VivaldiBR
Experienced
- Oct 4, 2020
- 249
I just cant handle anymore the feeling of being excluded.
This last week was pathetic. So many bad things happened to me.
Yesterday i went a little bit crazy. I screamed and argued in the streets.
I gave up on everything. I just cant handle anymore. I feel very sorry about the people who loves me, but i cant stand the suffering anymore. I am about to explode.
Today morning i just ended the only with that was keep me going, that was relationship with someone i dont love. She is a very nice person, but she does not deserves someone with in my depressive all-the-time mood.
Everything that i touch becames ashes. My past mistakes leaded me to shithole life. I wont be able to fullfill any dream or desire i had.
Unfortally things only gotten worse in 2020. I didnt died by covid, but the pandemic suspended my life when i was struggling to things get better. Now i lost my will and everything more.
I will CTB because i dont believe in miracles. I fucked my life. Theres no way turning back.
This last week was pathetic. So many bad things happened to me.
Yesterday i went a little bit crazy. I screamed and argued in the streets.
I gave up on everything. I just cant handle anymore. I feel very sorry about the people who loves me, but i cant stand the suffering anymore. I am about to explode.
Today morning i just ended the only with that was keep me going, that was relationship with someone i dont love. She is a very nice person, but she does not deserves someone with in my depressive all-the-time mood.
Everything that i touch becames ashes. My past mistakes leaded me to shithole life. I wont be able to fullfill any dream or desire i had.
Unfortally things only gotten worse in 2020. I didnt died by covid, but the pandemic suspended my life when i was struggling to things get better. Now i lost my will and everything more.
I will CTB because i dont believe in miracles. I fucked my life. Theres no way turning back.
