Goodbye thread, I hope

[evanescent_eva]

So I guess this is it. In a few hours, I will be checking into a hotel room, where I plan to die later today. My method of choice will be full suspension hanging - it's quick, it's accessible, it's only painful for a few moments before unconsciousness sets in, and it's highly lethal. For those who don't know, passing out will likely occur within 10 seconds; brain death will set in after 5-10 minutes; and body death typically follows at the 20-30 minute mark.

There are still a few ways this could go wrong. It could be that the gap between the bathroom door and the door frame isn't wide enough to slide a rope through; it could be that my survival instinct flares up before I step off my platform; or it could be that I make too much noise while unconscious and someone files a noise complaint before my half an hour is up. But these are risks I'm willing to accept. I'll definitely report back if any one of those complications foils my plan.

I haven't been on sasu for very long, and I haven't been the most active member while a member here. And yet, my experience here has been full. I've learned so much from this site, and I'd like to think I passed some of that learning on to other people. I've definitely helped people here, and I've hurt people, too. I've even made unexpected friends in unexpected places.

But my life is miserable. I have made death wait far too long, and it is almost time for me to go. I love you all, and wish you the very best of luck on your journeys, wherever they lead <3

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

wish you the very best of luck on your journeys, wherever they lead <3

All the same to you, may peace await you <3

 

[opheliaoveragain]

sending the biggest hug. we're here with you unmet friend. wishing you relief no matter the outcome.

 

[MourningFlower]

Safe travels, I wish you peace in whatever you decide.

 

[Wolf Girl]

You're not alone. We're with you.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[Grog]

You're among the coolest people I've met on here. It's not going to feel the same without you. I'm going to miss the fuck out of you. I'm so sorry you feel it has to be this way… I wish I could give you a hug…

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

We didnt interact that much but i had so much fun in the counting game with you. I wish u all the best and the most peaceful passing imaginable. Much love and hope everything works out like u planned it. Once again much love u wont be forgotten

 

[JesiBel]

I'm so sorry you've reached this point. We've met in a few threads; you're a very wise person, and you've shared a lot of your knowledge with us. I'm speechless. I hope your plans turn out as you wish. Best of luck, and may you achieve peace and serenity. A big hug for you.

 

[wham311]

With you. Hope you find peace

 

[Namelesa]

Whatever you choose and whatever happens, I hope you escape the pain you are in one way or another. You been really fun to play and talk with in the counting game ^^ and you asking to be jokingly banned by me for like 5 mins for saying 69 uncensored will probably be the best and funniest thing I ever do as mod. Thank you for your time here eva <3 if your attempt fails know I will be here to play more counting game.

 

[Redacted24]

Please save me a seat next to you, Eva.
You're amazing and will be missed.
Smooth passage and comfortable journey to your desired destination
Richard

 

[Leyna]

I hope you find peace

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much
we are all with you
sending you much love
I hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[niceday]

That's very sad. I wish you all the very best.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

*pulls out a chair* have a seat, my friend.

 

[tanshakti]

So I guess this is it. In a few hours, I will be checking into a hotel room, where I plan to die later today. My method of choice will be full suspension hanging - it's quick, it's accessible, it's only painful for a few moments before unconsciousness sets in, and it's highly lethal. For those who don't know, passing out will likely occur within 10 seconds; brain death will set in after 5-10 minutes; and body death typically follows at the 20-30 minute mark.

There are still a few ways this could go wrong. It could be that the gap between the bathroom door and the door frame isn't wide enough to slide a rope through; it could be that my survival instinct flares up before I step off my platform; or it could be that I make too much noise while unconscious and someone files a noise complaint before my half an hour is up. But these are risks I'm willing to accept. I'll definitely report back if any one of those complications foils my plan.

I haven't been on sasu for very long, and I haven't been the most active member while a member here. And yet, my experience here has been full. I've learned so much from this site, and I'd like to think I passed some of that learning on to other people. I've definitely helped people here, and I've hurt people, too. I've even made unexpected friends in unexpected places.

But my life is miserable. I have made death wait far too long, and it is almost time for me to go. I love you all, and wish you the very best of luck on your journeys, wherever they lead <3

Dear Eva, in short time you have gave back so much to this community and personally to me, as i have similar method and setup planned in next 60 days. I will be visiting your threads for more guidance. you will be missed, but wish you peace and serenity from this pain and suffering.

 

[wham311]

Dear Eva, in short time you have gave back so much to this community and personally to me, as i have similar method and setup planned in next 60 days. I will be visiting your threads for more guidance. you will be missed, but wish you peace and serenity from this pain and suffering.

Same

 

[homeboundcripple]

So I guess this is it. In a few hours, I will be checking into a hotel room, where I plan to die later today. My method of choice will be full suspension hanging - it's quick, it's accessible, it's only painful for a few moments before unconsciousness sets in, and it's highly lethal. For those who don't know, passing out will likely occur within 10 seconds; brain death will set in after 5-10 minutes; and body death typically follows at the 20-30 minute mark.

There are still a few ways this could go wrong. It could be that the gap between the bathroom door and the door frame isn't wide enough to slide a rope through; it could be that my survival instinct flares up before I step off my platform; or it could be that I make too much noise while unconscious and someone files a noise complaint before my half an hour is up. But these are risks I'm willing to accept. I'll definitely report back if any one of those complications foils my plan.

I haven't been on sasu for very long, and I haven't been the most active member while a member here. And yet, my experience here has been full. I've learned so much from this site, and I'd like to think I passed some of that learning on to other people. I've definitely helped people here, and I've hurt people, too. I've even made unexpected friends in unexpected places.

But my life is miserable. I have made death wait far too long, and it is almost time for me to go. I love you all, and wish you the very best of luck on your journeys, wherever they lead <3

Have tv playing in the background to drown out any potential noise. May success be with you.

 

[theboy]

Peace

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Hi, I wish you good luck. You are brave for doing full hanging, I hope I can too soon. I hope you'll get unconscious very fast

 

[evanescent_eva]

Thank you all so much for the kind messages. You have made this journey a little less scary, and a little less lonesome.

I've successfully checked into my hotel room. It's on the 31st floor, and it feels like I'm overlooking an entire city. But I've encountered an interesting problem, as far as I'm aware not reported on this site before. I had planned on using a dumbbell thrown over a door as my anchor point: you put the weight on the other side of the door from where you hang, you tie a hitch knot around the weight, you throw the rope over the door, tie a noose on the side of the door where you plan on hanging, close the door, and hang. However, my rope - 12mm braided polypropylene - does not fit between the top of the door and the door frame. That is, when I try to close the door, the rope blocks the door from fully closing.

HOWEVER, when I test my setup....it seems to work? When I use the rope to support my full weight and I shake around, the door doesn't move. When I've pulled the rope as hard as I can in every direction I can think of, the door has stayed put. The door is definitely strong enough to support my weight, and it seems stuck where it is. This obviously doesn't feel as safe as if the door had fully closed, but I think I'm going to go for it anyway.

I'll keep you all posted, but that's one of three obstacles (seemingly) surmounted. And my survival instinct has been kept in check for now. Fingers crossed that it stays that way.

 

[Sannti]

I'm sorry you are suffering that much and the life is not as good as it should be :( I wish you everything best and it was really nice to play together in the counting game, sending hugs and love <3

 

[Already_dead]

Sounds like a pretty solid plan to me, however I would make sure to carry this out when you know very little people will be around. You don't want someone to get suspicious of the weight and move it mid-suspension. Other wise, good luck, and I hope you find peace.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

So I guess this is it. In a few hours, I will be checking into a hotel room, where I plan to die later today. My method of choice will be full suspension hanging - it's quick, it's accessible, it's only painful for a few moments before unconsciousness sets in, and it's highly lethal. For those who don't know, passing out will likely occur within 10 seconds; brain death will set in after 5-10 minutes; and body death typically follows at the 20-30 minute mark.

There are still a few ways this could go wrong. It could be that the gap between the bathroom door and the door frame isn't wide enough to slide a rope through; it could be that my survival instinct flares up before I step off my platform; or it could be that I make too much noise while unconscious and someone files a noise complaint before my half an hour is up. But these are risks I'm willing to accept. I'll definitely report back if any one of those complications foils my plan.

I haven't been on sasu for very long, and I haven't been the most active member while a member here. And yet, my experience here has been full. I've learned so much from this site, and I'd like to think I passed some of that learning on to other people. I've definitely helped people here, and I've hurt people, too. I've even made unexpected friends in unexpected places.

But my life is miserable. I have made death wait far too long, and it is almost time for me to go. I love you all, and wish you the very best of luck on your journeys, wherever they lead <3

I hope you find the peace that you deserve.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Wishing you find peace brave one

 

[Dejected 55]

Sounds like a pretty solid plan to me, however I would make sure to carry this out when you know very little people will be around. You don't want someone to get suspicious of the weight and move it mid-suspension. Other wise, good luck, and I hope you find peace.

I would assume the door in question is an interior door (like the bathroom door for instance). I wouldn't presume someone would do this on the front door to a hotel room where any random person could just walk by and see it.

 

[Redacted24]

With extra line, tied off to something outside of the door (a chair leg or similar) then fed under the door to the inside and tied to something solid inside could also help keep the door closed if that might be an issue

 

[spero_meliora]

I'm so sorry to see you go, friend. You were always fun to see in the games section.

I hope your journey brings you the peace you deserve. And if SI kicks in too much, remember there is always another day.

 

[Rynalia]

Wishing you well Eva, we'll play more counting games in the stars one day.

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