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lw1235

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Jul 7, 2024
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i don't think I care anymore how painful hanging will be. I've done this too many times this year not to go through with it. Don't think, just do. I've written my letters to people that i'm leaving behind and am ready to go. It's torturous to wake up every morning thinking how I dont want to be here any more. Ask me anything.
 
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lamargue

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Jun 5, 2024
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i don't think I care anymore how painful hanging will be. I've done this too many times this year not to go through with it. Don't think, just do. I've written my letters to people that i'm leaving behind and am ready to go. It's torturous to wake up every morning thinking how I dont want to be here any more. Ask me anything.
full or partial suspension? thinking this might be my only course as well
 
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darkandtwisty

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Jul 10, 2024
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I'm sorry about the pain you're going through. I don't know your story, but this not an easy decision to come to. Do you mind sharing a bit of your story before you go?
 
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lw1235

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Jul 7, 2024
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I'm sorry about the pain you're going through. I don't know your story, but this not an easy decision to come to. Do you mind sharing a bit of your story before you go?
I've completely lost my mind and my psyche is broken. no conscience, no heart, no soul, no feeling, complete nihilist, just existing like a vegetable with an idle mind. I'm not a sane person anymore and I could really hurt people so I'd rather not continue. life is supposed to have meaning, but if you are mentally and emotionally detached from everything and everyone then what's the point. and I'm not even depressed. depression is a feeling, which I dont have anymore. I'm not "feeling" suicidal either. I just know I need to do it so I can stop waking up to this state of mind. what triggered this is incredible loneliness, lost sense of self, sense of direction, no purpose, no zest for life anymore. no point in getting a job with a disturbed mind. I'm leaving behind an incredibly loving family and I know it'll break their heart, esp my mom, but there's nothing them or anyone can do to help me.
 
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agony1996

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Jul 8, 2024
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i don't think I care anymore how painful hanging will be. I've done this too many times this year not to go through with it. Don't think, just do. I've written my letters to people that i'm leaving behind and am ready to go. It's torturous to wake up every morning thinking how I dont want to be here any more. Ask me anything.
I wish you luck and eternal peace 🙏
 
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indefinitesleep2

Im out
Jun 29, 2024
105
I've completely lost my mind and my psyche is broken. no conscience, no heart, no soul, no feeling, complete nihilist, just existing like a vegetable with an idle mind. I'm not a sane person anymore and I could really hurt people so I'd rather not continue. life is supposed to have meaning, but if you are mentally and emotionally detached from everything and everyone then what's the point. and I'm not even depressed. depression is a feeling, which I dont have anymore. I'm not "feeling" suicidal either. I just know I need to do it so I can stop waking up to this state of mind. what triggered this is incredible loneliness, lost sense of self, sense of direction, no purpose, no zest for life anymore. no point in getting a job with a disturbed mind. I'm leaving behind an incredibly loving family and I know it'll break their heart, esp my mom, but there's nothing them or anyone can do to help me.
anhedonia is awful Im hoping to join you soon, I hope it goes peacefully for you brother and you reach the other side without suffering
 
misatosdiary

misatosdiary

everything will be okay
Jun 28, 2024
24
Sorry for the pain you're going through, it sounds awful. I have one question, what were your letters like? Do you blame any person or do you rather apologise?
 
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lw1235

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Jul 7, 2024
17
Sorry for the pain you're going through, it sounds awful. I have one question, what were your letters like? Do you blame any person or do you rather apologise?
No, I just wrote them telling how much I love them and i'll be watching over them and that I will be at peace. all good things. no bad things
 
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opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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I hope they feel the truth in your words, and I sincerely hope that whatever comes next is as peaceful as possible. We will be here for you no matter what you decide. Feel free to PM me only if you want, here if you need someone. Hanging is coming down to my only option too
 

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