Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, I see existence as something that just causes so much harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway and to permanently cease existing really is all I could ever hope for, I just want peace from this harmful, torturous existence where there is all this terrible suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it. To me existence itself really is the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, I'll always see it as so harmful to exist, I'll always see human existence as a terrible mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this harmful existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just destined to decay and die anyway.

The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and there is literally no limit as to how much an existing being can suffer which is so horrific and terrible to me, at any moment existence can very easily end up being way more torturous and agonising causing way more suffering as a result. I really would always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this harmful existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, to me existence really will always be the most cruel, torturous harmful abomination and it's something I only hope for permanent relief from. Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the terrible tragedy of existence where existing beings suffer so much until all is gone in death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for the absence of existence.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is the absence of existence, I just never hope to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, as long as I exist I really will only hope to be free from all the suffering. I just wish for the absence of existence where all is gone and forgotten and I finally cannot suffer in any way, I really was never meant to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence that just leads to decay and death anyway and I really never should have suffered at all.

I'll always see existence as the most torturous harmful imposition that I wish was never forced more than anything, I see it as such a terrible tragedy to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering so unnecessarily until death takes away all anyway, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and could ever be no matter what, I only hope for the absence of existence. I really do find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in every way possible just waiting to die anyway and to me existence truly is just waiting for death, I only wish and hope for the absence of it where all is finally forgotten and I can be at peace, non-existence really is all that can bring me peace from all pointless suffering and cruelty, the absence of existence really is all I wish for, I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way where all is gone, I just wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only eternal sleep can solve everything for me.
It truly is all that can solve everything for me, only eternal sleep can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again really is all I can hope for, I just hope for the peace of non-existence to solve everything and bring me peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering where existing beings are tormented all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. Eternal sleep would solve everything for me as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way and all is forgotten about, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where nothing can concern me and this undesirable torturous existence is no longer my problem and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist no matter what.

I just want all to be finally forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just wish to be at peace instead and for me peace really could only lie in never suffering ever again, I just wish to be permanently free from all suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence just wishing and hoping to be gone. Non-existence really is all that can personally bring me any relief, it'd solve everything for me, I just want to finally be free from all suffering but of course the suffering just continues in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I'm always so tired of suffering all for the sake of it burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence.
To me it truly will always be the most terrible tragedy to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence, I find it so tragic how this existence of pointless suffering that there was never a need for was even imposed. I see existence as the most cruel, futile imposition that just causes so much harm and suffering and no matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily but of course I never should have suffered at all.

I really was never meant for this existence of pointless cruelty and suffering where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful and terrible, I personally just hope to cease existing and forget about it all. I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this torturous undesirable existence but I just wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering capable of feeling pain to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, all of this really does just feel like a mistake to me, it's just something so dreadful and terrible to me having to exist. The way I see it existing really does cause nothing but suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I only hope for non-existence to bring me permanent relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until all is forgotten about for them in death anyway, non-existence is all that could bring me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to not exist is all I know.
It truly is all I know, I only ever hope for non-existence and it's all I could hope for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous, unnecessary existence, I just wish to be non-existent instead, my wish to die is a result of existence and I'll only and always wish for death, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and I cannot be harmed in any way. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I wish to die as I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I'd never wish for the pointless cruelty and suffering of human existence where there is all these pain and problems all for no reason and no purpose.

It's all just futile unnecessary suffering to me, existence will always feel like a mistake to me which is why I just wish to be gone, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence, I find it deeply undesirable to be conscious suffering all for the sake of it destined to decay and die anyway, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace and is all I'll hope for no matter what. I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, I just want to painlessly cease existing in peace and finally be free from it all, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me the relief I search for from an existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering that was so tragically imposed, I wish I never suffered in this existence and more than anything I wish I never did, wanting to never suffer ever again truly is all I know.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I wish for is freedom from this existence.
It truly is all I wish for, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I've only ever wished to not exist and it's all I could wish for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence that always felt like the most terrible mistake to me. I see existence as something so dreadful and terrible that just causes harm and suffering and it's something I want permanent freedom from, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, I just want to never suffer with all finally gone and forgotten about for me, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me and it's something that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it.

All I hope and wish for is to painlessly not exist and be free from all the suffering, I really will be only at peace once I'm finally free from this existence where there is no more pain, no more suffering and the fact that I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally and never exist again just feels so cruel to me. There's so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead as all I really wish for is freedom from this existence, I just want all the suffering to be gone for me, I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would have chosen but really I never should have suffered at all, I see it as the most terrible tragedy to be burdened with this existence of pointless suffering, more than anything I wish I was never forced into existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is all that's inevitable anyway.
It truly is all that's inevitable and eventually this existence will no longer be my problem which is all I hope for, I only wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just suffering all for the sake of it and just waiting to die in this existence I never would have chosen. All I could wish for is to be non-existent, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, death is all that's inevitable so I'd rather cease existing sooner to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering but really I never should have suffered at all.

Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I'd rather not suffer at all than prolong suffering just to suffer way more, it just feels so dreadful to me how even know death is all that's inevitable I cannot just have the option to choose when that is as it really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age. I'd never wish for the abomination of human existence rather I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again instead, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, existence really will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one I only hope for permanent relief from, I just want all to be finally gone anc forgotten about for me, non-existence really is all I could see as desirable, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again in this cruel, futile existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I'm asleep for all eternity.
I truly will only be at peace once I'm asleep for all eternity as only then will I be unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for as after all there are no disadvantages to eternal, dreamless sleep. If I no longer exist then all is finally gone for me which is all I hope for, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I wish for this cruel, torturous existence to be no longer my concern, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway.

I could never see any peace in being enslaved in this existence rather peace for me could only lie in never suffering ever again, I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm and suffering to be all forgotten about, I just wish to sleep for all eternity, for me the only peace could lie in never existing ever again. I just wish for peace from this cruel, futile existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, no matter what I'd just never wish for any of this, I want all to be gone for me instead, as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep permanently, eternal sleep is all I could hope for, it'd solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from the suffering of existing, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[flightlessbutterfly]

All the grace, FC.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering.
It really is so harmful, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence that just causes so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it, no matter what I really will always see existence as an abomination that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway, existence itself is the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, I see existence as the most terrible tragedy, existence will always feel like a mistake to me.

I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious than enslaved in this existence destined to decay and die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, it's just horrific to me how existence causes all this endless suffering and torture, the tragedy to me is how this existence was even imposed at all causing all this terrible suffering as a result, the way I see it existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I see it as all so futile anyway. I really would always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this cruel existence just waiting to die anyway, I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep even know I'd never wish for something as harmful as existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I wish for but of course all the suffering just continues instead, nothing would make me wish for this harmful existence rather I just want to never suffer ever again instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping for non-existence.
No matter what I really will always hope for non-existence and it's all I could ever do, I just want to painlessly cease existing in peace and never exist ever again, I'd be so relieved to be free from the abomination of existence that has caused endless amounts of harm and suffering. To be non-existent incapable of suffering really is all I could see as desirable, I just want this existence to be all gone and forgotten about for me, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can concern me.

I really do just wish for the absence of existence, I wish for the peace that only permanent nothingness can bring me but of course the suffering continues with me trapped in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, I only and always wish for non-existence but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I never should have been forced into this torturous unnecessary existence that has just caused so much suffering all for the sake of it and so much pain and problems there was never a need for, non-existence really is the only relief for me, it's all that can bring me any peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing. All wish for is to be permanently unconscious incapable of feeling any pain, I'd be so relieved to sleep for all eternity and never suffer ever again, I've always just hoped for non-existence and it's all I could hope for, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the unnecessary dreadful suffering of existing, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to face the suffering, agony and torture of old age.
I really would never wish to face such, to me old age just sounds like extreme unbearable torture all for the sake of it rather no matter what I'd just prefer to peacefully not exist where nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten about, I wish to not exist as after all there's no suffering in non-existence, without existence I cannot suffer in any way and all is gone instead. Only in the absence of existence will I be unable to feel any pain and I'll always find it so painful to exist no matter what, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence.

I find it so tragic how this existence was imposed that just leads to decay, way more suffering and death anyway when there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, it just terrifies me how a human can exist for so long. The thought of suffering for that much longer is just unbearable to me, I'd never wish for it but rather I just wish to be non-existent, only non-existence can bring me the relief and safety from suffering I search for, I really would never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I'm always so tired of it all. I see existence as deeply undesirable in every way and I suffer simply from existing, in fact as long as I exist I'll suffer, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, non-existence is all that could be positive for me, I'd be so relieved to escape from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose,

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ceasing to exist can bring me the safety from suffering I search for.
It really is all that can bring me the safety from suffering I search for, all I hope and wish for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I'll only be safe from suffering once I no longer exist as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake in the first place. All I hope for is to never exist ever again, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious than to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it destined to decay and be tortured by old age.

I'd never wish for the pointless suffering of human existence rather I just want to not suffer at all, I could personally never see any point, benefit or value to suffering in this existence rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I just wish to not exist where I cannot suffer in any way, existing really will always be deeply undesirable to me no matter what and I never should have been forced to suffer. I see it as something so dreadful to be forced into this existence, I find it the most cruel, futile burden to exist suffering all for the sake of it, I just wish for permanent relief and safety from suffering and it's a relief that only non-existence can bring me, I'd never wish for the terrible cruelty and unnecessary suffering of human existence and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace and never exist ever again, I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see it as so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I truly will always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I find it such a dreadful, terrible tragedy to be forced into existence at all suffering so much all for the sake of it, to me existence really will always be an abomination that just causes so much cruelty and suffering, I personally only hope to be permanently free from this existence, I'd never wish to suffer in this dreadful existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

I'll always just see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering, to me human existence really is the most cruel, futile burden, it's something I'd never wish for that I just hope for permanent relief from, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can take away for me. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'll always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence, I always have so much dread for what lies ahead and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long, the thought of suffering for so much longer just to die in agony from old age is so horrific to me especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get and I find it dreadful to simply exist, I suffer just from existing, I find it dreadful to be conscious at all, I really would never wish to be conscious of anything, I just want non-existence instead, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is a burden.
I'll always see existence as a burden, I find it so burdensome to be conscious suffering in this existence, all I personally hope and wish for is non-existence, I just wish to be permanently free from this burden that I saw as causing nothing but suffering and harm. All that existence does is bring pain, causing so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and in general I find it such a burden to exist, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway.

I find it really tragic how this existence was even imposed at all even know all of this was completely unnecessary, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to never exist ever again instead, non-existence really would solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from the cruel, futile burden of existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what. Simply existing is so burdensome to me, I see existence as the most torturous burden that is so pointless, I could never see any point, benefit and value to being conscious in this existence rather such always feels like a mistake to me, more than anything I really wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence, I wish I was never burdened with this existence, I see it as something so dreadful to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, it's the source of all suffering after all and as long as I exist I really will only ever hope to be permanently relieved from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep solves everything for me.
It really would solve everything for me as after all it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there cannot be any suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence. All I wish and hope for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, eternal sleep really would solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes nothing but suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently relieved from it.

I just wish for the relief of never suffering ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, the fact that I cannot just have the option to sleep eternally always feels so cruel to me especially as I never would have chose and never would have wished for this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering no matter what. I could never see any point to any of this rather existence is something I only hope for permanent peace from, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone, eternal sleep would be a relief for me as only then will all be gone with nothing able to concern me in any way, human existence is always deeply undesirable to me, I really was never meant for any of the suffering it so tragically causes, I just want eternal sleep to solve everything for me and finally bring me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It really is the only peace for me, only non-existence can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, no matter what I really will always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering. Existing to me really is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never any need for and only non-existence really can bring me any peace from this, I wish I could just have the option to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, it'd bring me so much peace to be able to free myself from this existence and finally forget about it all.

I only hope to be permanently unconscious and permanently incapable of suffering, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake and I just want it all to be gone for me, I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me, it'd be the solution for suffering for me in this existence I never would have chosen as after all without existence it isn't like I could suffer in any way and to never suffer ever again is all I could see as ideal. For me non-existence really is the only peace, it's the only ideal state for me, all I see as ideal is being permanently relieved from the cruel, futile burden of human existence and I'd certainly be relieved to never suffer ever again, there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, no matter what I really will always see existence itself as the most cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of painless death being denied.
I really will always see it as so incredibly cruel how the option to die painlessly is denied even know this existence was imposed in the first place and it all just leads to death anyway, to me human existence really is just pointless unnecessary suffering and I never would have chosen and never would have wished for any of this. Existence just feels like the most cruel, terrible mistake to me and it's one I only hope to be free from, I wish I could have the option to just simply die in peace and never suffer ever again as non-existence truly is all I hope for, I only wish to painlessly cease existing and finally be at peace, the peace of never suffering ever again really is all I could wish for.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me but of course the suffering just continues instead and I continue to suffer in this existence that was so tragically imposed, it always feels so dreadful how painless death is denied for me and I'm trapped in this existence of cruelty and suffering just waiting to die anyway, all I hope for is to never exist ever again. I wish I could just peacefully cease existing with no risks of ending up in a situation of way worse torture from trying to die going wrong as I just don't want to suffer at all, I just want to not exist instead, I wish for peace from all suffering in an existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just peacefully choose to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really does feel like a mistake to me.
No matter what existence really will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one that just causes so much suffering and cruelty which is just so terrible to me, all I hope and wish for is to just never suffer ever again. I just want all to be all gone and forgotten about for me, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous, unnecessary existence rather I just want permanent peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, I hope and wish for relief from this existence and only ceasing to exist can bring me the relief I search for.

I see existence as an abomination and I could never see any point, value and benefit to being conscious in this existence at all capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, I just find it so tragic how this existence was imposed that there was never a need for at all, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want non-existence, I only hope for peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. The way I see it existence really does only ever cause suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, the amount of suffering in this reality really is beyond comprehension, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish to be permanently unconscious free from all suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, all I personally hope for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to suffer all for the sake of it just hoping and wishing to be gone, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden I never would have chose that I was never meant for, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me.

All I wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering but of course all the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence just wishing to never suffer ever again, I've always felt so tired and always will do, the tiredness I feel really is such that only non-existence can take away for me, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence that is only suffering to me and I'll suffer until death takes away all anyway. I just wish to never suffer ever again, existence really was never worth it to me and never could be, I just want to sleep permanently instead, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake rather I just want nothingness, to cease existing is all I've ever hoped for and could do no matter what, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have been forced into this existence of unnecessary pointless suffering and cruelty at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Was never meant to suffer in this existence.
I really was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have been forced into this existence of pointless cruelty and suffering, the fact that this existence was even imposed really is such a terrible tragedy to me, the way I see it existence really does cause nothing but harm. I'd never wish to be conscious in this harmful existence rather I just wish to be non-existent instead incapable of suffering and finally free from the burden of existing but of course all the suffering continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, no matter what existence will always be the problem to me and my wish to not exist is as a result of being burdened with this existence.

I just don't see anything desirable about suffering at all in any way rather I just want to painlessly cease existing in peace, I just want all to finally be gone for me I'll always wish to not exist and wanting to permanently cease existing really is all I know, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway rather I just want to forget about it all. I really was just never meant for any of this and I really never should have suffered at all, I'll always see it as a terrible tragedy to be forced into this existence, to me existing really is only suffering, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and pain and problems there was never a need for, existence really is a torturous unnecessary abomination that I was never meant for and I wish I never suffered in it more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death as a relief.
For me death truly would be the relief, it's the only relief for me in this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I believe death to be nothing more than an dreamless, eternal sleep which is why it really would be the relief for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again.

I just wish for this torturous unnecessary existence to be no longer my problem and finally all forgotten about, I really will always see it as so dreadful to exist and nothing would make me wish for the suffering in this dreadful existence, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for, I just want to painlessly cease existing and finally be free from this existence that only ever brought me suffering but of course the suffering just continues with me hoping and wishing to be gone. Non-existence truly is all I could ever wish for, it's all that can bring me any relief from the cruel, futile burden of human existence where there is all this unnecessary cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, in fact to me existence really does feel like nothing but suffering and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway, for me eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any relief, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being trapped in this existence.
I truly do always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence, no matter what nothing would make me wish for the suffering in this cruel, futile existence rather I just hope for non-existence, I just want the peace of never suffering again and I'll only be at peace once all is finally gone and forgotten about for me in non-existence. It's just so cruel and dreadful to me how the option to simply cease existing in peace is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead even know this existence was so tragically imposed and I really would never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing.

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing and finally be free from the torturous, futile burden of human existence and no matter what I'll always find it a burden to exist, I always wish there's the option to just choose to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues, nothing would make me wish for any of this and I was never meant for it either. I'll always see existence as a mistake no matter what, it's just something that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway and I always suffer from being trapped in this existence just hoping and waiting to die, I always wish there's the option to just choose to permanently stop suffering, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to be conscious burdened with this existence and I suffer so much from being trapped in it, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never seeing any point to existence.
No matter what I really could never see any point to existing, it's all just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can suffer, the way I see it existence truly does just cause so much pain, suffering and problems that there were never a need for at all.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed that was completely futile, the way I see it existence serves no function but to bring suffering tormenting existing beings until death takes away all anyway. I see existing as just waiting to die and I suffer so much from waiting for death in this existence I never would have chose, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how the option to just cease existing painlessly in peace is denied for me even know I could never see a point to any of this and it all just leads to death anyway. I'd rather cease existing sooner to escape from suffering in this existence I always saw as completely pointless, but of course I never should have suffered, I could just never see any value, point and benefit to being conscious in this existence at all rather such just feels like a mistake to me. It's something I wish was never imposed more than anything, to me existence really is the most cruel, futile imposition and I find it so dreadful how I was forced to suffer in this existence at all, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence, to me human existence really is just pointless suffering and that's all it could ever be to me, I'd always prefer to not exust bit more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm sorry you have to suffer so much. I don't post as much as you but I completely feel the same as you. You are not alone. I only hope we both can leave this cruel world soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I see nothing desirable about being conscious of anything at all suffering all for the sake of it rather I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, I'd always prefer to not exist as only then is there no more pain, no more suffering but also nothing can concern me. If I'm gone then all is finally forgotten about which is all I'd hope for, I'd never wish to exist rather I just wish to never suffer ever again, I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for at all and I've just never had any interest in this as well.

I really was never meant for it as well, existence to me is something that just causes suffering and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I really will always see existence itself as the ultimate problem no matter what, I wish for non-existence because I exist, I wish for non-existence as I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay, be tortured by old age and die anyway. Existence itself is the true problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and without existence one cannot suffer in any way, to be permanently unable to suffer is what I see as ideal, I just wish for the absence of existence, to cease existing and never suffer ever again is all that appeals to me, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable and wish I was never forced into more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious in this existence.
I really am always so tired of being conscious in this existence and it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, all I hope and wish for is the peace of never suffering ever again, non-existence really is all that appeals to me and is all I could ever see as desirable. I just wish for this torturous futile existence I never would have chosen and always saw as a terrible tragic mistake to be all forgotten about but of course the suffering just continues instead.

No matter what nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and the fact that this existence was even imposed at all is a tragedy, I just wish to not exist, all I see as ideal is being unconscious for all eternity where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist. Non existence really would solve everything for me, it's all I could ever wish for, I really was never meant for this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty rather I just want to forget about it all, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence. I just want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again as non-existence is all I could ever hope for but of course the suffering just continues and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, and it's a burden that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I'd never wish for the suffering this existence causes, I never should have been forced into this existence at all and I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much cruelty in existing.
There really is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible and painful and that is why death would be a relief for me as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, there's no suffering in what the only ideal state is for me which is non-existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me and I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again. I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence to be no longer my concern, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, for me non-existence is all that could ever be positive, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that I cannot suffer if I'm gone and that it's permanent.

I wish for the permanency of an dreamless eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering, there's just so much cruelty in existing and there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, for me existence itself really is the ultimate problem as it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me and bring me peace from. Only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from all the cruelty of existing, I was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for any of this at all, I just want to be gone and finally forget about it all, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered, nothing would make me wish to be conscious of this cruel, torturous existence, I just want nothingness instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just suffering all for the sake of it.
It really is just suffering all for the sake of it, I see existing as just being pointless suffering that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for at all, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence rather I just want to be free from suffering, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence that is an abomination to me. I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway, no matter what nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it and I find it deeply undesirable to exist under all circumstances, for me ceasing to exist really would be the relief, it's all I hope for, I just wish for this existence to be all forgotten about.

I really will only be at peace once I'm finally incapable of suffering in this existence, all I wish for is to be permanently unconscious, I wish to just never suffer ever again but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced into existence, I see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for that is all completely unnecessary. It all just feels like a mistake to me, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering of existing can get, non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I could hope for, I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of pointless suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.
It really is all that can bring me the peace I search for, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist, the way I see it existence truly is the most torturous, futile burden that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace and relief from this. I just wish for the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is gone for me, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing, to me existence really could never be worth it rather I just see it all as such a cruel, tragic mistake that just brings pain.

I really would never wish for any of this and I was never meant for it either rather I just wish to not exist and be at permanent peace for all eternity, I only hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again and I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem, I'd be so relieved to never exist again, non-existence really is all that can bring me peace from this unnecessary undesirable existence where existing beings suffer so much. For me non-existence would be the solution to suffering as I suffer simply from existing, I'm always so tired of being conscious in this existence and I really would never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I just wish to be non-existent instead, I just wish to forget about this existence and finally be at peace, dreamless eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me any peace.