Discussion Getting high on DXM

[notmyusername]

I'm getting high tonight. Idk where else to talk about it other than here. I realized I use this drug because I can't handle my emotions. I realized it a while ago.

I've been annoying. I've been overzealous recently with my boyfriend. I think it's been annoying him. I've been talking too much and I've been a mess. I take drugs to shut me the fuck up sometimes. Anybody else do that? I gotta chill the fuck out and this is the only way I know how to do make myself calm right away.

He asked me to lay off the DXM last night, or be more careful. I'm doing my highest dose yet tonight. And I like to mix it with Benadryl. Which is even more unhealthy. I am a shitty person. I just ignored his words completely. I want to be around him but I don't want him to realize I'm high. But who even cares. Who cares if he gets mad at me? I do. I'll be heartbroken but at the same time I don't care. I know I am such an asshole.
I don't care if this stuff kills me either. I want to rest. Who fucking cares is all I can think.

 

[lobotomie]

I heavily relate to this, I feel you. I used to be addicted to DXM, to the point where I couldnt even go outside without taking 25 pills first & every time I went outside I immediately went to the pharmacy before doing anything else. I used to take it to cope with my severe social anxiety, however all of my friends are very anti-drugs. Every time I hung out with them, I had to try my best to act sober so they wouldnt judge me or get mad at me. I can't give you advice on how to get clean, because I personally only got clean because I eventually got too broke to buy it and too depressed to leave my house lol. However if you want advice on how to hide it, I recommend wearing sunglasses (only if youre outside, otherwise it'll be weird) or avoiding looking directly at your boyfriend, since he'll likely notice your pupils if you do. Also sitting down for most of the time is a good idea, since I personally tend to walk really weirdly when on DXM which often gives away that I'm high. Other than that though.. theres not much I can tell you that you probably dont already know. When talking, focus on speaking clearly so you dont slur your words, also think of what to say before you say it, otherwise it could result in very weird sentences that will give away that youre not sober.

Have a nice trip, I wish you best of luck with your boyfriend and i truly hope you and him can resolve this issue soon. Maybe try to have a serious conversation with him about this, preferably one where you're both able to think rationally & aren't controlled by extreme emotions.

 

[F@#$]

DXM,like cough syrup? I didn't realize that actually was a thing. I've heard of "lean".

 

[LunarLight]

DXM,like cough syrup? I didn't realize that actually was a thing. I've heard of "lean".

Lean is made among others of another cough syrup (codeine).

I've always dreamt of getting high on DXM but in my country it's super hard to get...