Goodbye <3 Partial Suspension.

[Amumu]

@Despondent dear sasu fiance

I hope you're not acting impulsively. You're adorable and funny too.

I just want you not to suffer. Infinite love

I feel extremely sad too and I contemplated ctb a few hours ago too.

 

[rs929]

I'm worried as I read you might be going through a crisis.

This site advocates for the freedom of making a rational choice of ending your own life. If you believe you might be attempting based on impulse and emotion, that would be against the spirit of the site you're a mod for

Please correct me if I'm wrong about what I said about SS' spirit

Just my two cents.

Send you a hug


EDIT: Just copied this from "the principles of sanctionedsuicide" post. The bold/ italics are mine
EDIT2: I'm not judging you, it just seems it's not the right time to go yet

• Why is it called SanctionedSuicide?

"Sanctioned" can mean a number of things, but in particular it is the acceptance of something; a consideration, influence, or principle that dictates an ethical choice. It is important to understand that *acknowledging* does not equal *encouraging*. We accept that suicide is a valid, personal, ethical choice that everyone should be able to make, as long as they are within a rational, non-impulsive state. In other words, it is bodily autonomy. We do not, however, encourage suicide, and this has been the stance of the community since the old days of reddit communities, where they originated.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Sending peace and love to you!

 

[Kyrok]

@Despondent , Ceasy, you're young, healthy, smart, sweet, caring and a joy to chat with.

The world needs more people like you, not less. The problem that's leading you to ctb is not you. It's the world. And with your spirit, you can find some nook in the world where you fit.

I don't know everything about you and what has brought you to this choice, but maybe you need a way out of your circumstances, not your existence.

 

[LiesAndLigatures]

I'll miss you Ceasey, but I understand. This is your choice to make. I wish things could be different. I've been wishing for that a lot recently.

 

[Ednospatient]

Failing partial is easy, I've attempted four times and did not succeed. But good luck to you.

 

[Apathy79]

CEASEY!

You're a delight Cease. Lovely to chat with. I've been trying to keep up with your trials and tribulations recently - it's been difficult to watch and it's easy to see why you'd feel this way with all that going on. That said, there have been some bright sparks among the gloom recently so I was surprised to see this post at this time in particular.

I do agree with what Foogs says. I hope you give it some thought. We love you Cease and only want the best for you and if that means ctb so be it and I wish you well with whatever comes next. But my sense is it's not your time just yet.

 

[Esc9434]

Ceasey, I hope I am not too late...

I would be sad to see you go, but I understand.

I think you have a lot to offer this world.

I feel you can be successful and happy under the right circumstances.

Outside of medication and physical fitness, have you tried spirituality?

You can start off as a Christian, then go choose another religion down the line or find your own spiritual path based on your own research.

At the end it is all about having unconditional love and empathy for others and yourself.

Also, living life with no fear.

 

[PrettyMoose]

Please reconsider.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

@Despondent I wrote this in the chat but just missed you.

In case you return here: "You deserve so much better.

You are bright, like a shining star that illuminates everything and everyone you come into contact with, and you do not deserve to have that light dimmed or extinguished."

I'd also like to add: Although I did not know you personally, from the few interactions we had, it is clear to me that you are a wonderful person. A genuinely kind individual, who made others feel welcome and valued. From what I have gathered here, you have been failed catastrophically by the very services that are supposed to protect you and help you. Once again, they have let someone slip through the cracks. Once again, they have let a beautiful human being die.

I am so sorry, to @Despondent and to everyone whose lives have been touched by her.

If you return, I must reiterate that you are always welcome to reach out. I will listen without judgement. I will be here. And it's evident you have friends here who will do the same and much more, friends that love you so much.

Otherwise, I only hope you do not suffer in the slightest and that you will be at peace.

I wish it never came to this. You deserved to recover like you planned, to find happiness and build a better life. And if you do stay with us, you still deserve all of those things.

 

[Despondent]

Update: I failed at my attempt yesterday and am reattempting today. I have faith this time around and I have a good spot that will strongly hold my noose. I've already made my slip knot. I'll be listening to some of my favorite songs before my attempt in the next fifteen to thirty minutes.

I love you guys with all of my heart.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Update: I failed at my attempt yesterday and am reattempting today. I have faith this time around and I have a good spot that will strongly hold my noose. I've already made my slip knot. I'll be listening to some of my favorite songs before my attempt in the next fifteen to thirty minutes.

I love you guys with all of my heart.

I wish you peace <3

 

[Midgardsorm]

Safe travels, friend.

I already said that, but comfortable if you have to postpone your method.

If you're certain, may you find peace.

You light will shine bright, forever.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

Update: I failed at my attempt yesterday and am reattempting today. I have faith this time around and I have a good spot that will strongly hold my noose. I've already made my slip knot. I'll be listening to some of my favorite songs before my attempt in the next fifteen to thirty minutes.

I love you guys with all of my heart.

Just know how much people here love you. In a way someone like you deserves it. Someone that is so lovely, so nice, so kind hearted, and so much more (english is not my first language because if it was I wouldn't stop to use adjectives to describe you)
With you being gone this shitty world looses someone with the potential to make it a better place.

I have no Idea if you believe in this bullshit but I do. So I'm sure we'll meet another time and the next time both of us will have better hands dealt by life. Next time we'll have freedom from negativity and show the world what kind of persons we are. We'll show them how beautiful life can be and we'll have so much fun words can't describe it.

I said this so many times by now but once again: I wish you the very best. If you ctb or keep going doesn't matter but I'm sure you'll find the peace you deserve.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

Update: I failed at my attempt yesterday and am reattempting today. I have faith this time around and I have a good spot that will strongly hold my noose. I've already made my slip knot. I'll be listening to some of my favorite songs before my attempt in the next fifteen to thirty minutes.

I love you guys with all of my heart.

@Despondent Whatever happens, please know that you have a special place in my heart and always will, and that it's a true honour to have a place in yours too.

I hope the services that failed you so devastatingly pay for what they did to you. I hope they are exposed and held accountable. I hope they are dragged through the mud for letting you down.

I wish I had taken the time to get to know you sooner, because you truly are a wonderful human being. Thank you for being a part of my life for a short time, and for letting me be a part of yours.

As much as I wish you could stay, that you could recover, that life could be different for you, I understand that life does not always work out that way. It can ravage us, ruin us, raze our souls into the ground. It would be hypocritical to tell you what to do, considering my own imminent death.

You deserved better, but that's true for many, many people, including those who find themselves here. You deserved better, but this world does not care what anyone feels, needs or deserves.

However, I care. Many members here care. We all wish you could continue to heal, to grow, to build a better life. I know, however, that this cannot forced that upon you. I know that so many of us try and try and try to heal but simply can't, myself included. I know that the provisions that are supposed to help us can instead harm us, like they have you, me and many others.

I just wish you loved yourself the way we love you, that you could see what we see, that you could feel the admiration and care that we do. I have seen you call yourself a burden, a monster, a piece of shit. And you are none of those things. None of them. You do not weigh down on people's lives here, you enrich them.

I am here for you whatever happens next. I support you. If you stay, I hope you get the support you need and can continue your path to recovery. You deserve a better life. If you do, I will be here for you and rooting for you for as long as I live, and so will many others here. If you leave, I truly hope you will be at peace - after all you have suffered, you truly deserve peace. Lots of love

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Dear @Despondent, if you're absolutely sure about your decision, if that's what you really want, I wish you success. But I truly hope that you will change your mind and give recovery another try. There's nothing wrong with postponing something that is so final. People here love and respect you. We all wish you only good. Whatever you decide, I wish you peace, I wish you well.

 

[littlelungs]

Update: I failed at my attempt yesterday and am reattempting today. I have faith this time around and I have a good spot that will strongly hold my noose. I've already made my slip knot. I'll be listening to some of my favorite songs before my attempt in the next fifteen to thirty minutes.

I love you guys with all of my heart.

We love you too, @Despondent.

Just our little interaction in chat the other day was so wholesome – you're just so easy to talk to and I regret not having talked to you more in the past. You are so understanding, empathetic and thoughtful towards other people's suffering, despite suffering so much yourself. You make people feel heard and like they matter, which, in such a world that we live in, is absolutely invaluable, and I'm so sorry that this world let you down so badly. You never deserved this.

I'm not going to lie, as much as I understand and want you to get your peace (no matter where you find it), I'm heartbroken that you're leaving, and I want to emphasize that there will ALWAYS be a place for you here if you decide to not go through with it after all. If you do, I hope with all of my heart that it's everything you could have ever wanted and more.

Your absence will be felt and you will be so sorely missed by so many people. I will never forget you.

 

[chocolatebar]

Every time I'm away for a few days, I come back to see someone I love ctb. I know we're all on the edge here and may go at any time, but I still feel like hit by a rock every time... maybe I'm too sentimental or too warmhearted for this place...

@Despondent, I'd like to say that you're officially the sweetest person I know and I really wish you the best.

However, @Foogs makes an important consideration. Are you experiencing extreme mood changes? This is something complex and maybe you should consider. Which version of you are you? Should a part of you have the responsibility to make a decision that affects you as a whole?

 

[thats_a_wrap]

I don't post much but I spent a lot of time on here lately. I never met you or interacted with you, but I can tell you are a special person with a good soul. You've clearly helped so many and left quite the lasting impression. Reading some of the context around your story, I really wish I had have been able to chat with you and for us to get to know each other. I think you and I are quite similar in some ways. I've been thinking of you a lot since seeing this post, and I'm still thinking of you now. I wish you peace and for your suffering to ease. Thank you for shining your light on the world, and I sorry for how things have turned out. Whatever you decide, there's no shame. We all have so much love, respect and empathy for you.

 

[MewtwoIsAlive]

Eternal peace is waiting

 

[Circles]

I didn't get to know you but I wish you peace and hope the other side treats you better.