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BlueberryDeer

BlueberryDeer

Hope is volatile
Nov 20, 2025
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I saw some posts here that financial problems are temporary and shouldn't influence in the decision of leaving this world. I disagree. Not only because it's my main reason why I want to die, but I feel and understand other people who are in the same economic issues, specially the disabled people.
Let's put the details about politic-economic systems aside and left the debate in the respective section of Politics & Philosophy of this forum. I was born poor and probably will die poorer, so I don't have any family estate to live on, did one of the least profitable and 'hireable' bachelor's degree - Literature/ language studies -, being mixed race and decided to be a transgender woman in the hope of feeling better, but I didn't measure the employment issue. All of that situation contributed to have an absurd low rate of acceptance in entry jobs, and we're talking about being a Customer Service consultant, or even a janitor.
I don't want to be filthy rich. I don't want to have a yacht, or travel to Dubai or Maldives, or eating at the stupid restaurant of SaltBae (The guy with the gold folded steak)... I just want a world when I can have a decent job to still pay my tiny room in a shared house and have a little time to write my fiction works. But in this context, and by the erroneous decisions regarding education I took, it seems difficult.
Ah, and I'm aging. Sure, under 40 is still 'young', for some type of works. However, what could be when I got 45, 50, 55? In the country I live I need at least 20 years of contributions in Social security, so it means I must work without any month of unemployment until 2043. Ah, and probably I will only got the minimum wage.
Now... Do you understand how much is my level of financial distress of thinking about my present and my future? Do you understand now why I dream more about winning the lottery jackpot than marrying someone or winning any literary prize? Because I don't trust the system, the system could kick my ass on any moment, becoming a homeless person in a blink of an eye. Sure, I can disguise as a man, but that will not guarantee anything.
Since this is my financial worries level, now imagine the people who are disabled by any disease or reason. People with anxiety problems, at wheelchair, or with a more serious mental struggle such as schizophrenia, or dissociative identity disorder, or any other mental health issues. Now do you understand why the financial situation of the world pushes us to the edge of the abyss?
"But financial issues are temporary", well, if you live in a country without any unemployment severance, you fucked up.
"But you can work at anything". No, in my case, for racial and gender identity /expression issues I can't work in anything, even being fluent in English, Portuguese and Spanish. The racist profiling is there, even if they aren't obvious or speak it loud about it.
"But you can ask for help to your family / friends in the hard times". My immediate family is outside the country, my parents are dead and I lack friends here.
So yes, financial problems are a valid reason to decide to die by suicide and it's my main one. And don't try to change my mind, because if I deactivate the Recovery section of this forum is because I'm sure about the decision I made.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I don't really understand it either. I can only assume that they have enough to get by on so, maybe take it for granted.

Or, I think they may mean- in an ideal world, it shouldn't be a reason. But then- it's very far from being an ideal world! I wonder if even those who receive benefits really receive enough to have a reasonable quality of life.

Where I would perhaps have cause for concern is if our governments run the assisted suicide programmes and, if they start taking poverty as a qualification. I simply don't trust them- with only limited resources- to keep paying into benefit programmes etc. I could see them more- withdrawing even more funding- to effectively heard people into the meat grinder.
 
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