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1984

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Mar 14, 2024
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i just want to vent i have a best friend and they mean everything to me. and they haven't talked to me in over a week </3 i keep texting them but they just leave me on read. if they leave me i'm going to ctb... which is why i'm here i'm doing research just in case. i just want to live for them but i can't do that if they don't talk to me...
 
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violetforever

violetforever

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Dec 24, 2025
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i just want to live for them but i can't do that if they don't talk to me...
i have a similar mindset and it frustrates me to no end. it probably does the same for the person i put this burden onto. im trying to distance and detach myself from them bc of it. they rarely talk to me anyway so i must not mean much. its just not possible to manipulate someone into liking/loving you the same amount and way you do for them so its just like well what more can i do? sorry for just adding to ur rant <|3
 
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1984

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Mar 14, 2024
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i have a similar mindset and it frustrates me to no end. it probably does the same for the person i put this burden onto. im trying to distance and detach myself from them bc of it. they rarely talk to me anyway so i must not mean much. its just not possible to manipulate someone into liking/loving you the same amount and way you do for them so its just like well what more can i do? sorry for just adding to ur rant <|3
me personally i never told them how much i'm struggling without them and how much i need them and how much i look up to them and how much they mean to me. i'll do so in my suicide note ofc if it comes to that which i really hope it won't. for me it's a relatively reciprocal relationship until they start having issues and then they isolate themself. maybe they talk to their boyfriend idk but me and their other friends don't hear from them for weeks often. and no worries, we're all here to support each other <3
 
SASU-KE

SASU-KE

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Nov 26, 2025
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That kind of 1 sided relationship never lasts for a long time. Both parties should have an equal amount of love and respect for each other. I would say reach out to them but don't let them know how much they mean to you yet.Try to be nonchalant.

Because if they know that you're willing to die over the relationship, that's just too much for them to handle. It's an instant off switch.

I hope you rekindle your relationship and things work out.
 
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enjoytheride

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Jun 29, 2025
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i just want to vent i have a best friend and they mean everything to me. and they haven't talked to me in over a week </3 i keep texting them but they just leave me on read. if they leave me i'm going to ctb... which is why i'm here i'm doing research just in case. i just want to live for them but i can't do that if they don't talk to me...
I am sorry for what you are going through. I understand how deeply committed we can be to a friend. Sometimes they mean more than family to us.

Bear in mind, though, that by considering ctb because of their silence, you are placing your life in their hands, making them responsible for your existence. That's an unfair amount of responsibility to place into someone's hands. As SASU-KE mentioned, this is too much to handle. So please consider giving yourself and them time. Try to see things from different perspectives and try to build a stronger reliance on yourself.

Kind regards!
 

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