Finally took the step to order SN

[Fyrinne]

After trying to get better over and over again, I ordered some SN and once it's here, I will probably just end up taking it with some painkillers, sedatives, and Omeprazole. I don't have the will to keep trying, I don't have the strength or energy to fight for anything... Hell, even the idea of trying to get the antiemetics for SN sounds miserable, so I'm probably just going to go for it.

I'm most anxious about having to do it alone, I hate that, but at least if I succeed, I won't have to be alone (or anything) for very long.

 

[Kat!]

I'm sure a lot of people will be hasty to reply when the day comes, if you choose to do so, as it happens often. We'll always be here for you.

 

[toseeyousmile]

Whether you do it on the day it arrives or not, having it around as an option is a comforting escape route

 

[drnhng]

i just ordered some sn too; i'm trying to hang on till next year to see what life is like outside of the virus, but i'm not sure if i'll reach that far

 

[Fyrinne]

i just ordered some sn too; i'm trying to hang on till next year to see what life is like outside of the virus, but i'm not sure if i'll reach that far

I don't really care about covid, at least, insofar as it isn't really effecting me... I've just spent my whole life being fucked over and lashing out, so I and everyone I might interact with in the future is just better off if I was dead.

Also, I don't intend to live-blog it or anything, I'm just posting here because I have no one I can talk to, and the loneliness is killing me (literally, ha!)

 

[Fyrinne]

God I fucking hate how I feel every day... Waking up is the worst feeling, and I do it at least two or three times a night just trying to put off being awake... Fuck everything.

 

[sadworld]

Whether you do it on the day it arrives or not, having it around as an option is a comforting escape route

Yeah, it's comforting to just have it.

 

[Fyrinne]

Yeah, it's comforting to just have it.

I will almost definitely find no comfort til I am gone.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

I've been on the fence. I want to order it but I know I'm very impulsive

 

[Thrash]

Whether you do it on the day it arrives or not, having it around as an option is a comforting escape route

Yeah I was thinking this too.

 

[Fyrinne]

God I want to just hear my ex laugh and smile... Why does the world have to be so cruel?

 

[Gromit-CTB]

When did you order it OP

 

[Now_And_Then]

Where did you order it from , I will order it right away if I have a link

I am so sorry you are going through hell , as we all are here

 

[Fyrinne]

When did you order it OP

Uh... Tuesday or something like that.

Can't list/link the source according to site rules.

 

[Tired_Tired]

Alone has some advantage. At least you don't need to worry who survived.