Going to attempt train later today

[M48 Patton]

I know people will judge me and that's fine but I don't have anything else. Im not doing this to hurt the driver and it's not their fault. I'm not confident my SN will come through. Probably going to loose my house and my partner and my dog even if I don't have to ctt, regardless I don't have my health or my mind.

Our nanny state has left me no choice as they won't let us use easier methods like sn

Hopefully I won't be a coward and back out.

If I am I'm sure I will be back here waiting on the sn or trying again.

Got to keep telling myself my life is truly
Over.

 

[Onelegman]

I hope you find happiness in your attempt. You deserve happiness, like anyone else in the world.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best in your plan.

 

[Roadrunner]

Hope your free!

 

[M48 Patton]

I froze up. I've failed at life, I've failed at trying to die.