JezebelDuLioncourt
Member
- Feb 23, 2024
- 81
It's not your time yet, mate. Go easy on yourself. Treat yourself and your kitty to a nice meal and feel grateful for having the courage to say "Not today, Death."
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,939
Malaria
If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
- Feb 24, 2024
- 1,085
Don't beat yourself up. It's understandable.
I hope you find the peace you're looking for and you've helped other people since even in your final moments you're thinking about reassuring others.
IHurtTheOneILove
Experienced
- Dec 16, 2023
- 206
Don't feel awful it's perfectly normal to back out. I've backed out a bunch before. Maybe it's a sign to stick around?
Valky
Petulant Child
- Apr 4, 2023
- 1,322
No need to be sorry. Death isn't a race. <3
persimmon
Student
- Jan 21, 2024
- 148
Dliena
𝚂𝚂 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝙽𝚘. 43,53?
- Dec 22, 2023
- 1,889
No pressures OP wishing all the very best that you are able to get and may eternal peace be within you.
DarkThoughts
eepy guy, hoping to CTB with someone else.
- Feb 6, 2024
- 119
I cannot describe how much I appreciate all of your support 
. I will try again in a couple months when the circumstances would be much more comfortable. This also gives me some more time to search for a pact buddy, as that's desirable but very unlikely.
. I will try again in a couple months when the circumstances would be much more comfortable. This also gives me some more time to search for a pact buddy, as that's desirable but very unlikely.Hmmm...question on the pact buddy. Do people connect here for that? I'm new so don't really know the rules. And would you ideally find someone in person? Or on this site? And curious as to what made you decide not to move forward with the planned date?I cannot describe how much I appreciate all of your support
good luck mate, we here !I cannot describe how much I appreciate all of your support
I know my response is late, but maybe it's not time for you to leave now. People don't understand its really hard to ctb. It sounds easy but mentally it's a hard decision and physically it can be painful, either way it's never as easy as people believe it to be. I hope you're in a better space.
I hope the best for you whatever you decide in the near future
Please don't beat yourself up about backing out.Survival instinct is a hell of a thing. The majority of people here would have been gone if it weren't for SI.
You've definitely had an impact and thank you for that.
You've definitely had an impact and thank you for that.
DarkThoughts
eepy guy, hoping to CTB with someone else.
- Feb 6, 2024
- 119
Been inactive for a few weeks but I'm back.
Yeah, people generally try to find partners here on SaSu and get to know them better on other platform (WhatsApp, Telegram etc). I decided to postpone until early June because my circumstance was very uncomfortable. I had been planning to CTB on the shore of a river where drug users tend to hang out. It was really cold, despite my suitable clothing, and I simply realised it wasn't worth doing yet. Still fully intent on dying, but I'd like to be comfortable and feel safe.
You have to do what's best for you! All my attempts were spontaneous meaning a day or 2 of thinking of it. June may come and you made decide to change your mind, and that's ok. Don't put too much pressure on yourself, take this time to evaluation your life and decide if this is something you truly want to put yourself through again. I think the biggest misconception with suicide is people think we try once and succeed and for some that may be true but the reality is before someone attempts its usually an idea they have suffered with and finally its the last option that we feel can end our suffering, and when it doesn't happen like we expect, all those emotions comes back and it's hard to cope with. Waking up alive is nothing beautiful, it's horrible. I want to say whatever you decide I hope it's a decision that you are happy with.
