- Jun 22, 2023
This is most likely going to be my last day alive. Im at work right now and as soon as I get home tonight, im going start the process. I will use my SN. The drugs that I will be taking prior are 120mg propranalol and 200ug of LSD. Unfortunately I dont have an antiemetic but whatever. I wont eat anything today. Im going to take the LSD and propranolol at the same time and while waiting for it to kick in, ill prepare 25g of my SN in 2 cups and set them on my nightstand. When I start tripping and my SI is gone, and it feels like the right time,ill drink my SN and lay on my right side till I pass out and die (psychedelics pretty much completely remove my SI when im tripping and make me really suicidal). I might text my ex and try to have a conversation about anything just so she can be the last person I talk to. Ill obviously drink my second cup if I vomit too much. Today really just seems right and I feel ready. Still pretty nervous but thats what the acids for I guess. I will update as I complete the steps when Im and home and begin. I will be doing this while my mom is home so there is a chance that I will be found and survive. Because thats a possibility, I ask that my account not be banned until I havent come back here for a week. I will also update if I chicken out. The suffering might finally be done tonight.