shijsrzh
Deluded Moron
- Dec 2, 2020
- 99
Or rather the train. If I can. See you on the other side.
If not, see you here again.
Bye. Lots of love
If not, see you here again.
Bye. Lots of love
SuicidalDream
Member
- Jun 1, 2019
- 44
Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 2,518
If you’re sure with your decision then I hope you find peace
shijsrzh
Deluded Moron
- Dec 2, 2020
- 99
My heart is screaming and bleeding but my resolution is firm. Gathering my last ounce of strength noe
Isadeth
Visionary
- Jun 12, 2020
- 2,543
I'm so sorry ♡ I hope you find peace. If you can't you're always welcome here xx
Red
Warlock
- Apr 10, 2019
- 719
Much love to you and whatever you decide to do - I mourn for the life you should’ve had and wish you peace
I think your decision is impulsive but of course I respect your wishes.
I really hope you can find peace. You deserve it.
Lots of hugs to you.
I really hope you can find peace. You deserve it.
Lots of hugs to you.
PapaSuicide
Student
- Oct 27, 2020
- 117
Take it easy! The impulsivity increases the chances of going wrong! Anyway, I hope you find peace!
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 5,793
StateOfMind
Liberty or Death
- Apr 30, 2020
- 1,197
Depends on how much planning went in to it.
Some impulsivity will be required to overcome SI.
@shijsrzh what exact method / position are you going for?
I wish you godpseed!
justpeachy
I’m haunted by the bottle & death on my breath.
- Sep 6, 2020
- 298
They said they were catching the train instead so my guess is jumping in front of a train thus forcing someone else to be involved in their suicide method.
shijsrzh
Deluded Moron
- Dec 2, 2020
- 99
I couldn't do it. I truly am a worthless piece of shit.
Not able to handle life and also too gutless and cowardly to just end it. I don't even deserve the love you gave me in those messages above.
Not able to handle life and also too gutless and cowardly to just end it. I don't even deserve the love you gave me in those messages above.
Please, don’t think like that. Many of us are exactly in te same situation you are in now!!! Me included!! Lots of love
x~Sophia~x
Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
- Sep 10, 2020
- 1,363
We'll I'm glad you're still with us... this sounded very impulsive and not thought out. Be kind to yourself, relax and do something nice to self soothe. Hugs
Trains are terrifying. You’re not a coward for being afraid of a loud massive object that will kill you. That’s normal survival instinct. CTB can be just as hard as being alive. Try to take it easy on yourself.
Please make sure this is what you truly want and are not being impulsive. As impulsive actions lead to mistakes with worst effects. Like ending up in psych ward.
but if you truly want this I hope you have a peaceful transition
but if you truly want this I hope you have a peaceful transition
It’s soooo hard, I get it! living is extremely painful but also dying, this is our curse and I don’t wish it on my worst enemy! I am here if u want to talk, am sure others too! We are here to support each other and be there for each other no matter what!
Red
Warlock
- Apr 10, 2019
- 719
Don’t beat yourself up for this, it’s completely natural!!
It seemed a bit hasty in the moment from what I could see so was perhaps not the best way to have gone through those final moments after all...
Much love for you, I’m so sorry for your disappointment
justanotherstar
Life: you can’t fire me, I quit.
- Nov 23, 2020
- 343
I’m sorry you are suffering oP but I’m glad you’re still with us. Impulsive actions often go wrong and lead to regret. You’re not a failure for having natural feelings of SI. Stay a while, SS is here to help you decide the best thing for you
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,870
Don't worry! CTB is not easy, especially not with the train method!
We love you! Hugs
No you are not - you are human. Survival instinct is human nature. Stop beating yourself up, you hear me?!
shijsrzh
Deluded Moron
- Dec 2, 2020
- 99
Thank you all for the replies. I feel very weak (mentally) which is why I didn't answer much. Thanks for all the kindness. Love to you all. ❤️
UiopQwerty
Mage
- Dec 17, 2020
- 544
ManWithNoName
Enlightened
- Feb 2, 2019
- 1,108
Don't see it like that. I've looked into train method and there are many factors that could cause it to go horribly wrong. You could end up surviving but being paralyzed from the neck down, then you would be truly fucked.
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Lack of courage would have been to just go for it versus having the courage to recognize you weren't ready and/or didn't know if it was really the right time/way. The world is super happy to beat the living shit out of you ...... why so quick to voluntarily join in with the beating(s) and beat yourself?
StateOfMind
Liberty or Death
- Apr 30, 2020
- 1,197
Where did you get this informationand which factors are you referring too? Train has 95% percent success rate making it one of the most reliable methods out there.
Sherri
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- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,802
Whatever path you choose, staying or going. I hope you find peace. I’m sorry life as brought you to this as so many of us.
ManWithNoName
Enlightened
- Feb 2, 2019
- 1,108
You are correct that it is 95% success rate, when all being equal e.g.: proper impact to create fatal injury, etc. But many jumps go bad. Viktor Staudt comes to my mind:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...fighting-an-endless-battle.25020/#post-455134