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mimeiji

mimeiji

>_<
Mar 13, 2024
14
Here's my process:
- 8 hours or more fasting (from 4:30pm to 1:00am)
- 1000mg of paracetamol (1:00am)
- 30mg of meto (1:15am)
- while waiting, mix sn (1 and a half 1/8 cup of water and 1 spoon of sn) (unfortunately i only have those measuring baking spoons/cup)
- drink sn (2:00am)

Is this good enough? It's currently around 10:40pm, just writing down my letters now! Hopefully I won't be in a lot of pain cause the hotel I'm in isn't that soundproofed.

Edit: Just reread the bodyweight to sn ratio recommendation, turns out I only need a spoon of sn LOL
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

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Aug 31, 2025
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I hope you get what you want! Good luck!
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
91
My advice to you is to get a precise weight scale before attempting. Too much SN can result in immediate nausea and vomiting most of the SN resulting in a failed attempt, too little SN might also cause a failed attempt or death with prolonged suffering.
There was a young woman from Brazil that took too little SN (she didn't have a precise measuring scale either) and because she ingested too little SN it took more than 40-50 minutes for her to lose consciousness.
 
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3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
165
I hope that you find peace, one way or the other ^-^
 
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mimeiji

mimeiji

>_<
Mar 13, 2024
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My advice to you is to get a precise weight scale before attempting. Too much SN can result in immediate nausea and vomiting most of the SN resulting in a failed attempt, too little SN might also cause a failed attempt or death with prolonged suffering.
There was a young woman from Brazil that took too little SN (she didn't have a precise measuring scale either) and because she ingested too little SN it took more than 40-50 minutes for her to lose consciousness.
Unfortunately I don't really have time to test anymore :( It's do or die for me now I used up all of my money for the hotel room (as well as for my last day earlier) Although I did have a weighing scale, I accidentally forgot it at my dorm
 
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idiotmother

Specialist
Mar 21, 2025
316
I think using 1 cup and more of Sn is way too much… I wish I knew what the proper amount was. I tried looking it up on here and I found one thread with someone talking about three tablespoons but again, I really don't know. You're not able to go to dorm and get the scale?
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
91
Unfortunately I don't really have time to test anymore :( It's do or die for me now I used up all of my money for the hotel room (as well as for my last day earlier) Although I did have a weighing scale, I accidentally forgot it at my dorm
I still insist of you reconsidering your decision. The amount of SN is of crucial importance.
 
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mimeiji

mimeiji

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Mar 13, 2024
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I think using 1 cup and more of Sn is way too much… I wish I knew what the proper amount was. I tried looking it up on here and I found one thread with someone talking about three tablespoons but again, I really don't know. You're not able to go to dorm and get the scale?
1/8 cup is 3 tablespoons from what I searched up! And no unfortunately, my dorm is hours away TT
I still insist of you reconsidering your decision. The amount of SN is of crucial importance.
Thank you for your concern! But it is what it is unfortunately
 
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idiotmother

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Mar 21, 2025
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1/8 cup is 3 tablespoons from what I searched up! And no unfortunately, my dorm is hours away TT
Oh ok, did not know that. Best of luck to you then, I wish you peace and serenity.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
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I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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mimeiji

mimeiji

>_<
Mar 13, 2024
14
Here's my process:
- 8 hours or more fasting (from 4:30pm to 1:00am)
- 1000mg of paracetamol (1:00am)
- 30mg of meto (1:15am)
- while waiting, mix sn (1 and a half 1/8 cup of water and 1 spoon of sn) (unfortunately i only have those measuring baking spoons/cup)
- drink sn (2:00am)

Is this good enough? It's currently around 10:40pm, just writing down my letters now! Hopefully I won't be in a lot of pain cause the hotel I'm in isn't that soundproofed.

Edit: Just reread the bodyweight to sn ratio recommendation, turns out I only need a spoon of sn LOL
1:00am now! just drank my paracetamol
 
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danivodka5

danivodka5

Did I ever tell you the definition of Insanity?
Jul 9, 2025
16
Wishing you the best of all things.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
91
Good luck. I hope you escape from whatever tormented you and made you to take this step, and be at peace.
 
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mimeiji

mimeiji

>_<
Mar 13, 2024
14
mixing my sn now! it looks like if someone whos hydrated pissed into a cup lol
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
91
mixing my sn now! it looks like if someone whos hydrated pissed into a cup lol
I like how you still have your sense of humor right until the very end.
 
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needwaytohell

needwaytohell

Member
Apr 2, 2025
60
Hope you find peace. Planning on doing something similar hoping to join your journey someday.
 
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mimeiji

mimeiji

>_<
Mar 13, 2024
14
I like how you still have your sense of humor right until the very end.
thank you! i don't have any beta blockers so the best i can do to not back out is to try and be funnyyy
currently just watching youtube now, but today was fun! i made sure to dress up prettily today and went out to get some cheesecake and some burger steak ^^ 18 minutes left aaa so worried
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
91
thank you! i don't have any beta blockers so the best i can do to not back out is to try and be funnyyy
currently just watching youtube now, but today was fun! i made sure to dress up prettily today and went out to get some cheesecake and some burger steak ^^ 18 minutes left aaa so worried
I love eating cheesecakes a lot. They are so tasty, and for some reason in my country they are quite expensive. As for burger steaks I like them too, but I rarely eat them because they will make me gain weight :smiling: When my time comes to take my SN I will use benzos and meto. I'm having second thoughts about beta blockers as I don't want to overmedicate myself before taking my SN.
Have a safe journey, and I hope you end up in a much better place than this cruel world.:heart:
 
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Theresnoescape

Theresnoescape

Student
May 29, 2024
151
Good luck, I hope everything goes smoothly for you.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
335
I wish you a peaceful and painless departure.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,571
I hope you find the peace you are searching for, I wish you the best.
 

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