Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

It'd bring me so much peace to be able to painlessly cease existing.
It truly would bring me so much peace to be able to finally cease existing and never suffer ever again, all I hope and wish is for this cruel, futile existence to be no longer my problem and for all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me. I'll always prefer to die than be trapped in this existence of pointless suffering just waiting to die anyway, as long as I exist death truly will be all I hope for, I just hope to never exist again, to me existence truly is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all so terrible for me.

Being able to painlessly cease existing would bring me so much peace and solve everything for me as after all there is no suffering in what I see as ideal which is permanent non-existence, to cease existing truly would be the only relief for me, it's all I see as desirable, in an existence so cruel and torturous death really is all that can bring me peace and to painlessly cease existing is all I could ever hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and I suffer just from being conscious in this reality, it truly would bring me so much peace if I could have the option of a death like never waking again to save myself from all pointless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die and never exist ever again, as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep for all eternity.

 

[FuneralCry]

No disadvantages to not existing.
There really are no disadvantages to no longer suffering in this existence which is what appeals to me about ceasing to exist, there cannot be anything wrong with no longer existing as after all, all pain, problems and suffering are ultimately a result of existence itself. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me.

And at any moment existing can easily get way more unbearable, I see human existence as just being pointless suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for where one is just destined to decay and die anyway, I just see so much cruelty in how the option of painless death is denied as I'd never wish to be enslaved in this existence of unnecessary suffering that was imposed in the first place especially as there are no disadvantages to not existing at all. Existence is the source of all suffering after all and to never suffer ever again is all I personally hope for, I personally see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence, I just see existence as an unnecessary harm that just serves no function but to bring suffering and cause pain until death takes away all anyway and if I die then none of this can concern me. I only see non-existence as ideal and I only hope to be permanently unconscious where this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake is finally forgotten about, I could never see benefit to existing, instead it's something I'd never wish for no matter what under any circumstance.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the most dreadful, harmful abomination.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as the most dreadful, harmful abomination that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, existence to me is such a horrific tragedy that has only ever tormented existing beings and caused them to suffer until death takes away all anyway and I see it as ultimately so meaningless anyway. It's all just pain and suffering for the sake of it and nothing would make me wish for existence rather I wish I never existed more than anything, I wish I never became conscious of this cruel, torturous existence that I saw as causing nothing but harm, in fact to me existence truly is just an unnecessary harm.

I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay be and tormented by old age, I just see it as deeply undesirable to exist in general, I'd prefer to painlessly die than suffer all for the sake of it, I wish to just simply die in peace and never exist ever again as to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just brings so much suffering. It's horrifying how there is all this agony and torture in this reality with existing beings suffering so unbearably every second and at any moment it can get way more agonising, for me only non-existence can bring me the safety and relief from suffering I wish for, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know to me existence itself truly is an abomination, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and it's a problem that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me.