hypeandauramoments
Fictional men saved my life
- Apr 30, 2026
- 2
I remember a few years ago when I was in high school, I got hospitalized for a few months and it was actually the most peaceful time I've ever had, occasional crying and screaming sounds aside, I didn't have to do my assignments, didn't have to see my family members, and all I had to think about was to rest. I'm in uni now, and I feel like my problems are a thousand times worse compared to back then, while reminiscing it starts seeming like just getting myself hospitalized would be good enough, I don't know, I don't have to fully be gone, but just the thought of me not having to think of anything else and people suddenly caring when you get hurt physically... that feels so nice to me. I know it's not reaally something good, but now instead of looking for methods on how to ctb, I'm looking for methods on how to get *mildly* hurt. At least it's a step forward lol
Had a lot of health problems and fortunately healthcare is affordable here. And as for my family, as long as I get to be freed from them at least temporarily I'd do anything (I'd just lock myself in my room for way longer than usual if they annoy me more anyways). Like yes I know nothing will change in the long run but I just want a little bit of rest and this looks like the best option for me for some reason
