gomenasai
Student
- Sep 30, 2022
- 168
Hello,
I am the husband of gomenasai. Probably even those who talked to her didn't know much about her, as she was a private person. She was a talented, beautiful, and intelligent woman in her early 30's from Europe who had a rare tinnitus-like illness. She had lived with it for almost a decade after a serious accident. While we had many good times in those years, it was mostly a period filled with pain for her and she was slowly becoming more and more disabled. She had long ago decided that there was no other way to escape her suffering.
About a month ago she returned to the great void from whence we all come. She used SN from P. She went bravely, with no fear or regret in her eyes. Seeing the look on her face after all had transpired, I believe it was also a peaceful transition.
Although she didn't like people, she was very appreciative of those who helped her make her journey in a safe and dignified manner. She mentioned Lonerzepam and some other people on here. I don't remember well.
As for me, this event has highlighted the senselessness of life. I will surely join her by my own hand sooner or later, but I will take my time about it. After all, it is not a decision to be taken lightly or in the heat of passion, as it leaves so much pain and trauma in its wake upon all of those who loved the traveller. And there is no way back from this journey.
I will not come here again much, if at all - perhaps only to check the replies to this thread once. I have no interest in communion with others, especially those who do nothing but talk. When I do it, I will make the decision alone and go alone without talking about it.
That being said, you can strike out her name, which I believe is the tradition here. I only post this at all because my wife was really a very good person. She would have wanted people to know that there is hope if you are suffering. You are not nobody - a hapless cog in a machine. You are somebody and you can take your destiny in your own hands. There is a way out and you don't have to let anyone take that away from you.
I am the husband of gomenasai. Probably even those who talked to her didn't know much about her, as she was a private person. She was a talented, beautiful, and intelligent woman in her early 30's from Europe who had a rare tinnitus-like illness. She had lived with it for almost a decade after a serious accident. While we had many good times in those years, it was mostly a period filled with pain for her and she was slowly becoming more and more disabled. She had long ago decided that there was no other way to escape her suffering.
About a month ago she returned to the great void from whence we all come. She used SN from P. She went bravely, with no fear or regret in her eyes. Seeing the look on her face after all had transpired, I believe it was also a peaceful transition.
Although she didn't like people, she was very appreciative of those who helped her make her journey in a safe and dignified manner. She mentioned Lonerzepam and some other people on here. I don't remember well.
As for me, this event has highlighted the senselessness of life. I will surely join her by my own hand sooner or later, but I will take my time about it. After all, it is not a decision to be taken lightly or in the heat of passion, as it leaves so much pain and trauma in its wake upon all of those who loved the traveller. And there is no way back from this journey.
I will not come here again much, if at all - perhaps only to check the replies to this thread once. I have no interest in communion with others, especially those who do nothing but talk. When I do it, I will make the decision alone and go alone without talking about it.
That being said, you can strike out her name, which I believe is the tradition here. I only post this at all because my wife was really a very good person. She would have wanted people to know that there is hope if you are suffering. You are not nobody - a hapless cog in a machine. You are somebody and you can take your destiny in your own hands. There is a way out and you don't have to let anyone take that away from you.
