silent wraith
Outsider facing society
- Mar 28, 2026
- 21
My friend is going to retire at the age of 18 he didn't even finish school yet...His mother is helping him , the more he speaks of it the more my anxiety peaks.
Once I finish school I will have to go fill up a job application... New social situations and new authorities , new places - it all stresses me out.
I always told myself I would die by the age of 15 or 16 and I am still here - now 20.
It will be a difficult battle to fight by myself.
I don't want him to speak about it anymore , he won.
I have 1 more year after this year , 1 more year and after that last summer break - after that summer break it's over here comes the final boss.
Will I survive or will it destroy me
The next question is , will I ever be hired ?
If so will I be fired right away because I am slow ?
Even so I don't believe I will find a stable job that won't ruin my mental health even more.
It will be a hell hole and I am not ready , I wish I could be like my older brother so confident and capable
Once I finish school I will have to go fill up a job application... New social situations and new authorities , new places - it all stresses me out.
I always told myself I would die by the age of 15 or 16 and I am still here - now 20.
It will be a difficult battle to fight by myself.
I don't want him to speak about it anymore , he won.
I have 1 more year after this year , 1 more year and after that last summer break - after that summer break it's over here comes the final boss.
Will I survive or will it destroy me
The next question is , will I ever be hired ?
If so will I be fired right away because I am slow ?
Even so I don't believe I will find a stable job that won't ruin my mental health even more.
It will be a hell hole and I am not ready , I wish I could be like my older brother so confident and capable
