Discussion For those not planning to CTB soon, why still browse the forums?

[pyx]

For members who aren't planning to CTB soon, or aren't researching methods. Why do you continue to browse the forums?

 

[overmorrow]

to muster up courage tbh, and spend time with smart and relatable people instead of normies that all can they do is judge and make you feel awful.

 

[derpyderpins]

I'm still managing mental health issues and this place generally makes me feel comfortable. Plus as someone who has been dealing with suicidal thoughts for 20 years now I feel like I can be of at least a little use to people who have questions since I've somewhat "recovered." I can feel good about myself being able to support someone in a similar situation to where I was, although that doesn't always work out.

I hope I've been a net positive member of the community.

 

[devils~advocate]

Yes like someone mentioned....to keep my courage up and sympathy with others going thru the same mental processes.

I also look to see if anyone needs guidance with method Ive chosen. Ive helped some already in great detail but some seem reluctant to respond back.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Also, people have made friends here and most are properly encouraged and want to plan and research everything to a T. Failure sucks worse.

 

[avalon_]

Misery loves company :) This is the only place I have where I don't feel like a complete stranger.

 

[JustAnx]

Though i'm still gathering all the info i could need. I don't feel like doing anything else (besides my work). Don't care about conventional social media, i don't even watch/read the news anymore.
Being here, and i only been here like 3 days as a member and like a week if you add lurking, i'm considering it like an important life experience, regardless of what happens to me in the future. For me, being here, it is not easy on the feels, however it is so real as real can get.

 

[-Link-]

This is the only place online where I feel like I'm with "my people."

I also try to help out other members where and when I can. I've been through many years of different treatments and have learned a lot through those programs and from practitioners and other patients, and I can draw upon that experience to try to support other people. What benefit do I get in that? I don't know, it's a feel-good thing to do? And it passes the time? I haven't really had anything going on in my life for quite a while and my socialization has been limited to close family. So, being here gives me something else to do during the day and also a feeling of connection to other people.

 

[azo]

Habit. Also, I think the interactions here have more meaning/depth/substance than those elsewhere online, probably owing to the nature of forums in general, but also, I guess, to the nature of this forum in particular.

 

[Forever Sleep]

This place is a great comfort to me. I feel I can be more honest here than anywhere else without people getting hugely worried and bombarding me with ridiculous platitudes or sick of hearing all the pessimism.

There are loads of really interesting discussions going on here too- asides from suicide. Lots of very empathetic people who think deeply and like to ponder on the really big questions in life.

I can't say I'm that familiar with other forums but, from what I've heard, this place also sounds far more accepting than other forums. This place has been a sort of lifeline to me (ironically) while I wait until I can CTB. (Waiting for my Dad to go first.)

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Makes me feel less lonely. I also care about people here and want to know how they're doing.
Some posts are thought provoking, others are relaxing activities (like the quizzes), others are incredibly sad and I want to try and provide some value to the person, etc.
There's a big sense of community here and I like this community. Even if I'm not actively suicidal currently, I feel at home coming here and want to help when/if I can.

 

[mango-meridian]

It feels really good to be able to unmask the part of myself that isn't sure if it wants to be on this planet. That was my original/biggest reason for being here.

In the meantime I've found some good recovery information/discussions and met a couple of cool people. And some of the posts are really thought provoking/interesting so that's a plus.

 

[LookingForPresent]

To not feel alone. It is nice to voice my darkest thoughts without people panicking and feeling like I need to censor myself. I don't plan to CTB soon but keep the option open. The through that I have control over when and how I will die gives me courage in daily life. It is an escape route if anything becomes too much and this "recovery" thing does not work out.

 

[daley]

Paraphrasing what several others have already said, this is one of the only places that I can
express a part of myself which has not other outlet.

Also, I just don't have much else to do.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Because I can't ctb as I don't have access to any ctb methods and never will. All I can really do is vent about the insanity of existence and, whilst this site isn't perfect for that, it's still the best place there is for that so I'll have to settle with venting here

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I get to stave off boredom and insult and degrade myself regularly.

Though the only reason I'm delaying my CTB is because of some media I'm waiting to experience.

 

[astr4]

sense of camaraderie maybe and this is my safe space in some ways

 

[ConfusedClouds]

For me its a way to try to find words to articulate whats going on. Other than just 'lost', 'confused', 'frustrated' on loop. Picking up insight from others and glimmers of things that 'fit' or relate. Lots of lurking and wishing I had the ability to input anything beneficial to a lot more than I try to. No other social media and news is often bs so here seems to have become my default 'scrolling' website of choice/habit. Though I can equally find myself getting frustrated at some of the more repetitive or immature content. But with not much else to go off, its worth it for the valuable occasions something does resonate.

And keeping eyes out in case a failsafe method does actually/miraculously materialise for my next big crash/meltdown...

And a couple of specific megathreads have given me genuine laughs and distractions to get lost in - namely the weekly challenge recovery thread and the gifs only game thread.

 

[BoulderSoWhat]

Can't really find like-minded people and people who "get it" anywhere else, except maybe the NAMI group I go to once a month. But even so, can't express myself the same there as I do here.

Started a new job in september. So far I've avoided the whole "Do you have/want kids?" get-to-know-you routine with coworkers. Dreading when the work slows down and if anybody brings it up. How do I kill the question politely lol.

 

[mango-meridian]

Another reason that just came to me is that SaSu seems to have helped me cut back on low quality media/information consumption, e.g. Instagram but especially Reddit.

Going to Reddit after browsing here for a while puts into perspective what a shithole that place is. It makes me feel terrible in so many ways. I always feel like some emotion is in overdrive, whether it be anger, jealousy, confusion, outrage, inadequacy, etc. I know it's designed to farm my attention and interactions, but it's so addictive regardless.

With SaSu on the otherhand, the bad stuff is out in the open and I know what it is. There are assholes, etc. But I don't feel like I'm being manipulated by a toxic algorithm.

 

[DarkRange55]

Because I'm an enigma to most users on here and AI or a bot to others

 

[iloveloving]

I feel comfortable here.

 

[Promised Heaven]

This is the only place I can discuss about suicide and the abuse I've gotten from the mental healthcare system from being suicidial.

I've lost friends I've had for years because I spoke up about my fear of the mental healthcare system, and how it made me more suicidial than before. Many places online do not allow discussions of reforming or criticizing the current state of mental health treatment, as it is implied people like me are to mentally ill to decide how I should be treated, thus the pain is ignored.

This is the only place where I've felt no fear discussing it, as well as being open minded to people who have been helped by it to reduce suicidial thoughts. I'm suicidial, but don't have the intention to die soon. Also joined here for recovery (username should of given that away).

 

[EvisceratedJester]

This is the only place where I feel comfortable posting dumb bullshit. I need something to past the time until I'm eventually in a good enough position to attempt again, so until then I may as well just spend my days making unfunny shitposts and posting bad takes on a controversial suicide forum.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Because this is the only place you can really discuss suicidal ideation without a bunch of dumb platitudes, and because this site is sometimes hilarious both intentionally and unintentionally.

 

[nomoredolor]

For members who aren't planning to CTB soon, or aren't researching methods. Why do you continue to browse the forums?

I expect my ctb date won't be until July 2025, maybe even later. But I'm filling out a death planner and slowly getting my affairs in order in case I need to ctb unexpectedly/suddenly I'll have everything ready to go.

This site makes me feel safe. I know that there's no pressure either way to live or ctb and that generally the people on here wish the other users peace and comfort with r either decision.

It's also a tool for suicide ideation, information gathering and connection. It both helps and hurts to see people in a similar mindset to me. Also the different forums (like recovery and off topic) make it so there's something for everyone.

The topics on this website are often heavy and I appreciate that I have a safe place to discuss them and they won't be sugarcoated or used against me.

 

[mars_b4rz]

For me it's mostly from an Observers perspective. I'm not suicidal but I do have problems in life. So I'm curious to see what other people think and feel with problems of their own.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Because this is the only place where I can be honest about what I think and feel. And over the years, I've been away from here and always come back because nothing ever changes. Sometimes I look for a better method and sometimes peer support or I just want to write my thoughts out somewhere where there is no judgement. I don't even know how many years I've been here... I used to go here a lot before I became an actual user.

 

[TAW122]

A lot of people have really good responses and for me, it's a combination of many things, the community and camaraderie, being able to have a safe place to discuss topics like assisted suicide, CTB, death, and many more things, and of course, a place where method efficacy as well as pitfalls and other potential dangers of methods can be adequately discussed. I don't recall many other platforms and places that are as open, tolerant, and accepting as SaSu in terms of that. While my decision to CTB is largely personal and still ultimately my own decision in the end, at least I would be able to handle the day to day mundanity and suffering that sentience brings a bit better until my final moment into the future. SaSu has also helped me cope with what I otherwise wouldn't have done so and may have acted rashly in other cases (acting without having proper research or good information) and also allowed me an outlet (the community and some fellow members that actually listen, even if they don't fully comprehend my thoughts and struggles), which in turn helps me in day to day sentience and not acting out in public.

 

[Downdraft]

You can't talk about how you felt when suicidal anywhere else even tho I'm not anymore. The focus of the forum allows for unique conversations. No other place is like this.