Mods if I do not update this within 168 hours (7 days from now) please delete my account and assume I was successful. Trying to allow time in case of failure and hospitalization because my wife is suspicious. Was going to do full suspension tonight but I felt a need to try to say goodbye to my wife and I wasn't subtle enough so I started an argument to throw her off and agreed to not leave yet. Might try sneaking out in wee hours or just giving it 3 days to let things cool down and then CTB when I don't have fear of being monitored by local authorities.
I don't give a fuck about the pain I am just looking for efficacy so I will be doing full suspension with a hangman's noose. I plan to lubricate the rope with baby oil or soap and use a strong branch on a tree that I know is very well concealed and should allow enough time to finish the deed even if not done perfectly by the time I am found. I'll update when I leave to CTB could be tonight or tomorrow night. May have to pretend I'm going to the office tomorrow in the afternoon and then just not come home. But because she is suspicious I feel like a prisoner in my own home. She fucking hates me anyways she only pretends to care because of her own selfishness of how she would feel if I pulled it off.
I don't give a fuck about the pain I am just looking for efficacy so I will be doing full suspension with a hangman's noose. I plan to lubricate the rope with baby oil or soap and use a strong branch on a tree that I know is very well concealed and should allow enough time to finish the deed even if not done perfectly by the time I am found. I'll update when I leave to CTB could be tonight or tomorrow night. May have to pretend I'm going to the office tomorrow in the afternoon and then just not come home. But because she is suspicious I feel like a prisoner in my own home. She fucking hates me anyways she only pretends to care because of her own selfishness of how she would feel if I pulled it off.
