Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can escape from and find peace from this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so cruel, terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so futile to me. I'd never wish for this existence that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, all I see as desirable is never suffering ever again with this cruel, futile existence finally all gone and forgotten, non-existence is just all I could hope and wish for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this torturous, futile and cruel existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, all I want is to never suffer again.

I just wish for some peace from this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this deeply undesirable, painful and futile existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused and brought so much pain and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for peace, all I want is to never exist ever again and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I always just find it so dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence.