Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is just all I hope for in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence more than anything.

I'd just never wish for this existence I always saw as the most dreadful mistake rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and there is no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I wish I never existed more than anything and I just never should had been burdened with this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering I never would had chosen that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always see existing as only suffering. It's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, I'll just always find it so torturous and terrible to exist and I'd never wish for any of this, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence and I always wish I never suffered, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake but of course all the suffering just continues.

It feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering, all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is gone and nothing in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence can concern me and I suffer simply from existing, all I hope and wish for is to never wake. I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from and the peace of an eternal sleep is just all I see as desirable, it's just all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'll always see existence as the most cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as only suffering.
No matter what existing will always be only suffering to me and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the cruelty and suffering just continues, it's all so cruel and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the suffering of existing and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist.
I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

To me existence will always feel like a terrible mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where finally all is forgotten, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence as all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and finally I can be at peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace, I just wish for non-existence, to cease existing is just all I see as desirable in this existence I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and painful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it.
It truly does just cause suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured only eternal sleep can bring me any peace and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the relief of never suffering again.

I just want to be free from it all, I'll always see it as the most torturous, cruel burden to exist and it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and to me existing is only suffering, I just want all to be gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently to finally escape from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake, I just wish for some peace, I just want all to be forgotten, I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I truly do always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to be gone for me.

I wish for the peace of non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and this existence I always saw as such a dreadful mistake is finally all forgotten and I'll just always see existence as the problem, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

I just want all to be gone for me, I'd just never wish for this existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I'll just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents. It's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want it to be like I never suffered, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me, I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

This existence of unnecessary suffering just never should had been imposed.
It truly never should had been imposed and I just wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I'll just always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I suffer simply from existing, I'll just always hope to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for in this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

As long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal sleep where all is forgotten and nothing can concern me, it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this painful existence but of course all the pain and suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful and cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'll always see it as the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always so terrible to me.
No matter what I'll always find it so terrible to exist, I find it so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where this dreadful, terrible existence is finally all gone.

I'd just never wish to exist and no matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me in this torturous, futile existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's all so cruel and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing. It's all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering, I just want all to be forgotten, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, cruel existence that I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, all I want is to never suffer again and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish for permanent relief from this dreadful existence I just never would had chosen and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always be waiting to die.
I really will always see existing as waiting to die no matter what and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the suffering of existing.

I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want peace from this cruel, futile existence I never would had wished for where I'm just waiting to die, I just wish to never exist again, for me existence really will always be the problem and I wish I never suffered more than anything, to suffer in this existence really is always so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist. I just want all to be gone for me, I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only wish for no more suffering, I just want some peace and for me non-existence is the only peace and relief, it's just all I see as desirable, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this existence more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, for me existence is always the problem and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, for me only non-existence is desirable and is just all I hope for. I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, as long as I exist I'll only hope for eternal sleep, I wish to never suffer ever again and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to not exist, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake, I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve everything for me.
It truly is all that can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this cruel, deeply undesirable and torturous existence where I'm hoping and waiting to be gone and I'll just always and only see existing as suffering all for the sake of it.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I just wish to never exist again, I wish for no more suffering, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me but of course I continue to suffer and there's just so much suffering in this deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake.

As long as I exist I really will just hope to sleep permanently, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for but of course all the suffering just continues, I'd never wish for any of this and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in dreamless eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
I really would never want to exist and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, existing to me is always so undesirable and I just find it so dreadful and torturous to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and it's all so cruel to me.

I'd never wish for any of this and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and is just the only relief for me. All I want is to never suffer ever again and there's just so much suffering in this deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and for me non-existence really is the only relief, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing it as an abomination to exist.
No matter what I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and it's all so cruel and dreadful to me.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel to me.

I'd just never wish for this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from, I just hope and wish to never wake ever again. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is the only relief and is just all I hope for, I'd just never wish for the abomination of existence and I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, it really is just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in this dreadful existence.
There truly is so much cruelty in this dreadful existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering of this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake continues and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel to me and I always find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence no matter what and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence where all is gone and finally I can be at peace. For me eternal sleep is the only peace and is just all I wish for, I'd just never wish for this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel, dreadful and terrible to me and I always wish I never existed, I just never should had suffered in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen at all and there's just so much suffering in existing, I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel, harmful mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the problem and it's one that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

To suffer in this existence really is always so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, as long as I exist I really will just hope for dreamless eternal sleep.

I just want all to be forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, only non-existence can solve everything for me and is just all I hope for, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me and for this cruel, torturous existence to be no longer my problem is just all I hope for. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering, there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence truly is the only relief from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence no matter what rather all I want is peace, I just want to never wake again.