Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

For me ceasing to exist truly would be the solution to suffering.
It truly would be for me, ceasing to exist would save me from all pointless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, only ceasing to exist could solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself. Non-existence would be the solution to suffering for me as after all I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate enough to be enslaved in this existence, to me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering and it's suffering so pointless and unnecessary that I never would have chose that I was never meant for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing but rather I only hope for non-existence.

I just want to never suffer ever again, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all without existence it isn't like I could suffer in any way, there cannot be any suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is permanent eternal non-existence, there are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get which is just so cruel and terrible to me. I'd never wish to suffer at all and I just don't see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just hope for nothingness, I just wish for non-existence to solve everything for me, all I see as desirable is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally this existence is no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible and torturous to me, I see existence as an abomination that just tortures and torments existing beings with no limit as to how much agony they can feel until death takes away all anyway. No matter what nothing could ever make me wish for the cruelty and endless suffering of existing and I find it such a tragedy how this existence there was never a need for that just caused so much pain all for the sake of it was even imposed at all, I'd never wish to exist but rather I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way and incapable of being harmed.

All I hope and wish for is to cease existing in peace and finally be unconscious of this horrific reality where there is all this dreadful, unnecessary suffering and cruelty, I'll always see it as so harmful to exist and the amount of harm this existence causes truly is beyond comprehension. I see existence as such a terrible mistake that has only ever caused suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts, I just want non-existence. For me non-existence is the only desirable state, only non-existence can bring me the peace from this futile, torturous existence I search for but only never existing could ever be true perfection to me, I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I'd always prefer to avoid something as harmful as existence that to me is the ultimate problem, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never should have been forced to exist.
I really never should have been forced to suffer in this existence, no matter what I'll always see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition that just torments existing beings and causes them to suffer all for the sake of it, there's just so much cruelty, so much suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible to me. I personally just want to cease existing in peace and forget about it all but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I never should have been forced into this unnecessary, torturous existence at all and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, nothing would make me wish for any of the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just want non-existence.

I just don't see any value, point and benefit to being enslaved in this existence rather I just hope to painlessly cease existing, I wish for non-existence but of course I never should have existed, this existence never should have been imposed, I find it such a terrible tragedy how I was forced into this existence even know there was never a need for any of this and there weren't any disadvantages to never suffering in the first place. To me human existence truly is just pointless, unnecessary suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I see it as so dreadful to be forced into this, I'd always prefer to never exist, I personally just hope to be permanently unconscious where all is gone and forgotten about, I really was never meant for any of this and I could never see any value and benefit to suffering at all, I just want all to be gone for me instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring non-existence over the suffering and cruelty of existence.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist, permanent non-existence truly is all that appeals to me and is all I could ever see as desirable, I just see existence as the most terrible, harmful, cruel abomination and it's something I'd never wish for rather something I see as a problem. I suffer just from existing and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, I really would always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this torturous, futile existence where there is all this endless cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, non-existence truly is preferable for me as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way.

I could personally never see any benefit to being burdened with this existence that was completely unnecessary, I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence at all rather I just want to not exist instead, the thought of prolonging the suffering in this existence I never would have chose just to die tortured in agony from old age is just so horrific to me. I just want peace instead of all this unnecessary suffering and cruelty, no matter what only the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep could appeal to me, it's all that could save me from suffering in this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just simply want to cease existing, permanent non-existence truly is always preferable for me, the only relief for me really could lie in never suffering ever again, I only hope to be non-existent where this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake is finally no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence.
I truly do suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence as after all this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place without the option for me to just free myself from it in peace whenever I wish to. To me human existence truly is enslavement and I find it such a tragedy to be forced into this existence of unnecessary pointless suffering and cruelty just waiting to die anyway, destined to decay and suffer way more as a result.

I just see it as so terrible and cruel how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as all I wish for is to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I really was never meant for any of this cruelty and suffering and I'll always find it the most futile, torturous burden to exist, I suffer so much from how I'm trapped in this existence as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and I see existence as the most terrible, harmful tragedy that just causes so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, there truly is so much suffering in existing and I suffer simply from existing. I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die in peace even know I never would have chosen and never would have wished for any of this, I personally only hope for non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, existence will always feel like a mistake to me, and it's a mistake that just causes harm and suffering, I'll always find it so dreadful how I was forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd choose to erase my existence.
I truly would choose to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all in this unnecessary torturous existence I always saw as the most cruel, harmful mistake, no matter what nothing would make me wish for any of this suffering, I just want nothingness instead.

I just want to permanently cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much relief from this existence I was never meant for and never would have chose, I just want all to finally be gone for me, I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as more than anything I wish I never did. I wish I never became conscious in this torturous, unnecessary existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, to me existing truly is only suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist and I personally just don't want to suffer at all in any way I just wish for nothingness instead, I wish it could be all gone and erased for me as I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that never could be worth it for me, I never should have been forced into this existence. To me no matter what existence truly will always feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes harm and suffering, I'd never wish for any of this rather I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never forced into this cruel, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for some peace, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always feeling so tired.
I've personally always felt so tired and it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just want peace from all the suffering in this existence I never would have chose. For me the only relief truly could lie in ceasing to exist, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I can be at peace and I suffer so much from how I cannot just, I find it so painful and dreadful to be trapped in this existence of pointless suffering just wishing and hoping to be gone.

I find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to be conscious suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's suffering I'll always feel so tired of, my tiredness is a result of existing and simply just existing truly is enough to make me wish for death. I just want the peace and relief that only eternal non-existence can bring me, I'll only be at peace once all is finally gone for me, to me existence itself truly is the problem and always will be no matter what, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, unnecessary existence rather I just hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for this existence to no longer be my problem, for me only eternal sleep can bring me peace from the burden of existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway and no matter what I'll only hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just suffering all for the sake of it.
It truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this futile, torturous existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering, to me existence itself truly is the problem, I see it as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for. Nothing would make me wish to be conscious of this cruel, pointless existence I could never see as worth it rather I just want nothingness instead, I wish to be permanently incapable of suffering, for me only non-existence is desirable and ideal as I truly just see existing as suffering all for the sake of it and I don't see any point, benefit and value to suffering at all rather I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence that just torments existing beings until all is forgotten about in death anyway, I'd never wish to be conscious capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway rather I just wish to be non-existent. I'll always see it as such an undesirable burden to exist no matter what, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and there's just so much suffering in existing, I see it as such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that only eternal non-existence could bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me as after all it'd remove the source of all suffering in the first place and without existence one cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence and to never suffer ever again is all I could wish for. All I hope for is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and all is finally forgotten about, in general I only see eternal sleep as desirable, it's all I could ever wish for, I just want this cruel, torturous existence to be finally all forgotten about for me with this existence no longer my problem.

I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of existence bur rather I just hope for non-existence, I just want the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep to solve everything for me and bring me relief from an existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just fall asleep permanently even know eternal sleep really is all I could ever hope for. I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering, no matter what I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I find it the most terrible, harmful tragedy how this existence that just caused so much harm was even imposed at all, I just wish for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me and for me peace could only lie in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long.
I truly do find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured dying in agony from old age, I'd always prefer to cease existing painlessly than to prolong the suffering of existing all for the sake of it, to me existence is completely futile and I just find it so undesirable to exist, it's just pointless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. For me existence could never be worth it and I just have so much dread for what lies ahead, I'll always see existence as an abomination and a terrible, tragic mistake, no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence rather I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.

I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's just so horrific to me how a human can be burdened with this existence for so long, I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existence, to me existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't want to suffer at all in any way I just want to never exist ever again instead. Existence itself to me really is the problem and it's something I wish I was never forced into more than anything, I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to exist and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in how the option to peacefully die is denied.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to peacefully cease existing is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place. I wish I could just choose to simply cease existing in peace with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way more immense agony but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering I never would have chose that just leads to decay and death anyway, I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to die peacefully.

I only hope for true permanent peace from the torturous and pointless burden of existing as a human that just causes so much suffering and harm all for the sake of it, it'd be such a relief for me to simply be able to cease existing and never suffer ever again as non-existence truly is all I hope for, I only hope to be permanently unconscious and permanently unaware of this existence. I just see existence as unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and it really feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would have chose, to never suffer ever again truly is all I see as desirable, I just hope to be non-existent. Human existence truly does just feel like enslavement to me, it's all just so terrible and dreadful, I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence I never would have chose without the option to just painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again, existence itself truly is the problem to me, it just feels like the most terrible mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from this torturous, unnecessary existence.
I personally do only hope and wish for peace from this torturous, unnecessary existence, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes, I find it such a undesirable burden to be forced to suffer in this existence at all. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want some peace instead, I only hope for the peace of never existing ever again where all is gone, for me peace has been all I've ever wished for.

I'd never wish for any of the suffering of existence and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, to me existence is something so cruel and dreadful that just cause harm and suffering that I wish was never imposed, I find it such a terrible tragedy how I was even forced into this existence there was never a need for at all, I personally just wish for the peace of non-existence, I only hope to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway just wishing to be gone. I wish I could just simply choose to fall asleep permanently and I suffer so much from how I cannot just and I'm enslaved in this existence instead, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to free myself from all unnecessary suffering as I just don't wish to suffer at all, I could personally never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this pointless existence I always saw as the most cruel tragic mistake, I just want some peace instead and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for death.
I personally truly only have ever hoped for death, to permanently cease existing is all I see as desirable, I've never had any interest in human existence and I've always just seen it as a terrible mistake that just causes cruelty and suffering and in general I just don't find it desirable to exist. I was never meant to exist and never should have suffered at all, for me non-existence is all that's appealing, I just wish to be permanently unconscious, I see non-existence as the only peace, it's all that could bring me relief, I just want to never exist ever again, personally I'd be so relieved to no longer be burdened with this existence, I wish for peace from the cruelty and futility of existing as a human.

I see it as deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, I could never see any point, benefit or value to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence that just causes pain and problems all for the sake of it that there were never a need for at all, I just want to never exist again instead as long as I exist I truly will only hope for non-existence, I just want to fall into an dreamless eternal sleep with all finally forgotten about for me, to me existing truly is just waiting to die and I'd always prefer to cease existing than prolong the suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence just to suffer way more. Non-existence truly would solve everything for me and is all I could ever hope for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, simply just being conscious is so tiring to me, I see existence itself as the problem that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting for death.
No matter what I'll always just see existing as waiting for death because after all everything will eventually be all forgotten about in non-existence, this existence will be gone which is all I hope for. I only wish to be permanently unconscious of this torturous, unnecessary existence that just causes so much harm and suffering tormenting existing beings until death takes away all anyway, to me existing truly is so futile and pointless especially as there are no disadvantages to not existing at all.

If I'm gone then nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem which is all I wish and hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I could never see any point to suffering in this existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist as well which is why I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong even know it all just leads to death anyway. But what I see as so tragic is how this existence of unnecessary pointless suffering was imposed at all even know there really was never a need for any of this, for me only never existing at all is true perfection, I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything as I suffer so much as a result of being enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway and to me existing truly just is waiting for death, it's just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I find it all so futile and dreadful, for me non-existence truly is the only relief, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence always felt like a mistake to me.
Existence truly did always feel like a mistake to me and I'll always see it as something so terrible to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, to me existence really is the problem, it's something that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it and no matter what nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence. I'd never wish for the cruelty and torture of existing where existing beings suffer so unnecessarily until death takes away anyway, to me existence will always be an abomination and I'd prefer to cease existing to escape from suffering, in fact permanently ceasing to exist is all that could be desirable for me.

I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, for me it could never be worth it suffering in this existence and nothing would make me wish to be conscious of any of this at all rather I just hope for non-existence, only permanent non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, to me existence itself is the problem, I see it as a mistake, I see it as something that just causes harm. For me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, I only see never suffering ever again as appealing, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I wish I stayed non-existent, I wish I was never burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, I suffer simply from existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the peace and safety from suffering.
It truly is all that can bring me the safety from suffering I search for as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will all the suffering finally go away for me. I'll always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence as after all there are no disadvantages to permanently ceasing to exist and to never suffer in this existence ever again is all I could see as desirable, to me human existence truly just is suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and only non-existence can bring me the safety from suffering I search for as I see it as such a terrible, horrific tragedy to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, there is literally no limit as to how much agony an existing being can feel and it can easily get way more unbearable at any moment, it's just so horrifying, I see it as an abomination to exist. The way I see it existence serves no function but to cause suffering and harm until death takes away all anyway tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of this, I just want to be permanently incapable of suffering instead, I just wish to be non-existent where this existence is finally no longer my problem, I personally could never see any point, benefit or value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to permanently cease existing, non-existence is all I hope for and could ever do no matter what, it's all I personally see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never should have been forced into this existence.
I truly never should have been forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty and I find it such a terrible tragedy how I even was at all, to me existence truly is the most cruel, harmful imposition and it's something I never would have wished for, never would have chosen that I only wish for permanent relief from. I really was never meant for any of this and I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence at all and to me existing will always be only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence, I'll always see existence as something so cruel and dreadful that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway.

I'd always prefer to peacefully not exist than be enslaved in this harmful, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway, human existence will always feel like enslavement to me as after all it was something forced with suffering seen as to prolong no matter what with the option to simply cease existing in peace being so cruelly denied, I really never should have been forced into this and I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly free myself from the imposition of existence in peace as all I hope and wish for is to never exist ever again. I just wish to be non-existent, I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all, to me existing truly is just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and there's so much suffering in existing, it's all just so unnecessary and painful, existence just feels like a mistake to me, I see existence as the problem that there was never a need for at all, existence itself will always be the true problem to me and I never should had been forced into it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wished for death.
I really have always wished to not exist and it's all I've ever hoped for, I just don't see it as desirable to exist, I've always found it a burden to exist and it's a burden I truly was never meant for that just caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from. To me existing truly is only suffering which is why I just wish for death and in general only non-existence appeals to me, I'd just always prefer to sleep permanently where there are no disadvantages to such than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence there was never a need for and what is so horrific is how there is no limit as to how unbearable this can get.

This existence can easily get way more torturous at any moment just for one to die in agony from old age if they exist for so long enough and it's all so futile anyway, for me just being conscious of this existence is so painful and tiring, I'd just never wish for this existence at all under any circumstances rather I just hope for nothingness instead. I've only ever wished for eternal sleep and my wish to die is as a result of existence, I wish to die because of existence and I always will do no matter what, I just want peace instead of this pointless, unnecessary suffering, non-existence for me is the only peace as after all only when I'm gone can nothing concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem, I personally just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway, for me non-existence truly is always preferable to having to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

I see it as so tragic how this existence that was completely unnecessary was even imposed at all causing so much suffering as a result, to me existence is the problem and always will be no matter what, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just want all to finally be forgotten about for me. I just hope and wish for this existence that just causes all this cruelty to finally be no longer my problem, to me existing truly is just only suffering and I suffer just from existing. I suffer just from being enslaved in this pointless, cruel existence, I find it so horrible how painless death is denied even know this existence was forced in the first place with there being no disadvantages to never suffering at all yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the cruelty of existing can get. I just hope for non-existence, permanently ceasing to exist truly is all that can bring me peace from this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering where I'm just waiting to cease existing anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is peace for me.
For me non-existence is peace, it's all that can bring me peace from this existence of cruelty and suffering, all I personally hope for is to never wake again, all I see as desirable is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, I just wish to never suffer ever again and I find it so cruel and dreadful how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to save myself from all pointless, futile suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. To permanently cease existing truly is all I could hope for, I just wish for this cruel existence to be all forgotten about, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence rather I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering where all is finally gone for me.

For me peace truly could only lie in being permanently unconscious, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer and as long as I've existed I've only wished for the peace that non-existence can bring me, I just want to never suffer ever again, all I see as desirable is finally being at peace. I'll always see it as something so dreadful to exist and I was just never meant for any of this as well, for me non-existence is the only ideal state, the peace of non-existence truly would solve everything for me and bring me so much relief from this existence I never would have chosen, as long as I exist I'll only hope to permanently cease existing and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Being unable to suffer is all I see as desirable.
All that's desirable to me is being permanently unable to suffer, I just hope and wish for permanent peace from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, I find existing to be completely undesirable in every way, it's just pointless suffering, the way I see it existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and no matter what I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious of this. I just want to never suffer ever again, I could just never see any value, point or benefit to existence rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, only permanent non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for.

I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence suffering so unnecessarily with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to be tortured by old age, I'd just never wish for the cruel and torturous burden of existing as a human and I see it as so cruel how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead even know this existence was imposed in the first place. I personally just wish to be non-existent, I wish I was never forced into this existence at all, I'll always see existence as something so terrible and dreadful that just causes harm, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this cruel, unnecessary existence rather I just wish to be unable to suffer, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragedy of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence and I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I've always felt tired of it all and simply just existing is enough to make me feel tired, I find it such a cruel, futile burden having to suffer in this existence at all and it's one I never would have chosen and never would have wished for that I just saw as causing nothing but harm. More than anything I wish this existence was never imposed as I always suffer from the imposition of existence and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances rather I just want all to be gone for me.

I'm always so tired of being trapped in this cruel, futile existence just waiting to cease existing anyway, I personally just want to fall asleep permanently, dreamless eternal sleep would solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence until old age, I find it so terrifying how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel. To me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's one I'm always so tired of that has only ever brought me suffering and to be permanently free from all the suffering is all I hope for, for me non-existence would be the solution for suffering in this cruel, futile existence, I could personally never see any point or benefit to any of this rather existence is something I'd prefer to be permanently free from and forget about no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It truly does just cause harm, I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway, nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this harmful existence that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it rather I just wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the relief, peace and safety from suffering I search for.

To me existence truly is an abomination that I could never see as desirable and never see it as worth it, existence is so harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that tortures existing beings, the way I see it existence truly serves no function but to bring and cause suffering until death takes away all anyway and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for. I don't see benefit to being forced to suffer in this reality burdened with this existence capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway rather I just wish to never suffer ever again, I wish to be permanently incapable of suffering where this existence cannot concern me and all is forgotten about. I only hope to be non-existent as to me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake, ceasing to exist is my way of avoiding all future suffering and I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up suffering way more, nothing would make me wish for this harmful existence rather I just want to peacefully cease existing, I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option of painless death is denied even know existence is so incredibly harmful in every way.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non existence is the only relief for me.
It truly is the only relief for me and is all that could bring me any peace, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence where there is all this terrible cruelty and suffering, I truly would always prefer to not exist, I just want all to be forgotten about for me and I suffer so much from existing. In fact to me existence truly does just feel like only suffering and I'll suffer until I no longer exist, existence is just so cruel, so dreadful, it's just suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, all I wish for is to be permanently unconscious and unaware of all this, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I'll only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity with all gone for me, I really was never meant for this existence, I was never meant for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone. I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want permanent relief from this torturous, unnecessary existence I always saw as a mistake, only non-existence can bring me relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I wish for no more cruelty no more suffering, to me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's one so cruel and dreadful that has only ever caused me to suffer and I'll suffer until death takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see existence as the problem.
To me existence truly will always be the problem no matter what as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I really will only wish and hope to never suffer ever again, existence is the problem as all suffering is ultimately a result of it and only in the absence of existence will I be unable to suffer with all gone and forgotten about. Only in non-existence can I find safety from suffering as after all I'll be permanently unconscious with this torturous, futile existence finally all gone, to me existence truly does just feel like a mistake and it's one so terrible and tragic that has just caused endless amounts of suffering.

I find it deeply undesirable and so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I find it a burden to exist and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, existence to me is something just so cruel, so futile, it's just suffering all for the sake of it causing problems there was never a need for at all and no matter what I really will always prefer to not exist. I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway destined for nothing but to suffer way more, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'll always find it a burden to suffer in this existence, to me existing truly is only suffering and all I hope for is the peace of never suffering again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always feel like a mistake to me.
It really will always do, I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much suffering and harm, no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence rather I only hope and wish to never exist ever again, I just wish for this existence to all be gone but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence.

I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to cease existing painlessly is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong even know this existence was imposed in the first place, I never would have wished for and never would have chosen any of this, existence really will always feel like a mistake to me no matter what and it's one that I only wish for permanent peace from. I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence and I find it a tragedy having to suffer in this existence at all, the way I see it existence just causes nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, my wish to die truly is a result of existence, for me existence itself is the problem that just feels like a mistake to me, I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, I'd never wish to suffer at all rather I just hope and wish for permanent nothingness. Only non-existence can solve everything for me as it takes away what I ultimately have a problem with which is existence itself, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently free from the terrible, tragic mistake of existence that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I always find it so dreadful to exist.
I really do always find it so dreadful to exist, no matter what I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this torturous unnecessary existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'd always prefer to not exist as only then is this torturous, unnecessary existence no longer my problem but really I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never burdened with this existence. I find it so dreadful to simply exist and have to be conscious of anything at all, I'd never wish to be conscious of this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway and what is so dreadful to me is how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace even know all of this was forced in the first place causing so much suffering as a result.

In fact to me existing causes nothing but suffering and I just find it so dreadful to exist, I wish I could just simply choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never wake again as I truly would never wish for this, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in every way, I just wish and hope for non-existence instead, non-existence truly would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way. Without existence there cannot be any suffering, in fact there are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist which is all I hope for, I'd never wish for any of this suffering and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake, it's really all so dreadful to me.