I am a pretty anxious law-abiding citizen. I try to play by the rules. One time had the wrong train ticket and I can still remember that I had to pay a fine and it was horrible for me. I am now even more obsessed to never get another one. Some days ago I was in a train and the staff member was wrong on a certain ticket though it still did not affect me. I was pretty scared by it anyway.
I don't like drugs. But many people have a different opinion compared to me. And if you want to smoke weed or even harder drugs you usually have to break the law for it. Except if your are in a study or something like that(?). I am taking sometimes addictive medication. Though I could never imagine to order such medication of the black market. Why should I do that anyway my psychiatrist is prescribing it to me. Hopefully that will continue with a new psychiatrist the current one retires soon. And I am pretty scared I won't find anyone who prescribes these dangerous medication to me. However as I said I would never order it illegally. The quality is way too uncertain, it would cost a lot and it is illegal. By the way I read that many drugs are laced- I think they often use fentanyl for that this is why so many people die of an OD.
I think there are some greyareas where I am not that strict. For example I used a VPN to circumvent geoblocking in order to watch soccer games in the past. Sadly this is not working anymore because the other channel lost the licences for that. There is soon a match I am very hyped for. Bayern Munich against PSG. The official stream costs 40 bucks. I cannot afford that but I am too law-abiding to watch it illegally. I also read people get admonished for that and I am way too scared about that.
So usually I am very law-abiding. But for a save and secure suicide of mine I would break the law for it. I mean the risk of getting brain damage or ending up as a vegetable is way more scary than most usual fines. Still I will choose no method which could get me into prison. I think theoretically importing barbiturates could do that. I think the system is pretty cyncial to us. I feel criminalized concerning suicide. I think I will reach my limit in the future but noone gives me an exit. So I am forced to break the law if I don't want to be exposed to the risk of getting torn apart in pieces and still surviving. It is so fucking scary to think about that.
I feel forced to commit a crime in order to die peacefully. The system is disgusting to people like me. The society and the elites should feel ashamed. For what would you break the law?
I don't like drugs. But many people have a different opinion compared to me. And if you want to smoke weed or even harder drugs you usually have to break the law for it. Except if your are in a study or something like that(?). I am taking sometimes addictive medication. Though I could never imagine to order such medication of the black market. Why should I do that anyway my psychiatrist is prescribing it to me. Hopefully that will continue with a new psychiatrist the current one retires soon. And I am pretty scared I won't find anyone who prescribes these dangerous medication to me. However as I said I would never order it illegally. The quality is way too uncertain, it would cost a lot and it is illegal. By the way I read that many drugs are laced- I think they often use fentanyl for that this is why so many people die of an OD.
I think there are some greyareas where I am not that strict. For example I used a VPN to circumvent geoblocking in order to watch soccer games in the past. Sadly this is not working anymore because the other channel lost the licences for that. There is soon a match I am very hyped for. Bayern Munich against PSG. The official stream costs 40 bucks. I cannot afford that but I am too law-abiding to watch it illegally. I also read people get admonished for that and I am way too scared about that.
So usually I am very law-abiding. But for a save and secure suicide of mine I would break the law for it. I mean the risk of getting brain damage or ending up as a vegetable is way more scary than most usual fines. Still I will choose no method which could get me into prison. I think theoretically importing barbiturates could do that. I think the system is pretty cyncial to us. I feel criminalized concerning suicide. I think I will reach my limit in the future but noone gives me an exit. So I am forced to break the law if I don't want to be exposed to the risk of getting torn apart in pieces and still surviving. It is so fucking scary to think about that.
I feel forced to commit a crime in order to die peacefully. The system is disgusting to people like me. The society and the elites should feel ashamed. For what would you break the law?
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