Help FUCK (need sn again)

[msesis]

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck this is exhausting!

I ordered SN back last year but after two stints in the hospital and some hopeful things happening I did not complete the shipping process. I had to create an amazon business account and have it shipped to a forwarding service because it wouldn't ship direct to Canada. But then I got mental health acted and a friend offered to help in a significant way, and that package stayed in the warehouse until it was thrown away. The original source that I bought from now is gone. I am constantly slipping into the zone of giving up again and I need to have that with me because I cannot wait months to get ahold of SN again or go through that entire process of finding a source if I need it.

I know it is very very hard to get a link to an SN source here, but given that I had been an active participant for a year and have already ordered already, would anyone be kind enough to send me one? I'm based in Canada but can order from the US. I know of the source in.. Poland.. I think it was? But would prefer not to order all the way from Europe.

I am not authorities and would never compromise a source. The last time I obtained this source (which got taken down quite quickly) was through working together with another user on this site. I am willing to provide whatever proof is necessary. Please if anyone could help I would be so grateful.

 

[Nemaki Arber]

I'm sorry hun I think Canadian border authorities have caught on, my SN from a currently popular source got denied importation early this month and returned. It's going to be really hard to get it from any sources outside the country now I fear.

 

[msesis]

I'm sorry hun I think Canadian border authorities have caught on, my SN from a currently popular source got denied importation early this month and returned. It's going to be really hard to get it from any sources outside the country now I fear.

This is terrible.... I was feeling that there was some kind of mobilization by authorities when I ordered last year - the US also had that youth suicide prevention act that they were working on around that same time. I am guessing, then, that it is still just as hard to find a source in the country? Do I actually have to fly to Europe or something to get it? That's terrible...

I have yet to find another method that is as lethal, peaceful, and can be done in the safety of my own room. SN was a comfort in the back of my mind.

 

[Nemaki Arber]

This is terrible.... I was feeling that there was some kind of mobilization by authorities when I ordered last year - the US also had that youth suicide prevention act that they were working on around that same time. I am guessing, then, that it is still just as hard to find a source in the country? Do I actually have to fly to Europe or something to get it? That's terrible...

I have yet to find another method that is as lethal, peaceful, and can be done in the safety of my own room. SN was a comfort in the back of my mind.

Yeah.. I haven't been able to find any sources from within Canada that is pure or nearly pure SN unfortunately. I've given up on trying to obtain SN and resorted to finding fentanyl on the dark web.

Hopefully someone is able to find a source from within our country and hopefully they don't end up like mr.law.

Best of luck

 

[msesis]

Yeah.. I haven't been able to find any sources from within Canada that is pure or nearly pure SN unfortunately. I've given up on trying to obtain SN and resorted to finding fentanyl on the dark web.

Hopefully someone is able to find a source from within our country and hopefully they don't end up like mr.law.

Best of luck

Dammit, I was trying to avoid anything illegal. Thanks for responding, though -

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I understand just wanting the option of a peaceful way to simply cease existing in peace and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just see it as so dreadful how there's no acceptance towards the right to die, I wish you the best.

 

[plutoaquarius]

Dammit, I was trying to avoid anything illegal. Thanks for responding, though -

Same. What's your backup option?

 

[bankai]

I've seen multiple sources recently of the Canadian customs directly sending it back to the seller. Canada is kind of a no go at this point.

 

[msesis]

Same. What's your backup option?

I found a few sources last night, but they are kind of expensive. I'm hopeful that with a bit more sleuthing I will find something. I may also try ordering from one of those send-to-businesses only sources with a fake business.

unfortunately I have not found another method I am happy with. I've already tried cutting, before I did any research. Because I like the idea of dying slowly and getting to feel my death. At some point I may stop having to be so picky. But for now I am still researching SN.