Finally received my SN.

[Lilythefenfen]

All that's left for me is to get my hands on an antiemetic then it's off into the void.
Honestly as I held my bottle of SN, a huge relief came over me, already it feels like I have had a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. At the Same time I feel a twinge of fear, death doesn't scare me at the end of the day, but what does scare me are the thoughts of what comes after death.

I'm ready to say hello to the reaper, I know that this is whats right for me. I know what I need to do. I'm just ready to say goodbye to all this pain and agony, and I'm tired of people in my life pretending that everything is ok and that everything was always ok.

They weren't there when I was held captive by my rapist, they weren't there with the pain and suffering I went through with my biological father, they weren't there when I was left alone and called a liar, when I had to fend for myself on the streets. I am in pain, and it's MY choice if I want to stop it all. Right?
I'm just happy to have found a source in the US. It's a great feeling when you get ahold of your method.

 

[OneLastLight]

I'm happy you got to get a hold of the required substances to CTB via your preferred method. I wish I could say the same. It sounds like life did not treat you fairly at all and it sounds like no one truly understood your pain. It's normal to feel a sense of fear in face of death. After all, it is the great unknown. It is comforting, however, to have some sense of control over one's death. Whatever happens to you, I wish you the best @Lilythefenfen.

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

I wish you the best of luck! May you be able to leave all your pain behind, and find eternal peace.

 

[Lilythefenfen]

I wish you the best of luck! May you be able to leave all your pain behind, and find eternal peace.

Already have my date set up. July 21'st 2023. I plan on going to one last concert that night, getting home, getting in the tub and making a nice bubble bath before putting on some music and drinking my solution.

 

[Dosentmatter903]

Glad that you're glad...hope all goes well

 

[lookingforsanctuary]

That sounds like a nice last day.

 

[Lilythefenfen]

Just tested using a blood test, it looks brownish black kinda like chocolate syrup? Just a small sample using a lancelet Set for diabetics blood testing and I'm happy with the results it gave. Looks like the color it's supposed to look like when I started researching this method online.

 

[blue_muse]

Credit to you for what you've been through and sharing your story. I wish you a peaceful transition .

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved at the thought of being free from this horrible world, I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find peace from all the suffering, it's such a cruel existence where there is all this unnecessary agony, I think that only those who cease existing are truly fortunate.

 

[Procrastinator12345]

All that's left for me is to get my hands on an antiemetic then it's off into the void.
Honestly as I held my bottle of SN, a huge relief came over me, already it feels like I have had a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. At the Same time I feel a twinge of fear, death doesn't scare me at the end of the day, but what does scare me are the thoughts of what comes after death.

I'm ready to say hello to the reaper, I know that this is whats right for me. I know what I need to do. I'm just ready to say goodbye to all this pain and agony, and I'm tired of people in my life pretending that everything is ok and that everything was always ok.

They weren't there when I was held captive by my rapist, they weren't there with the pain and suffering I went through with my biological father, they weren't there when I was left alone and called a liar, when I had to fend for myself on the streets. I am in pain, and it's MY choice if I want to stop it all. Right?
I'm just happy to have found a source in the US. It's a great feeling when you get ahold of your method.

Can you message me the source for the SN? Please, I'd appreciate it.