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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I've been planning this ever since my fuck up with the PC SN last time . KN and some asphyxiation should be enough to get me on the bus. I can't give a date incase someone tries to stop me , and if they do ill never talk to them again...
I have a strong feeling this might be the one as long as I don't puke early on , which I doubt I'll do with some dramamine a hour before.

I miss a lot of great people on here ... @Lily6759, @RoseGirl , @evanesent_eva, @MercenariesofMidgar, and a few others whose accounts are no longer active.

But to the people who are still alive and have been keeping me going this far... thank you. This includes @Dante_ ,@katara ,and @Namelesa ... the three of you made it easier to try but sadly it's not enough for people like us ... and I'm sorry.

I've suffered long enough... lost more then most humans can bare.
I'll still be on here for a few more days or so but once I take everything I'll make a comment saying im leaving... thank you everyone .
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,365
I am very sorry for your suffering, I hope you find the peace you deserve
 
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Ch4in3dcr0w

The crow of hopelessness and despair
Jun 21, 2025
382
Wishing you peace
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
979
I recently became a member on SaSu, but I have been reading many of your posts Blueberry Panic in the past few months. I will miss your posts once you are gone, but I won't try to stop you, or talk you out of it as that would do nothing but prolong your torment.

May you finally find the peace that awaits you at the end of this road. I hope you are utterly released from all the physical and psychological torment you have so bravely carried.:heart:
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
Thank you for thanking me, tho i don't think i deserve it that much.

Whatever you choose or happens, i hope you can escape the pain of this world, one way or another.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
I'm sorry it has come to this but glad that your suffering will end. I hope you find peace.
 
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MissAbyss

Member
Jul 20, 2025
585
✨️ Wishing you eternal peace ✨
 
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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
351
I'm sorry your leaving, sending lots of love xx
 
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Dark Mood

Member
Oct 3, 2025
72
I hope you will find eternal peace
 
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corpse

corpse

dead inside
Aug 31, 2025
250
I hope you find peace.
 
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vig919

The difficulty factor is disappointing
Oct 13, 2025
72
I've only been here for a short while. But I appreciate the help that you've given me and I feel your pain. I do hope you find the peace that we are all looking for.
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
265
First, thank you for helping me out a bit. I'm sorry for all of the suffering you've gone through. You don't deserve it. I truly hope you find the peace and rest you're looking for. I'll miss seeing you around, but I respect your decision and am sure I'm not too far behind you. Whatever happens, I'll be thinking of you. Thanks again <3
 
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katara

katara

tiktok.com/@katara3250
Mar 17, 2022
652
I don't even know what to say to this. I feel like I should leave this forum too because nobody wants me here. I remember we met in the general chat and it's been nice talking with you. You can always message me on discord if you need to reach me

adventure time love GIF
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,664
Wishing you peace with whatever you decide.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
I hope that your suffering ends and that you find peace.
 
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idiotmother

Arcanist
Mar 21, 2025
466
I just commented on the other thread, but I need to wish you good luck on here too. You've been through so much, you deserve to be at peace, whatever you decide.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
About to take KN ... meditating before I do it
 
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dasmurphy

Member
Mar 19, 2025
32
I wish you the best of luck and a quick and easy transfer
 
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Greasyhair

Greasyhair

Member
Oct 18, 2025
72
Rest in peace. Your recent story was very touching, and I plan on using it as reference on how to format mine when the time comes.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I'm still alive , for some reason my body is going through everything but it's all light and I don't feel like I'm going to go unconscious at all.

I'm going to take a long nap and actually eat something...
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,824
Did you take the KN? Are you still awake?
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Did you take the KN? Are you still awake?
I took it but I'm still alive . My body is weak and u feel like absolute shit but I'm alive
I don't think the source I used is good...
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Will you be okay sleeping it off? Maybe you need medical attention?
Taking a bath to warm up my body and to get blood circulation. I'll take a nap or something soon. I honestly feel fine , just fatigued
 
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FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,824
I'm so sorry for what you're going through, sending love and hope you recover well.
 
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