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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

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Jun 24, 2025
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Always wishing to erase this existence.
I really do always wish to erase this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all in this existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the pain and suffering of existing just continues.

It's all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to disappear from this existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten with no more pain and no more suffering. I always wish to erase my existence, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, I really would never wish for any of this, non-existence is just all I hope for and is all I could ever wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
To cease existing is just all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope and wish for and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible and I just wish I never existed.

I really never should had suffered at all in this existence I never would had chose but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, the fact that this existence was imposed causing all this suffering as a result is just always the most terrible tragedy to me and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me.

I just want to never exist ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, only non-existence can bring me any peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I just want all to be gone for me, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all just so dreadful to me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Existing to me is just waiting to die.
To me existing truly is just waiting to die and I just suffer so much from waiting for death in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I hope for is the peace of non-existence.

I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, I'll just always see it as so futile to exist, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone.

I just wish to be permanently free from this torturous, cruel existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to never exist ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is dreamless eternal sleep where all is finally gone and I can be at peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as a mistake.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Preferring to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel, dreadful and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is an eternal sleep.

I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence but of course all the pain and suffering just continues, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this dreadful, torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'll just always and only see existing as waiting to die. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence, it's just all so cruel to me and there's so much cruelty in existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, non-existence is just the only relief and peace for me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
To exist is just always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, to me existence will always be an abomination that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll just always see existence as an abomination torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to cease existing, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally all is gone and nothing in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence can concern me and I suffer simply from existing. It's just all so cruel and terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything and I just suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again, it's just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so cruel and painful to me and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway and there's just so much suffering in existing, it really is just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Always finding it painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to exist and I'd just never wish for the pain of this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues.

I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist. I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this deeply undesirable, futile existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I always wish I never existed, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Existence to me is the most cruel, torturous burden.
No matter what I really will always see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel and dreadful to me.

I wish I never existed more than anything but of course all the suffering just continues and it's so dreadful to me how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is to never exist again.

I just wish to permanently cease existing where this dreadful, futile existence is finally all forgotten and I'll just always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence that just causes and brings suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this dreadful, futile existence where I just hope and wait to be gone, non-existence is just all that's desirable to me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
To cease existing is just the only relief for me.
It truly is the only relief for me and is just all I hope for in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

For me non-existence is the only peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this dreadful, futile existence I always saw as a mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result.

I'll just always and only see existing as just being suffering, it's all so cruel to me and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer all for the sake of it. I'll just always see existence as the most cruel mistake that just causes harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll just wish to be free from it, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is to never exist again, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I just never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in this torturous existence I never would wish for.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Always finding it so painful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so painful to exist and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to never wake again.

All I wish for is an eternal sleep where this painful, dreadful existence is all gone but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel to me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is eternal sleep.

I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish to exist, for me non-existence just is the only relief and I'll only be at peace in permanent non-existence, I'd never wish for this painful existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for no more suffering, I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain of existing just continues, as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I want all to be forgotten for me, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this futile, torturous existence more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues.

It's all so dreadful and cruel to me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to never exist again and I suffer simply from existing.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything. All I want is to never exist again but of course the pain of this dreadful, futile existence just continues and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious suffering in this existence, it's all so cruel to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me any relief from this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake causing all this suffering as a result.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Just wanting to disappear.
To disappear from this cruel, dreadful existence really is all I hope for, I wish for no more suffering but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel to me, there's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to disappear, I just want this existence to be all forgotten, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, as long as I exist I'll just hope to never wake.

I just wish for no more suffering, I just want to dissappear with all gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so painful, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer again. I just wish for non-existence to finally solve everything for me and bring me peace, I always wish and hope to erase this existence like I never suffered as all I wish for is no more suffering and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for, all I want is to disappear and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to disappear from this torturous existence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
To exist is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as an abomination to exist and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.

It's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is non-existence where all is finally forgotten about and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again, I just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing.

It's all so cruel to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence I always saw as a mistake where I'm just hoping and waiting to be gone, I'd just never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured just to decay and die anyway and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I just wish for some peace from the abomination of existence.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful causing endless amounts of suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful existence more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope to permanently cease existing, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone and finally nothing can concern me and I suffer simply from existing.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, it just causes harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, for me non-existence is all that's positive and is all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake, all I wish for is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any relief and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to not exist and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, to me existence really is the most torturous, dreadful burden and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence is finally all gone and I can be at peace, for me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake causing all this suffering.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
I'll just only be at peace in non-existence.
I truly will only be at peace in non-existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all gone but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of existing.

It's all so terrible and I'd just never wish to exist, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and is all I hope for, I'd just always prefer to not exist but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable and I'll only be at peace in non-existence. All I want is to never wake, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake that I just never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist. I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this futile, dreadful existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I just want to never suffer again.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,490
Suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence.
I really do always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to cease existing peacefully to finally escape from the suffering of this dreadful, torturous existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I suffer simply from existing and it's all so cruel to me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I really am just always so tired of suffering and I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious burdened with this existence, it really is all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this.
 

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