First Post

[Renv1o_]

Hello! This is my first post here and I'm a little nervous/ unsure how to start.

I'm so sick of every day at this point, but I have so many ties and responsibilities. Does anyone else on here regret not taking the opportunity to off themselves when they had the chance? There was a time in my life when I was deeply hated by those close to me and I really didn't have anything left to lose. I escaped an abusive household, and attempted to make friends, and rekindle connections- But all it's done is make me feel so incapable of being a functioning person for those who expect things from me. I have people who care for me and people I love, I have pets and places to be but I just can't handle it anymore. I feel insane since I'm supposed to be better but every day is just so dull and difficult. I'm tired of people telling me to keep pushing, that things get easier if I try harder.

I just don't feel I'm fit for this world and the expectations that come with being alive. I wish my previous attempts when I had nothing to lose and nothing to feel guilty for, actually succeeded. I wish I tried harder and didn't listen to those who tried to support and stop me.

 

[dumpstermagic]

fuck all the expectations. feel guilty if you have to, but don't let it stop you from cutting shit out that you dont wanna do. success is subjective. no one can tell you what your success is other than yourself. a lot of people don't understand the line of support versus interjection. just leave everyone to do their thing and do yours. life is better when you're chasing dreams not trying to keep people happy. you don't owe anyone anything.
anyways, welcome and thanks for coming to my ted talk
fuck em all you are the one who matters most. your eyes are only open once. fill your view with what you want.

 

[StaticCryBabye]

I understand how you feel. It's okay to admit that you're struggling and that life feels unbearable. Sometimes it feels like the weight of expectations and responsibilities is too much to handle. But remember, you are in control of your life and you can choose how to live it. If you truly believe that you don't want to continue, that's your decision to make. However, before taking any drastic measures, consider reaching out for help and support. Don't suffer in silence.

 

[leeloosnow]

yeah i feel oddly highly functional/capable and also not fit/capable for this world at all. welcome to the bus stop :)

 

[unnormal9]

fuck all the expectations

True. Live by the sword.

 

[LostinCyberspace]

I'm new here as well (just joined today). I understand what you mean when you say every day is dull. At a certain point, all the days and nights that go by just became one big chunk of time. The sunsets I used to enjoy make me feel nothing, the full moon at night that I used to think was beautiful is just a light in the sky.

I also agree that listening to anyone who wants to "help" you is usually just a self-righteous zealot. From my experience they're a cult who imposes their dogma on anyone and everyone, and love to use people's misery to make them money. Whenever I hear a "happy song" play which is sung and produced by this cult it just makes me feel like I'm going insane. I hope we can both enjoy this website, if that's possible for us at this point.

 

[Renv1o_]

yeah i feel oddly highly functional/capable and also not fit/capable for this world at all. welcome to the bus stop :)

You put it into words so perfectly. Thank you<3

 

[FuneralCry]

I think it's true that not everyone is meant to exist here and it does sound really tiring what you have to go through, it's very much understandable just wishing to be free from everything. But anyway I wish you the best.