ozenn
Member
- Sep 21, 2025
- 7
i don't think i've ever felt as emotionally drained as i have recently
i don't really feel safe anywhere or with anyone anymore and it's been making me feel shittier every day i have to wake up and process everything all over again. it's not like anything outright bad has happened i just constantly feel on edge and things and people that used to give me some semblance of comfort just mean nothing to me anymore
i have literally been doing nothing but sleeping half the day away and not leaving my room for the rest, insomnia keeps me up until like 7am i literally just want to sleep constantly and if i could get away with it then thats all i would do. it's like the only respite that i get to not have to think and not be constantly panicked, and not be constantly reminded that i have literally nobody that wants to talk to me
i don't remember the last time i actually left my house, my mum resents me for it even if she won't admit it she's outright told me i feel like a stranger and i don't know what to do
i've been trying so hard to talk to her and be normal but ive gone so long just not bothering and not being able to convey any of the shit in my head that it's impossible for me to even try to act like anything normal
if i felt i was pretty enough i really would just leave the house all day and wait for something bad to happen to me, the idea plays on my mind constantly and i feel disgusting for it but i think it's the only way id feel wanted at this point
i don't really feel safe anywhere or with anyone anymore and it's been making me feel shittier every day i have to wake up and process everything all over again. it's not like anything outright bad has happened i just constantly feel on edge and things and people that used to give me some semblance of comfort just mean nothing to me anymore
i have literally been doing nothing but sleeping half the day away and not leaving my room for the rest, insomnia keeps me up until like 7am i literally just want to sleep constantly and if i could get away with it then thats all i would do. it's like the only respite that i get to not have to think and not be constantly panicked, and not be constantly reminded that i have literally nobody that wants to talk to me
i don't remember the last time i actually left my house, my mum resents me for it even if she won't admit it she's outright told me i feel like a stranger and i don't know what to do
i've been trying so hard to talk to her and be normal but ive gone so long just not bothering and not being able to convey any of the shit in my head that it's impossible for me to even try to act like anything normal
if i felt i was pretty enough i really would just leave the house all day and wait for something bad to happen to me, the idea plays on my mind constantly and i feel disgusting for it but i think it's the only way id feel wanted at this point
