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[Nikki2020]

why am I still here? I can't take this anymore. I hate that I struggle so much to ctb. how long do I suffer before i get the courage to go? ppl who do it must be stronger than me. I'm fed up.

 

[Maudlin]

"Death is the only wise advisor that we have. Whenever you feel, as you always do, that everything is going wrong and you're about to be annihilated, turn to your death and ask if that is so. Your death will tell you that you're wrong; that nothing really matters outside its touch. Your death will tell you, 'I haven't touched you yet."

― Carlos Castaneda,

 

[Nikki2020]

"Death is the only wise advisor that we have. Whenever you feel, as you always do, that everything is going wrong and you're about to be annihilated, turn to your death and ask if that is so. Your death will tell you that you're wrong; that nothing really matters outside its touch. Your death will tell you, 'I haven't touched you yet."

― Carlos Castaneda,

I don't really know what this means. but thank u I just need out of this world but i keep chickening out. i wake up and cry so disappointed in myself. i have to do this. pls if there is a god give me strength to do this.

 

[toasterbath]

i'm sorry that ur suffering. ur not alone. i literally wake up and cry everyday and my brain feels so frazzled and i'm in so much pain that i can't even think straight anymore. i wanna leave and im so angry at the way how things turned out .

 

[Yakamoz]

why am I still here? I can't take this anymore. I hate that I struggle so much to ctb. how long do I suffer before i get the courage to go? ppl who do it must be stronger than me. I'm fed up.

You are only for a month and few more days ffs lol

 

[Nikki2020]

You are only for a month and few more days ffs lol

what do you mean? i am only a month and few more days. i don't understand. pls elaborate. ❤

i'm sorry that ur suffering. ur not alone. i literally wake up and cry everyday and my brain feels so frazzled and i'm in so much pain that i can't even think straight anymore. i wanna leave and im so angry at the way how things turned out .

im so sorry.

You are only for a month and few more days ffs lol

pls be nice to me. :( do you mean how long I've been a member?

 

[SarRy]

Doubts are common when making such a decision. We seek to exhaust all options before doing the irreversible. Sometimes consciously, sometimes not. It is not about bravery or cowardice. I guess that's why they try to make it hard to get the means to end it all, they want to dissuade anyone who doesn't have the clarity of vision and indomitable drive that comes from having no option but to do.

If you have doubts, think about what your options are. If you can choose, then there are options.

All that being said, I hope you find peace within yourself.

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you're struggling

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it can be so dreadful and unbearable feeling trapped in a life that is just constant suffering. After all suicide really is not easy and I've always envied those who no longer exist as they are free from everything. But it does sound really tiring what you are going through so I hope that you find what you are looking for.