usernamesarehard
Life sucks and then you die
- Dec 22, 2021
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I'm going to schedule this post 2 months out from my ctb date.
If this does get posted then I'm dead.
I haven't contributed much to the forum, but I feel that there will be at least a few members who notice my disappearance and I feel like I should offer them closure.
Thank you all for the love and support and thought provoking conversations. Being here and posting made me feel a little less alone and stopped me from going crazy. It's hard to bottle all these feelings and thoughts up, but unfortunately we have no choice.
If, for whatever reason, I do survive and end up in a psych ward long enough for this to go public, I'll comment that I survived.
I've been thinking about this quote a lot, so I'll leave it here with you
"You know that song 'If a body catch a body comin' through the rye'? I'd like – "
"It's 'If a body meet a body coming through the rye'!" old Phoebe said. "It's a poem. By Robert Burns."
"I know it's a poem by Robert Burns."
She was right, though. It is "If a body meet a body coming through the rye." I didn't know it then, though.
"I thought it was 'If a body catch a body,'" I said. "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around – nobody big, I mean – except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff – I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be. I know it's crazy."
If this does get posted then I'm dead.
I haven't contributed much to the forum, but I feel that there will be at least a few members who notice my disappearance and I feel like I should offer them closure.
Thank you all for the love and support and thought provoking conversations. Being here and posting made me feel a little less alone and stopped me from going crazy. It's hard to bottle all these feelings and thoughts up, but unfortunately we have no choice.
If, for whatever reason, I do survive and end up in a psych ward long enough for this to go public, I'll comment that I survived.
I've been thinking about this quote a lot, so I'll leave it here with you
"You know that song 'If a body catch a body comin' through the rye'? I'd like – "
"It's 'If a body meet a body coming through the rye'!" old Phoebe said. "It's a poem. By Robert Burns."
"I know it's a poem by Robert Burns."
She was right, though. It is "If a body meet a body coming through the rye." I didn't know it then, though.
"I thought it was 'If a body catch a body,'" I said. "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around – nobody big, I mean – except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff – I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be. I know it's crazy."
️ I hope you've found peace 
