Finally

[goodbye_._]

Hello, so I have my plan all figured out. I typed up all my letters to everyone who matters. I just need a date but I'm waiting on that currently. It's sad. This is the hardest part. Everyone, my family and friends are talking about future plans but I know the truth. They aren't going to happen. It doesn't stop me, I know that I want to do it but it breaks me. It's not like they really need me but they expect me to just be there and I won't be anymore. Does anyone else feel this way? I always get this before an attempt though my last attempts weren't really going to work I still got the feeling.

I also feel relieved to have an answer. Im not really sharing my method on here just in case someone I know finds this before ctb. I know it's rare but I'm really paranoid. Anyways it's nice to know I can let go. I don't really feel anything anymore. Not hurt, not sad not happy. I don't feel like I'm even here. Though I guess I still feel relieved so that's an emotion. Sorry this is a bunch of nothing I just wanted to write.

 

[10000DaysTooMany]

I'm somewhat stating to deal with that. while I start to type up all my suicide notes I find it hard to talk about other peoples hopes and dreams for the future. Especially if it involves me.

 

[SilentSadness]

Good luck, I hope you find the peace you've been missing. I wish that you find relief from your sadness as well.

 

[Letgo]

I hope you have a peaceful journey. You are being thought of.

 

[thouxan]

Hello, so I have my plan all figured out. I typed up all my letters to everyone who matters. I just need a date but I'm waiting on that currently. It's sad. This is the hardest part. Everyone, my family and friends are talking about future plans but I know the truth. They aren't going to happen. It doesn't stop me, I know that I want to do it but it breaks me. It's not like they really need me but they expect me to just be there and I won't be anymore. Does anyone else feel this way? I always get this before an attempt though my last attempts weren't really going to work I still got the feeling.

I also feel relieved to have an answer. Im not really sharing my method on here just in case someone I know finds this before ctb. I know it's rare but I'm really paranoid. Anyways it's nice to know I can let go. I don't really feel anything anymore. Not hurt, not sad not happy. I don't feel like I'm even here. Though I guess I still feel relieved so that's an emotion. Sorry this is a bunch of nothing I just wanted to write.

I feel you. I have not made an attempt yet but I constantly struggle between being completely suicidal and clinging onto life. As I go on I become more and more emotionless though.