Help FUCK (need sn again)

[msesis]

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck this is exhausting!

I ordered SN back last year but after two stints in the hospital and some hopeful things happening I did not complete the shipping process. I had to create an amazon business account and have it shipped to a forwarding service because it wouldn't ship direct to Canada. But then I got mental health acted and a friend offered to help in a significant way, and that package stayed in the warehouse until it was thrown away. The original source that I bought from now is gone. I am constantly slipping into the zone of giving up again and I need to have that with me because I cannot wait months to get ahold of SN again or go through that entire process of finding a source if I need it.

I know it is very very hard to get a link to an SN source here, but given that I had been an active participant for a year and have already ordered already, would anyone be kind enough to send me one? I'm based in Canada but can order from the US. I know of the source in.. Poland.. I think it was? But would prefer not to order all the way from Europe.

I am not authorities and would never compromise a source. The last time I obtained this source (which got taken down quite quickly) was through working together with another user on this site. I am willing to provide whatever proof is necessary. Please if anyone could help I would be so grateful.

 

[Arb]

I'm sorry hun I think Canadian border authorities have caught on, my SN from a currently popular source got denied importation early this month and returned. It's going to be really hard to get it from any sources outside the country now I fear.

 

[msesis]

I'm sorry hun I think Canadian border authorities have caught on, my SN from a currently popular source got denied importation early this month and returned. It's going to be really hard to get it from any sources outside the country now I fear.

This is terrible.... I was feeling that there was some kind of mobilization by authorities when I ordered last year - the US also had that youth suicide prevention act that they were working on around that same time. I am guessing, then, that it is still just as hard to find a source in the country? Do I actually have to fly to Europe or something to get it? That's terrible...

I have yet to find another method that is as lethal, peaceful, and can be done in the safety of my own room. SN was a comfort in the back of my mind.

 

[Arb]

This is terrible.... I was feeling that there was some kind of mobilization by authorities when I ordered last year - the US also had that youth suicide prevention act that they were working on around that same time. I am guessing, then, that it is still just as hard to find a source in the country? Do I actually have to fly to Europe or something to get it? That's terrible...

I have yet to find another method that is as lethal, peaceful, and can be done in the safety of my own room. SN was a comfort in the back of my mind.

Yeah.. I haven't been able to find any sources from within Canada that is pure or nearly pure SN unfortunately. I've given up on trying to obtain SN and resorted to finding fentanyl on the dark web.

Hopefully someone is able to find a source from within our country and hopefully they don't end up like mr.law.

Best of luck

 

[msesis]

Yeah.. I haven't been able to find any sources from within Canada that is pure or nearly pure SN unfortunately. I've given up on trying to obtain SN and resorted to finding fentanyl on the dark web.

Hopefully someone is able to find a source from within our country and hopefully they don't end up like mr.law.

Best of luck

Dammit, I was trying to avoid anything illegal. Thanks for responding, though -

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I understand just wanting the option of a peaceful way to simply cease existing in peace and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just see it as so dreadful how there's no acceptance towards the right to die, I wish you the best.

 

[plutoaquarius]

Dammit, I was trying to avoid anything illegal. Thanks for responding, though -

Same. What's your backup option?

 

[bankai]

I've seen multiple sources recently of the Canadian customs directly sending it back to the seller. Canada is kind of a no go at this point.

 

[msesis]

Same. What's your backup option?

I found a few sources last night, but they are kind of expensive. I'm hopeful that with a bit more sleuthing I will find something. I may also try ordering from one of those send-to-businesses only sources with a fake business.

unfortunately I have not found another method I am happy with. I've already tried cutting, before I did any research. Because I like the idea of dying slowly and getting to feel my death. At some point I may stop having to be so picky. But for now I am still researching SN.

 

[anonymous2025]

I found a few sources last night, but they are kind of expensive. I'm hopeful that with a bit more sleuthing I will find something. I may also try ordering from one of those send-to-businesses only sources with a fake business.

unfortunately I have not found another method I am happy with. I've already tried cutting, before I did any research. Because I like the idea of dying slowly and getting to feel my death. At some point I may stop having to be so picky. But for now I am still researching SN.

If you really think about it you don't have to go through any of this in the US, as most suppliers will ship to "Any" business.. including hubs. That's how I got mine within five days.

 

[msesis]

If you really think about it you don't have to go through any of this in the US, as most suppliers will ship to "Any" business.. including hubs. That's how I got mine within five days.

I'm in Canada :(. Can I ask what you mean by hubs, though?

 

[bankai]

Canada, UK, New Zealand. These three countries are having a problem now. Eventually you know it's going to spread to other countries as well.

 

[anonymous2025]

I'm in Canada :(. Can I ask what you mean by hubs, though?

For example, a UPS hub or FedEx hub, you can use the the store address as your shipping destination, it's always better to have an online account with who ever you go with. I'm pretty sure Canada has the same or simular.

 

[tulero]

Canada, UK, New Zealand. These three countries are having a problem now. Eventually you know it's going to spread to other countries as well.

yep, in 5 years its gonna be impossible to buy it

a kind of pentob situation

 

[Stayhomestaysafe]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I understand just wanting the option of a peaceful way to simply cease existing in peace and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just see it as so dreadful how there's no acceptance towards the right to die, I wish you the best.

If I end up going without using SN (if it comes to that) I'll be calling out the gov in any suicide note and making sure it's known that because they have made it illegal to purchase then they left me with whatever option I take.
There's a lot of people who jump on train tracks here..horrific, not something I'd want to do as a method even though it's crossed my mind it isn't fair on witnesses or the train driver and cleanup crew but you get what I'm saying, I'd be partially blaming regulations for that. Not that it would change anything but still..

 

[tiredoflife718]

If you really think about it you don't have to go through any of this in the US, as most suppliers will ship to "Any" business.. including hubs. That's how I got mine within five days.

Can you dm me

 

[Romanticize]

Is it really so hard in the world to source SN?
In Poland, you just go to our biggest online auction/shop website, two clicks, $5 and you have 0,5 or 1kg SN delivered to your home 2 days later.
No one is asking any questions, no welfare checks, NOTHING.

I mean SN is used for meat processing. I find it hard to believe people are having this many problems. After all, laws in Poland and in Western EU, US, Canada are very similar. Do you guys really have troubles ordering SN? o.o

 

[opro111]

Is it really so hard in the world to source SN?
In Poland, you just go to our biggest online auction/shop website, two clicks, $5 and you have 0,5 or 1kg SN delivered to your home 2 days later.
No one is asking any questions, no welfare checks, NOTHING.

I mean SN is used for meat processing. I find it hard to believe people are having this many problems. After all, laws in Poland and in Western EU, US, Canada are very similar. Do you guys really have troubles ordering SN? o.o

Yup they have absolutely cracked down on it here in Canada. Sounds like it might be even more extreme in UK. There is nowhere to buy it within Canada as far as I know at least on the clear web.

 

[missmars]

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck this is exhausting!

I ordered SN back last year but after two stints in the hospital and some hopeful things happening I did not complete the shipping process. I had to create an amazon business account and have it shipped to a forwarding service because it wouldn't ship direct to Canada. But then I got mental health acted and a friend offered to help in a significant way, and that package stayed in the warehouse until it was thrown away. The original source that I bought from now is gone. I am constantly slipping into the zone of giving up again and I need to have that with me because I cannot wait months to get ahold of SN again or go through that entire process of finding a source if I need it.

I know it is very very hard to get a link to an SN source here, but given that I had been an active participant for a year and have already ordered already, would anyone be kind enough to send me one? I'm based in Canada but can order from the US. I know of the source in.. Poland.. I think it was? But would prefer not to order all the way from Europe.

I am not authorities and would never compromise a source. The last time I obtained this source (which got taken down quite quickly) was through working together with another user on this site. I am willing to provide whatever proof is necessary. Please if anyone could help I would be so grateful.

Me too. I need it. Please DM me if you find a source. Ugh. This is exausting.

 

[msesis]

Is it really so hard in the world to source SN?
In Poland, you just go to our biggest online auction/shop website, two clicks, $5 and you have 0,5 or 1kg SN delivered to your home 2 days later.
No one is asking any questions, no welfare checks, NOTHING.

I mean SN is used for meat processing. I find it hard to believe people are having this many problems. After all, laws in Poland and in Western EU, US, Canada are very similar. Do you guys really have troubles ordering SN? o.o

Yes. I would order from that website in Poland, but it will have to make it through customs, and of course they don't ship internationally. So I'd need to use a shipping forwarding service. It's definitely an option and I'll do it, but just a lot of hassle for something that might not even make it through customs.

 

[yellowjasminegoing]

I can relate
I also need a source for sn but can't find for denmark.

 

[CuriousPotato]

Potassium Nitrite seems to be a more accessible alternative with the same effects. It tastes worse but I'm thinking of either desensitizing my taste buds or masking the saltiness with something else. This should be my backup plan. My primary plan is the "night-night" method.

 

[yellowjasminegoing]

Yes. I would order from that website in Poland, but it will have to make it through customs, and of course they don't ship internationally. So I'd need to use a shipping forwarding service. It's definitely an option and I'll do it, but just a lot of hassle for something that might not even make it through customs.

Oh wow you're a genius! Thanks so much for the idea!

 

[cookiencream]

Potassium Nitrite seems to be a more accessible alternative with the same effects. It tastes worse but I'm thinking of either desensitizing my taste buds or masking the saltiness with something else. This should be my backup plan. My primary plan is the "night-night" method.

Is that method working for you? The night-night method

 

[CuriousPotato]

Is that method working for you? The night-night method

I don't know. I haven't gone for it yet, but everything is prepared. It may not work for everyone. I have a rope too, just in case. That should do it in a pinch.