For those who acquired N in the USA, how long did it take you from beginning your search to receiving legit N?

[Bronzehawkattack]

I'm trying not to grow disillusioned with my search right now, I just wanna know how long it takes for people who start searching to find this stuff. I've been trying for the past 3 days but I just don't know what I'm doing, clearly. And I'm terrified that even when I do find someone advertising, I'll either get scammed or get busted.

I feel anxious trying to search, every minute of every day I've been feeling like shit, I've been thinking about how much I need relief right now and I want it on hand so that decision becomes more real and not just an unattainable fantasy like so many other things in my life.

 

[istheretrulyalife?]

Some people may have sources on here they can PM you. I don't know of any though

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Some people may have sources on here they can PM you. I don't know of any though

I've had no luck there.
I look at the older posts and it looks like getting stuff to ctb was a lot easier not too long ago, I always feel like I'm unfortunately just a second too later to get what I want in life (ironically in this case, death)

 

[Techef]

I look at the older posts and it looks like getting stuff to ctb was a lot easier not too long ago, I always feel like I'm unfortunately just a second too later to get what I want in life

Same here. My life is a story of always being a step too late.

 

[jacrispy]

you're not going to get N. this is not discouragement, it's reality. the only way to get it is traveling to a foreign country and getting it OTC from a vet clinic. Tijuana used to be a hot spot, but people have traveled there and still not been able to obtain it due to a language barrier as well as law enforcement cracking down on people who were selling it for people to CTB with. N is the holy grail. there are other methods much easier to obtain. they may not be as peaceful or appealing, but still aren't as horrible as drowning, lighting oneself on fire, or jumping. there's a megathread with methods that you can do more research on.

 

[istheretrulyalife?]

I've had no luck there.
I look at the older posts and it looks like getting stuff to ctb was a lot easier not too long ago, I always feel like I'm unfortunately just a second too later to get what I want in life (ironically in this case, death)

You could do the night night method. It may take a few tries to get right but it will be easier than N. It is rather painless if you do it correctly since you will pass out quickly.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

you're not going to get N. this is not discouragement, it's reality. the only way to get it is traveling to a foreign country and getting it OTC from a vet clinic. Tijuana used to be a hot spot, but people have traveled there and still not been able to obtain it due to a language barrier as well as law enforcement cracking down on people who were selling it for people to CTB with. N is the holy grail. there are other methods much easier to obtain. they may not be as peaceful or appealing, but still aren't as horrible as drowning, lighting oneself on fire, or jumping. there's a megathread with methods that you can do more research on.

FUCK this world man. Why is it that everything that I want and need I'm always deprived of? This shits not fair.

 

[tropicalrain]

It seems like SN is going the way of N now too