, but they had little to do with this decision. I don't think my mom could take it. I think the pain would be just too much for her to bear. She might actually die from heartbreak. She can already barely deal with all the bullshit that life is throwing at her. So I'll continue to run on my empty tank. hopefully something will return a spark to my hopeless soul. And hopefully soon.