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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
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Please don't see it's a sign of weakness or failure. You did take a brave decision. Take care of yourself during this tough time. We are here to listen to you no matter what you choose 🫂
 
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Abandoned Phantom

Abandoned Phantom

Member
Oct 3, 2025
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Hey, sorry things are so hard. What did you mean by "Any longer and I'll have to follow through with the plans my family made for me"?
After my first attempt, I moved back in with my parents. I was in a wheelchair for about 6 months. now i'm walking again, but only recently have i been physically able to drive. Since moving back in with them, we have fomulated a new plan to get me back on track with my life. I figured i wouldnt have been around to see the plans to fruition. but now i will take part in this plan. I was living in a bad location where i was socially isolated. there was nobody my age to befriend. now im moving to a new town where friend lives, and we are going to reunite
 
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BillyBob

BillyBob

Experienced
Jun 14, 2018
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We are all glad that you have made your own choice. Hope you are doing well and your mum will be happy that you are still here.
It is hard, but knowing that you still have that option to CTB at a later date may make life a bit easier for the future and bring a bit of peace and mind for you.
 
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Hopeindeath!

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Dec 7, 2019
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Hopefully, you will find happiness moving to the town where your friend lives.
 
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struggles_inc

struggles_inc

life is a highway and i wanna wreck my car
Jun 24, 2023
469
Hey everyone. Thank you for the kind regards. I'm back from the bus stop. The bus had no room for me on it today. Never even loaded my gun. While I wish the reason was because I want to continue with life. Sadly, it's not. I'm back because I can't do that to my mom. My friends too, but they had little to do with this decision. I don't think my mom could take it. I think the pain would be just too much for her to bear. She might actually die from heartbreak. She can already barely deal with all the bullshit that life is throwing at her. So I'll continue to run on my empty tank. hopefully something will return a spark to my hopeless soul. And hopefully soon.
I think you're doing a noble thing by protecting someone's heart even if you yourself have no will to keep going. Good luck to you, and I wish your spark returns.
 
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dalemar

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Nov 20, 2025
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After my first attempt, I moved back in with my parents. I was in a wheelchair for about 6 months. now i'm walking again, but only recently have i been physically able to drive. Since moving back in with them, we have fomulated a new plan to get me back on track with my life. I figured i wouldnt have been around to see the plans to fruition. but now i will take part in this plan. I was living in a bad location where i was socially isolated. there was nobody my age to befriend. now im moving to a new town where friend lives, and we are going to reunite
Wishing you all the best!
 
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