MAKE IT STOP!
MAKE IT STOP
- Feb 11, 2023
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My former FP found my r/SuicideWatch post on reddit that was about how I was going to self delete and the date it would happen (August 4th, the only reason why I chose that date anyway was because it would be the 19th anniversary of a comfort movie of mine), along with my recent YouTube videos that contained suicide jokes in them, and came to my DMs to talk me out of it. I was shocked she still cared, but I decided I would listen to her anyway. And then I realized I have a reason to live past August 4th (I have friends, and a character I yumeship with is getting a plush in fall, the latter may be a silly reason to live but I've always wanted to hold her and cuddle her). Since I dropped my plan to ctb, I guess this is goodbye. To know someone I thought wouldn't care still cares just fills me with a newfound joy I've never felt before.