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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Peace for me could only lie in eternal sleep.
For me eternal sleep truly is the only peace and is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so torturous and dreadful to suffer in this existence no matter what, I always wish I could just choose to never wake ever again.

I just want all to finally be gone for me in non-existence but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible, I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence where there is no more pain and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer in this existence. I just want to never wake ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to escape from this torturous existence and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, non-existence truly is all I hope for and could ever do. I wish for no more suffering and I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, for me the only relief could ever lie in non-existence, I just wish for this existence to be no longer my problem with all finally forgotten about with no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, futile existence.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Existing is just so futile to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as so futile to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I hope for is to never exist ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten.

For this existence to be no longer my problem really is all I hope for, to me existing really is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence at all, I'd just never wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it I always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything. I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for, I'm just always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to be conscious burdened with this existence just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as waiting to die, this futile existence really is just suffering all for the sake of it to me with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, I just want to never suffer ever again.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Always finding it so dreadful how this existence was imposed.
No matter what I really will always find it so terrible and dreadful how this existence was imposed and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten for me.

I'll just always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I can rest and for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief. I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just suffering there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's all so terrible to me. I just never should had suffered at all and to me existing really is only suffering, I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this existence and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to not suffering at all, I wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll never wish for the suffering of existing.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous existence, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I could hope for, I wish for no more pain and suffering rather I just want all to be gone for me.

I'd just never wish for this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather all I want is to never exist ever again, in this existence so cruel all I could wish for is to never wake, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally I can be at peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered more than anything. I really never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I'll only and always hope to not exist, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally nothing can concern me and I can rest, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is just the only peace for me, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the relief I search for and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this cruel, torturous existence, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering the only peace for me could ever lie in eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and is just all I see as desirable in this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I suffer as a result of existing and it's suffering only eternal sleep can bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence where finally I can rest and this existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally no longer my problem. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for the peace of non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace from this torturous existence I search for and I always suffer so much as result of being burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden so cruel that just causes suffering.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Only hoping for permanent relief from suffering.
No matter what all I could hope for is permanent relief from suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence just continues, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again with all gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I always wish to never wake again and in this existence where there's all this suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured non existence really is the only peace for me, it's all I hope for and is all I see as desirable. All want is for all to be forgotten for me in non-existence, I just wish to be permanently free from this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake but of course all the suffering just continues and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to be forgotten, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, I just want to never wake ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, all I want is to never wake again with no more pain and no more suffering.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Only wanting to never exist ever again.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is to never exist ever again, I wish for no more suffering rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist.

For me non-existence really is all that's positive and is the only relief, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, it's all so cruel, dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll always and only hope for peace, I just want to never wake, I just want all to be gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this futile, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, more than anything I wish I never suffered, I never should had been burdened with this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I just want to never wake ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief from this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want to never exist ever again with all finally gone.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Always seeing existence as the problem.
No matter what I really will just always see existence as the problem and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I never should had been burdened with this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it I always saw as such a terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for from this cruel existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and I just never should had suffered, I'll always see existing as just being unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away and bring me relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, futile existence.

Rather I just hope for non-existence where all is finally gone and I can be at peace, for me peace really could only lie in eternal sleep, I just want to never wake ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist and I always suffer as a result of this futile torturous existence, non-existence truly is all that can bring me the peace I search for, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence, I wish I never suffered more than anything.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Only non-existence could ever be positive for me.
It truly is all that could ever be positive for me and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is this painful, torturous existence to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for, I only see an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally forgotten as being positive but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just waiting for death anyway.

I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just suffering there was never a need for and I just always suffer so much from being conscious burdened with this existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything. I never should had suffered but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful and terrible, I'd just always prefer the peace of an eternal sleep over being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
I'll just always want to never suffer ever again.
No matter what I really will just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and I can rest, non-existence really is all that can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'll just always see existence as a mistake, it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence.

I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden so dreadful and torturous and I wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is just all I could hope for, I wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer so unnecessarily in this futile, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and I'll just always see existing as only suffering. I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I always hope and wish to just never wake ever again with no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of existing.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Existing to me will always be only suffering.
No matter what I really will always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and it's all so dreadful and terrible to me, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it.

As long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence where all is forgotten and finally I can be at peace and for me eternal sleep really is the only peace, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to never wake ever again, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's one only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me relief from as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence where nothing can concern me and finally all is gone. I just wish for no more cruelty and I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake, to me existing really is just only suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I always wish to never exist ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for and is just all I'll hope for as long as I'm burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden only ceasing to exist could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Existing is always so torturous to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as so torturous to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence rather all I hope for is the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only being suffering.

I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from. I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, more than anything I wish I never had to suffer, I just find it so torturous to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from as after all if all is forgotten then I cannot suffer and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I always suffer so much as a result of existence, it really is all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the peace from this torturous existence I search for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake.

For me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, all I hope and wish for is to never wake ever again, only non-existence can bring me peace from this existence that to me is just waiting to die and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist. Only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I'd just always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence. All I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much just waiting to die anyway, I always wish and hope to never wake, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Ceasing to exist is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and is just all I could hope and wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again with this cruel, torturous existence finally all forgotten and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake.

I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I just wish I never existed more than anything and as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I truly wish I never suffered at all and I'll always see it as so terrible to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily. For me non-existence really is the only peace, it's just all I see as desirable, all I hope for is no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me any relief from as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, the peace of non-existence really is all I could wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again, for me existence really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake and I wish I never existed more than anything, I really never should had been forced to suffer at all.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Existence is an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake.

Only non-existence can take away and solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and to never suffer ever again really is all I hope for and see as desirable, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty where this existence is finally all gone and forgotten and to be permanently free from this cruel, torturous existence really is all I hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence, to me existence really is just always the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again. I wish for no more suffering and I always suffer from existing, I just wish I was never burdened with the abomination of existence more than anything, I truly never should had existed at all and I wish I never suffered, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this torturous existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed, this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just never should had been imposed and I find it so tragic how it was.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Wish I never suffered.
More than anything I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence and I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence, for me existence really is always the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I only hope for non-existence where all is finally forgotten, more than anything I just wish I never suffered and I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope for non-existence where all is gone, I just see it as so terrible how this existence was even imposed causing all this pain as a result, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is the only relief for me, I just find it so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death. It's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of non-existence where finally nothing can concern me, I just wish for this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake to finally be no longer my problem, I always wish that more than anything I never suffered and I'll always see existing as only suffering.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
I'll only be at peace in non-existence.
I really will only be at peace in non-existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where all is finally forgotten and for me existence really is the problem, it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, the peace of an eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable and is all I could wish for. I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, to sleep permanently really is all I could hope for, I just wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is to never wake ever again.

In this existence where there's all this suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer exist, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can take away for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, I'd just never wish for the pain and cruelty of existing rather I just want to not exist, I'd never wish for this painful, harmful existence of suffering all for the sake of it I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Preferring non-existence over suffering.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence rather I only wish for the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone, for me only non-existence is positive and desirable and I just wish I never suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake more than anything and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It's all so dreafful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, in this existence so cruel and torturous only eternal sleep can bring me any peace, only the peace of non-existence is positive for me, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannit suffer, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence. I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable and torturous it can all get, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existibg, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from as after all there arw no disadvantages to being gone, all I want is to never exist ever again with all gone for me, I just want this torturous, deeply undesirable existence to be all gone and finally no longer my problem but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful and terrible to me,I just wish for no more suffering and no more cruelty and I'll always suffer as a result of this torturous existence.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Existence will always be the problem to me.
No matter what I really will always see this cruel, torturous existence as the problem and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see existence as such a terrible mistake and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me peace and relief from, I just wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as result of existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence is desirable for me as I'll just always see existence aa the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is forgotten and I can be at peace, the peace of non-existence really is all I hope for, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence where all is forgotten and finally I can rest and for me the peace of non-existence really is all that's desirable. I just wish for no more suffering rather I just want to never exist ever again, only eternal sleep can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of non-existence where nothing can concern me, I just hope for this existence to finally be forgotten but of course I continue to suffer just waiting to not exist, it's all so dreadful to me.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It truly is only suffering to me and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence just waiting to die and to me existing really is just waiting for death. I wish I never had to suffer more than anything and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this existence, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to not exist and in this existence where there's all this suffering only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for, all I want is to never exist ever again with all finally forgotten with no more pain and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, it's all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again with all finally gone, I just wish and hope for some peace and only non-existence can bring me any.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Preferring eternal sleep over suffering.
No matter what I really will always prefer eternal sleep over suffering and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always just see it as so terrible and cruel to suffer in this existence and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again to escape from this torturous harmful existence I just never would had wished for and more than anything I wish I never suffered.

I never should had been burdened with this existence that just causes pain and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and for me existing really is only suffering, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence that just caused and brought suffering and I'd never wish for any of this, for me eternal sleep really is the only peace and is all that's desirable. I wish for no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake, I'll just only be at peace in eternal sleep where finally I cannot suffer and I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence, it really is just all so terrible to me, existence really is the problem to me and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness only eternal non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to not exist, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again where finally I can be at peace.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I'd never want to exist and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace.

I just want this painful and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake to finally be all gone and forgotten and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I just never should had existed and for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, it's all I could hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, existing to me truly is just waiting to die and I'd never wish for any of this rather all all hope for is non-existence. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist, I only see non-existence as desirable, it's the only peace for me and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I just never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, I'm just always so tired of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Always hoping for non-existence.
As long as I exist I really will wish and hope for non-existence, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and I can be at peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to be gone for me and I'll just always see existence as the most terrible mistake.

To me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be free from it all, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of existing, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is just all I see as desirable, I'd never wish for the suffering of this torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer as a result of existing, I'll just always see existence as the problem and I'd just never wish to exist, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence I never would had chosen and I find it so tragic how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I'd never wish for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Always wishing to erase my existence.
No matter what I really will always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just hope for non-existence where all is finally gone.

I just want to disappear and forget about this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, only non-existence can take away and solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous futile existence, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I see as desirable. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to be gone for me, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I always find it so painful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, non-existence really is just all I could hope for. I'd never wish for the suffering of this cruel, futile deeply undesirable existence and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all just so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this suffering as a result and I'll always see existing as only suffering.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Non-existence really is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and I'll just always wish to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this futile, torturous existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway.

I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist which is why I always suffer from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'll just always see it as so dreadful and terrible to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from and I'd just never wish for any of this. Only non-existence could ever solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway, non-existence really is all that can bring me the relief I search for, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I always suffer as a result of existing, I wish to just never wake, I'll only be at peace where all is forgotten for me in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake, I just want all to be gone for me with no more suffering.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer as a result of existing. I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I could hope for, I just wish for this torturous existence to be all gone for me, the thought of suffering enslaved in this existence until old age is really unbearable to me.

I'd never wish for any of this suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from and I just wish I never suffered more than anything and there's just so much suffering in existing. I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get no matter what and I just suffer so much as result of this torturous existence where I'm just waiting to die, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless guaranteed death is denied for me as all I want is to never exist ever again and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I just hope and wish for all to be gone for me but of course I continue to suffer trapped in this existence I just never would had wished for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
There's just so much pain in existing.
There really is just so much pain in existing and it's all so dreadful to me, I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this torturous, painful existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering non-existence really is the only peace for me and is just all I wish for.

I just want all to be forgotten for me but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this painful existence and there's just so much pain in existing, it's all just so terrible to me and I always wish I never suffered, simply existing really is enough to make me want to never wake ever again and I'll always and only hope for non-existence no matter what, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from the pain of existing and it's all just so dreadful to me. I wish I never had to suffer, I'd never wish for this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten which is why I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from the suffering of this futile, torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I just want to never exist again.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered in this cruel, torturous existence for so long and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I just always saw as a mistake but of course all the pain just continues and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this torturous, cruel existence that is just so futile to me. I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I just never should had suffered and I'll always see existing as being only suffering.

I suffer just from existing and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake ever again, only the peace of non-existence could solve everything for me and I just always suffer as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I see it as so tragic how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing. I just wish I never existed more than anything and in this existence where there's all this cruelty non-existence really is all that can bring me peace, I just want to never wake but of course all the pain and suffering just continues, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I just never should had suffered at all, I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to not exist.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist and for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist and only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it really is just all so dreadful to me and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. It's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to be conscious suffering so unnecessarily in this futile existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather allI want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me relief from what I see as the problem which is existence itself and I just wish I never had to exist, only non-existence can bring me peace and solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as waiting to die, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,719
I find it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this torturous deeply undesirable existence I never would had wished for and I always wish I never suffered more than anything, to me existence really does always feel like the most terrible mistake that just causes harm and suffering.

I find it so deeply undesirable to exist, simply just existing is enough to make me wish to not exist and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake ever again, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence, to me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence could ever take away for me as after all there are no disadvantages to all being gone and forgotten. Only the peace of non-existence could ever solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel to me, there's just so much cruelty in this dreadful, futile existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for.
 
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