Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for the option to just painlessly die.
As long as I've existed I truly have only ever hoped for non-existence, I wish for the option to just painlessly die and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues instead, I wish for the option to just cease existing in peace to save myself from all pointless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose. I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace as being able to peacefully cease existing would solve everything for me, it's all that can bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and only non-existence can solve everything for me.

I wish for the option to just painlessly die as only then will the torturous, pointless burden of human existence no longer be my concern but instead all will finally be forgotten about, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I just wish for the option to painlessly free myself from this existence in a guaranteed way and it's such a horrific world where I cannot just have that option even know this existence was imposed in the first place with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'd never wish for the pointless suffering of human existence so I should be able to painlessly free myself from it in peace with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture as a result, it's just so horrific to me how such could happen, I just want to never suffer ever again, not suffer way more in this existence I never would have chosen that I just saw as causing nothing but pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping for eternal sleep.
No matter what eternal sleep truly is all I'll wish and hope for, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again, as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing. To me eternal sleep truly is the only peace, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable, peace for me could only lie in this existence no longer being my problem where I'm finally unable to suffer.

Human existence really does feel like the most cruel, terrible mistake to me, it's something I wish I was never forced into, I wish I never became conscious at all, for me eternal sleep truly is all I see as desirable, it's all I've ever hoped for and it's all that could ever bring me any relief from the suffering in this dreadful existence and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist no matter what. I see existence as just being pointless suffering which is truly why I only hope to sleep eternally, I just wish to never suffer ever again, never suffering in this existence ever again truly is all I could see as desirable, I'd never wish for this existence under any circumstance rather it's just something I only hope for eternal peace from and I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep with all finally gone for me, I truly was never meant for the pain of existing, I was never meant to suffer in this cruel existence I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrifying how a human can suffer in this existence for so long.
I truly do find it so terrifying how a human can suffer in this existence for so long, under no circumstances would I wish to prolong the suffering in this existence rather I just wish for permanent, eternal non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about.
Non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me and is all that could ever bring me peace, I just want to be free from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence but of course the suffering just continues instead, it really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway.

Personally I'd never wish for any of this rather I wish I never existed at all, I see nothing desirable about existence but rather I just see it as something that causes harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway and to painlessly die is all I'll ever hope for. Under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want all to be gone for me, I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, it causes me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to die in peace in an guaranteed way and never suffer ever again, the thought of being trapped in this existence just to die in agony from old age is so horrific to me. I'd never wish for any of this suffering and cruelty rather I just want nothingness, permanent non-existence is all I need, I'd never wish for this existence of pointless suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the problem for me.
No matter what existence will always be the problem to me, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as I just don't wish to exist at all and never would do under any circumstance, simply just existing is so deeply undesirable to me and just causes me to suffer and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway. I truly was never meant to be burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to be conscious in this existence, existence is the problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, without existence I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way and simply just being awake is enough to make me wish for death.

As long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence, I'll only hope and wish to be permanently free from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way possible and I never should have been forced into this existence of unnecessary pointless suffering. I truly would always prefer to die than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, to me existence just feels like a mistake that just causes so much harm and suffering all while one is just waiting to die anyway. I find it dreadful to simply exist, I see it as something so terrible and unnecessary to be forced into this existence at all, existence itself is the problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die with all finally gone for me, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I just want to erase my existence so that there is no more pain, no more suffering and all is finally gone and forgotten, personally I'd be relieved to never exist ever again as I find existing to be so undesirable and I suffer simply from being conscious. Ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and would bring me so much peace but really I want to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just wish to disappear from this cruel, torturous existence I saw as causing nothing but harm in the first place, I just want to finally be at peace and for me peace could only lie in the end to all suffering, as long as I've existed I've only ever hoped to be gone but really I never should have suffered at all.

I was never meant for this painful, harmful existence that to me just serves no function but to bring suffering until death takes away all anyway, all I personally hope for is to be gone and it's all I've wished for and will do no matter what. I wish to erase my existence as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, it's the source of all suffering after all and I find it a burden having to exist at all, I just want all to be erased for me as if I don't exist then I cannot suffer at all and nothing can concern me, I truly was never meant for any of this and I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything but of course the suffering just continues, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that only eternal non-existence can bring me, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never exist again.
As long as I exist I truly will only hope to never exist again, to never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence is all I personally wish for, it'd be a relief for me to finally be permanently free from this existence I only ever saw as causing so much pain there was never a need for, there's so much cruelty in this dreadful existence and it's all just so terrible to me. I've only hoped to never exist again, I've only hoped to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way and incapable of feeling any pain, to me human existence is such a dreadful, unnecessary burden that I just saw as bringing nothing but suffering, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist at all which is why I just hope to never exist ever again, under no circumstances would I wish to exist rather I just want nothingness.

I wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is finally no longer my problem, if I never exist again then nothing can concern me, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me which is all I hope for and I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer all for the sake of it in this torturous, futile existence that was completely unnecessary anyway. I see no benefit to existence rather it's something that just causes harm, I'd rather cease existing in peace than prolong all this unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to face the torture of old age in fact it's horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long, I'll always see existence as an abomination no matter what and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering, death truly is the only peace for me personally and I only hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me death is the solution to suffering.
No matter what I'll always personally see death as the solution to suffering, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in what I see as the only ideal state which is eternal non-existence. Personally I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this cruel, torturous existence where there is all this endless suffering just waiting to die anyway, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I find it something so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. Ceasing to exist is the solution for me as it removes the source of all suffering, if I'm dead then I'm saved from all suffering with all future unnecessary suffering prevented and to permanently not exist is all I'll ever hope for.

Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, to me existence truly is an abomination and for me ceasing to exist would be the solution to the problem that there was never a need for which is existence itself, if I no longer exist then nothing can concern me and all is finally gone for me which is why I only hope for death. There are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get, I'd always prefer to die painlessly than be trapped in this cruel, futile existence suffering all for the sake of it, death truly is the only peace for me, death is the solution for me personally but of course more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I suffer so much because of the imposition of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me ceasing to exist truly is all that's positive.
It truly is all that's positive for me personally as after all if I cease existing then I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I see as the only ideal state which is permanent non-existence. For me death is all that's positive because I see existence as the most cruel, terrible abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering, there's so much cruelty in this torturous, futile existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing no matter what, to never suffer ever again with this existence no longer my problem is all I see as desirable, I was never meant to exist and I never should have been burdened with this existence.

Being able to die in peace truly would solve everything for me, it'd bring me peace from this existence that was so tragically imposed in the first place that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, for me non-existence truly is the only relief, I only wish for permanent safety from suffering where this dreadful existence I always saw as so unnecessary is no longer my concern. I personally just want nothingness, human existence is the most cruel imposition to me and I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel more than anything. Never existing again is all that's positive for me, I could personally never see any point, benefit and value to being enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just to die in agony from old age, as long as I exist I'll suffer and only hope and wish for death, to never suffer in this existence ever again is all I could ever wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish for the option to just painlessly die in peace.
As long as I exist I truly will only ever wish and hope for the option to just painlessly die in peace and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have it to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose. I see so much cruelty in how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised, it just feels so cruel to me how there's no acceptance towards preferring permanent non-existence over suffering in this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm in the first place. Under no circumstances would I wish for any of this rather I just wish for all to be gone for me, I suffer so much because of the imposition of existence and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from, I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all.

I see it as such a terrible tragedy to suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous, futile existence there was never a need for, for me non-existence is always preferable than this existence of pointless suffering that just leads to nothing and nowhere that is just destined to decay and die anyway. I just wish to simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues, I wish I could just simply choose to fall asleep permanently and never be conscious ever again, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want nothingness, I find it the most deeply undesirable burden to exist which is why I just wish and hope for the option to painlessly die in peace where finally this existence is no longer my concern, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just cease existing in peace without the risk being there of suffering way more unbearably from trying to die going wrong.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I'm always so tired of existing, every second I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, futile existence I never would have wished for, human existence truly is the most terrible, unnecessary burden to me and simply just being conscious is enough to make me feel so tired. The tiredness I feel is such that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from, all I wish and hope for is the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me and forgotten about, as long as I exist I'll always feel so tired and I find it tiring to simply exist, just existing is enough to make me wish for death.

I wish to be non-existent permanently unable to suffer where nothing can concern and matter to me, I suffer just from existing and I only hope to never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep can bring me relief from my suffering and to fall asleep permanently is all I see as desirable. I was just never meant for any of this and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what, it's a burden that to me causes nothing but suffering and I'm always so tired of it, I just wish to simply fall into an eternal sleep and never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for existence no matter what and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again instead and it's all I'll hope for and will do no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing can easily get way more unbearable.
It truly can very easily get way more unbearable and torturous at any moment which is just so horrific to me, I see existence as nothing more than an unnecessary harm that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it. It's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and there is literally no limit as to how much one can suffer in this cruel, horrifying world where the amount of torture and agony truly is beyond comprehension with existing beings suffering every second.

Personally I'd always prefer to cease existing to escape from this no matter what, there are no disadvantages to not existing yet this existence can get so agonising way beyond how anyone can imagine it to and I see it as all so pointless and futile anyway, death is all that's inevitable so I'd rather cease existing sooner to save myself from the terrible, undesirable burden of human existence that will just decay and die anyway but of course the suffering just continues. I see so much cruelty in how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised even know we exist in this reality and this existence was forced in the first place, I suffer so much because of the imposition of existence and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence. I'll always see existence as an abomination, to me existence truly is the most cruel, tragic mistake and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I'd never wish for the pain of existing, I'd never wish to be conscious in this reality capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to be tortured by old age, nothing would make me ever wish for existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for existence.
I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and I suffer simply from being conscious, I'd never wish for something as deeply undesirable as existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I'll only wish for the peace of never existing again, existence to me truly does feel like a mistake and it's one I was never meant for.

I personally suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is to permanently cease existing and finally be free from all dreadful, unnecessary suffering, all I hope is for this existence to no longer be my concern with all finally forgotten about instead. I was never meant for any of this and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced into this cruel, futile existence that I was never meant for that only ever caused me to suffer, I'm personally only meant for non-existence. I'm only meant for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about, human existence truly has always felt like a mistake to me and it's one that just brings so much suffering. There's so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible to me and I truly was never meant for any of this, I never should have suffered at all and I'd prefer to die no matter what but only never existing is true perfection to me, I wish I never became conscious at all, under no circumstances would I wish to exist, existence itself will always feel like the ultimate problem for me and it's a problem that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is an unnecessary harm.
It truly is nothing more than an unnecessary harm to me which is why I only hope and wish for death, I just wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again. The way I see it existence truly does just cause so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and if I cease existing then I cannot suffer in any way which is why to not exist is all I hope for, I was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all.

To suffer in this existence will always be a terrible, horrific tragedy to me, I see existence as something so harmful as after all once one exists they are capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and it's suffering I see as so meaningless and unnecessary, it's suffering all for the sake of it, I see it as so harmful to be conscious in this horrific reality, personally I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, the amount of harm and suffering this existence causes truly is immense. It's all just so terrible to me, existence to me really is just an unnecessary harm and I just find it a tragedy to be burdened with this existence at all suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway, I'd certainly always prefer to cease existing than be enslaved in this existence that caused endless amounts of suffering and cruelty. I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, only in non-existence will this dreadful, harmful existence no longer be my concern which is why to permanently cease existing is all I could wish for, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never seeing value to getting old.
Personally I could never see any value to suffering until old age rather the thought of such is terrifying to me, it terrifies me how a human can be burdened with this existence of pointless suffering for so long. I just wish there's acceptance towards preferring non-existence over suffering in this terrible, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake as I just don't see value and benefit to suffering in this existence and nothing would make me wish to face the extreme agony of old age. I'd prefer to die no matter what and to never exist ever again is all I could hope for, I just want peace from this existence of unnecessary suffering.

Under no circumstances would I wish to be conscious in this existence and I just see no benefit to all the suffering and pain this existence causes, it's all just so dreadful to me, I just don't want to suffer and struggle at all, I find it a burden to have to exist and I only hope for non-existence, I personally don't see value to the cruel, futile burden of human existence that just leads to decay and death anyway. I just see existing as waiting to die and I'd rather prevent suffering by ceasing to exist than prolong it just to end up way more tortured. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily just to risk suffering way more at any moment and I just see nothing desirable about any of this, it's just so cruel and horrible to me how I cannot just have the option of an guaranteed painless death as I'd never wish for any of this, I never would have chosen to exist, I'd always rather die than suffer in this existence, for me the only peace truly could only ever lie in permanently ceasing to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be gone and forgotten about for me.
All I personally hope is for all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence I saw as causing nothing but pain rather I just want nothingness, I just want peace from this existence that I always saw as deeply undesirable, for me non-existence where all is finally gone truly is the only peace. I just want to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I personally just don't want to suffer in any way, I could never see any point or benefit to suffering in this cruel, futile existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway.

I'd rather prevent unnecessary suffering than prolong it just to end up suffering way more in this existence that always felt like such a terrible mistake to me, for me personally non-existence truly is the only relief, I just hope and wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have chosen and no matter what nothing would make me wish for the pain of existing. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather existence is just something I only hope for permanent relief from, I just want all to be finally gone and forgotten about for me and that is all I'll ever hope for, I just wish to die painlessly and forget about this existence I just saw as causing nothing but suffering and harm and as long as I'll exist I only hope for the absence of suffering, it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so unnecessary.
No matter what I'll always see existing as unnecessary, it's just unnecessary pointless suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence that I never would have wished for. I could never see any point, benefit and value to being conscious of this existence rather I see such as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes and brings pain until death takes away all anyway, existence just feels like a mistake to me and more than anything I wish I never suffered in it.

I wish I was never burdened with this existence that I saw as just causing nothing but harm and I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all even know it's all completely unnecessary and there was no suffering in never existing at all. In fact without existence one cannot suffer in any way and to be permanently unable to suffer is all that I personally see as ideal, I truly was never meant to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with it, I just wish to simply die in peace and forget about it all. In an existence where there's all this terrible cruelty and suffering ceasing to exist really is the only relief for me personally as only then will this unnecessary existence finally no longer be my problem with all gone and forgotten about instead, it's just so cruel and terrible to me how there's no acceptance towards preferring to not exist even know to me existing truly is nothing more than suffering all for the sake of it that was so unnecessary, if I die then I cannot suffer at all which is why to permanently cease existing is all I hope for.

 

[CandleShade]

Thats so true..
"It is ironic, really - you want to die because you can't be bothered to go on living - but then you're expected to get all energetic and move furniture and stand on chairs and hoist ropes and do complicated knots and attach things to other things and kick stools from under you and mess around with hot baths and razor blades and extension cords and electrical appliances and weedkiller. Suicide is such a complicated, demanding business."

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in how painless death is denied.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how peaceful, painless death is denied so I can finally escape from and prevent meaningless suffering, no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this dreadful torturous existence and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to never exist again, to me existence truly is an abomination. I see human existence as the most terrible tragedy that just causes and brings so much cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of this, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake which is why I just wish to die in peace, I find it deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence in general, I find it a burden to suffer in this existence and it's a burden I only hope and wish for permanent relief from.

For me non-existence truly is always preferable to being enslaved in this existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer for the sake of it in this reality where there is all this torture and agony just to be tormented by old age, the thought of suffering until old age is horrific and terrifying to me. I'd never wish for that rather I just want to never exist ever again, the fact that euthanasia is denied for humans even know this existence was imposed in the first place with no limit as to how much one can suffer is horrifying to me, it just leads to so much more agony how the option to die in peace is denied, I just wish there's acceptance towards seeing existence as undesirable with the option to die painlessly there as existence to me really is the true problem, I just see it as causing suffering all for the sake of it, I only hope to painlessly die and forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only death can bring me peace from all pointless suffering.
Death truly is all that can personally bring me peace from this painful, torturous existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, all I hope and wish for is to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, never suffering in this existence ever again truly is all I personally see as desirable and could ever be for me no matter what. Non-existence is the only peace for me as after all there is no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is eternal non-existence, if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as such a terrible tragic mistake, existing to me truly is just pointless suffering and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from.

I'd personally always prefer to die than be trapped in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, death truly is the only peace for me which is why I suffer so much from the absence of the option to just never exist again. I wish I could just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten for me and there is no more pain, no more suffering, I'm always so tired of this existence of pointless suffering that was tragically imposed in the first place. Existence itself is something I see as just causing harm and so much unnecessary, endless suffering, it's all just so terrible to me, all I hope for is the option to painlessly die and never exist again, I wish for peace from this unnecessary existence of pointless suffering that I never would have chose under any circumstance.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing non-existence as desirable.
I've always and only seen non-existence as desirable which is why I just hope and wish to permanently cease existing, I just want peace from this existence that was so tragically imposed that just causes so much unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, in general I just find it deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence at all. To suffer in this existence is such a cruel, futile burden to me and it's one I never would have chose, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all no matter what rather I just wish for non-existence, I wish for all to be finally all gone and forgotten about for me.

I've personally only wished for non-existence and it's all I'll wish for no matter what, in an existence that just causes so much suffering death truly is the only relief for me and to painlessly die and never suffer ever again is all I hope for, I just want to painlessly cease existing but of course the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have wished for. I only see non-existence as desirable as to me existence just feels like a terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, non-existence truly would solve everything for me as it removes what I ultimately have a problem which is existence itself. I'll always find it a burden to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I simply just wish to not exist and non-existence is all I'll hope for no matter what, I truly was never meant for any of the cruelty and suffering this existence brings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Human existence is a torturous, futile burden.
No matter what I truly will always see human existence as a torturous, futile burden and it's one that has only ever caused me to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, I personally see no value in suffering in this existence rather I just want to die in peace and forget about it all as after all if I'm permanently unconscious I cannot suffer, cannot be harmed in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me. I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and I suffer simply from existing, just being conscious in this existence is enough to make me wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, if it's up to me I never would have chosen this burden as I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way.

I'd never wish for this existence of unnecessary, pointless suffering that there was never a need for, existence just feels like a tragedy to me, I see it as a mistake to suffer in this existence, I just find it a dreadful tragedy how I had to suffer in this existence even know there were never any disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer at all. Non-existence is all I personally hope for and it'd solve everything for me, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as I find it a burden to exist and always will do no matter what, I just wish there's acceptance towards not wishing to be burdened with this existence, I wish for the option to die painlessly as I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it and I'll always see existing as just being pointless suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all that's ideal for me.
For me personally eternal sleep truly is all that's ideal, I just want to fall into an permanent sleep and never suffer ever again, to sleep for all eternity is all I've ever hoped and wished for, I'd never wish to exist no matter what and I see existence as something that just causes harm and brings suffering. I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious and unaware of all this, in an existence so cruel and futile ceasing to exist truly is the only peace for me, it's all I see as desirable, I just wish and hope to never exist ever again.

I wish for eternal sleep as I see it as such a terrible, torturous burden to suffer in this existence at all and it's a burden I'm always so tired of that has brought me nothing but pain, eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering in the first place and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, I wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten about for me and this existence is finally no longer my problem. It just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just fall asleep permanently to escape from all unnecessary, pointless suffering in this existence I never would have chose, eternal sleep truly is always preferable to me than suffering in this cruel, futile existence there was never a need for at all. There's so much suffering in existing and if I'm asleep for all eternity then none of it can concern me, to permanently cease existing truly is all I hope for and will wish for no matter what, for me eternal sleep is peace that cannot be found in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from being enslaved in this existence.
I truly do suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, it's just so cruel and horrible to me how there's no acceptance towards wanting death with suffering seen as something to force and prolong instead no matter what. To me human existence is enslavement as after all it was forced in the first place and there is the absence of the option for me to painlessly free myself from it in peace to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing, there's so much suffering in this terrible, torturous existence there was never a need for at all in fact existing can easily get way more torturous at any moment and I'd just never wish for any of this.

I'd never wish to be conscious of this under any circumstances, I wish I never had to suffer at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering that I always saw as deeply undesirable. To me existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake and it's something I'd never wish for no matter what, non-existence truly is all that can personally bring me relief from the cruel, futile imposition of existence that only ever caused so much suffering all for the sake of it but of course the suffering just continues instead with me trapped in this existence just waiting to die anyway. There's so much cruelty in existing and nothing would make me wish to suffer in this cruel existence, existing could never be worth it for me, no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist which is why I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence that I was never meant for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is only suffering to me.
No matter what to me existing truly will be only suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this terrible, torturous existence, for me personally death truly is the only peace as after all only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer, only in death will the suffering go away for me. Personally I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer in this futile existence there was never a need for at all, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and pointless I always just saw as nothing but harm and no matter what I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this harmful existence.

To me human existence always feels like the most cruel mistake, I see it as just being pointless, unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering, to me existing is nothing but suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings but of course the suffering just continues, I always have so much dread for what lies ahead and always will do, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, to never suffer ever again is all that's ideal to me personally, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to die is all I know.
Wanting to permanently cease existing truly is all I personally know, it's all I've ever wished for, I've only ever hoped to be free from this existence of unnecessary pointless suffering where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. I've only ever wished for death as I find it deeply undesirable to exist and always will do no matter what, I truly was never meant to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from all suffering, I just wish for this torturous, dreadful existence to be no longer my problem but of course the suffering just continues instead.

I've personally never seen any benefit to existing but rather I've always seen it as a burden to exist at all and it's a burden that has brought me nothing but pain and only ever caused me to suffer, no matter what I'd prefer to die than be trapped in this existence, death truly is always preferable for me personally especially as there are no disadvantages to not existing yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get, eternal sleep is all that has ever appealed to me as well. I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never think or feel ever again, I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all and I just have no interest in suffering in this existence as well, I never have done and never would do rather existence is just something I only wish for permanent peace from, I just hope and wish for the peace of never suffering again but of course I never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for death to save me from all future suffering.
All I personally hope and wish for is for death to save me from all future suffering, I only hope to never suffer ever again, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence that always felt like such a cruel, terrible mistake to me but rather I just wish for nothingness and what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can concern me at all. To me human existence truly is just pointless suffering all for the sake of it and nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence.

For me existence could never be worth it but rather it's something I just want permanent peace from, I wish for death to save me from all future suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway but of course all the suffering just continues, I see so much cruelty in how the option of painless death is denied even know this existence was imposed in the first place. There should be the option to just simply die in peace as I find it deeply undesirable to exist and only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering, I'd personally see no benefit to being conscious in this reality suffering all for the sake of it rather I just want to painlessly die and never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence I never would have chosen, I'll suffer as long as I exist and it's suffering that only non-existence can save me from and bring me peace from, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence which is why I only hope for all to be finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I'll always see it as so terrible and cruel how there's no painless way to simply free myself from all pointless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose. It feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for much longer.

I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this reality with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, all I personally hope and wish for is to die in peace and forget about it all, I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again but of course the suffering just continues in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake in the first place. I'd always prefer to die no matter what than suffer in this existence, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence brings, it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence that never should have been imposed at all. To me existence truly is the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so dreadful to me, as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I only hope and wish to never suffer again, I'd never wish to exist under any circumstance, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in this existence, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, no matter what I could only ever see eternal non-existence as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always having so much dread for what lies ahead.
I truly do always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this cruel, torturous existence because after all as long as one exists there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, existing can very easily get way more unbearable at any moment which just shows how existence really is a unnecessary harm that just torments existing beings and causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering until death takes away all anyway, to me human existence truly is the most futile, harmful burden.

I see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, to me human existence truly does just feel like a mistake, I just find it so dreadful and deeply undesirable to exist in general and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence that I always saw as so unnecessary that there was never a need for at all, I just see existing as waiting to die as after all death is all that's inevitable but what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long in this existence, it's horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long enslaved in this existence just to die in agony from old age. I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes but rather I just wish for the permanent peace of never suffering ever again instead where all is gone and forgotten about, non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this existence that is so dreadful and just causes so much pain all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of existing.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of existing, simply just suffering in this existence is tiring to me and is enough to only make me wish for the peace that only never existing again can bring me, I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have been forced into this cruel, torturous existence at all. To me human existence truly is just pointless suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and I'll always be so tired of it, it's the kind of tiredness that only permanent non-existence can personally take away for me and bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the relief of never suffering again.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence I never would have chose that I just saw as causing nothing but pain, there's so much suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible to me and the suffering just continues, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of never existing ever again and non-existence truly is the only peace for me personally. I just want this cruel, futile existence to be no longer my problem as I'm always so tired of existing, I was never meant to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep eternally, eternal sleep truly is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me peace from an existence I never would have chosen.